I wanted to post a journal post but I can't figure it out on mobile so have a look at the marvelous MR-63

I've been. Okay. For the most part. Life has been kicking me right in the face with steel toed boots lately. Lots of routine changes, getting used to being alone most days, picking fishing back up as a coping mechanism, trying to reach out to my family, etc.

The worst has been unbearable pains in both my hands. I don't know what happened, it just did. I can barely hold a pencil now even with meds and bandages. The pain is so bad some days I want to got to the hospital. It was all so sudden, every joint hurting to the point of tears -and I can stand pain to an unhealthy degree. I keep my hands wrapped whenever I can because it hurts so much. People have been saying it's arthritis but it's unlikely at my age, and not this fast acting. I'm in so much pain I sit in my car and scream out of pain, frustration and guilt. I want to get better, and I've done so much for it. But right when I start to get out of my burnout, this happens

I'm sorry. I'm trying really hard to push through the pain and I still want to post art. I just can't stand the pain long enough to finish a sketch at this point

I just hope you're not too mad at me. I'm trying, damn I push past my pain limits everyday. But that doesn't leave me with much time to work on anything that's not basic health care and even there I'm lacking

Even now my dominant hand is bandaged up and I have trouble typing without pain. The joints started creaking too. I'll be going to the hospital in the next few days to have it checked. Hopefully something will get out of it