This poem is based on a lot of things lately. A lot of demands from people left and right.
Lately....I just feel like I'm trying to be so many things for so many people.....although it doesn't seem like it, I'm always putting their needs above my own....and no one understands why I act the way I do......but they never bothered to find out what was bugging me in the first place.....Maybe this poem will help people see what I am trying to get across....It may be a rude awakening for some.....but please try to see where Im comming from....


I Am who I'm Not....


I'm not as brave as others think
I'm not an angel with healing wings
I'm not a hero with a flashy cape
….I am....who I'm not.....

I'm not a villain, though others may think
I'm not a fiend that manipulates.
I'm not a person who tries to hurt others.
….I am.....who I'm not......

I'm not brave for me, but for all those around
I'm not looking for sympathy, I can do without
I'm not doing anything accept trying to help
…....but still.....I am.....who I'm not.....

For so long I have been brave for others around
For so long I have been what was needed, not myself
I lost the person who I thought I was.....
…..who am I?......
….I am....who I'm not......

Doing my best to help those who need
Doing my best to keep that brave face
Doing my best to be everything for everyone
And still......I am who I'm not.....
….I am....who I'm not......

I am who I'm not.....
….Now.....not even I know.....
What do I do now?...if anything at all......
Does it really matter, if I triumph or fall?....

…..Well whatever the case, its clear to me....
I'm not the man I used toe be.....
Everyone wants everything.....perfection from the past
Well.....the truth be told.....that's not going to happen.....

Who we were.....
Who we are.....
Who we wanted to become......
…....

Sometimes we do it for ourselves....
…..other times, we do it for others......
...but along the way.....we start to change......
…..this happened to me......
I am......who I am.......
I am.....who I'm not........