It is with the heaviest of hearts that I am uploading my goodbye to Technoblade. He may not have known me, nor I him, but the impact he left on my life is too great not to thank him for it. I’m heartbroken that he might never get to know this.

For folks who don’t know me, I’m a DID system. I split an introject alter based off of Techno, whom you guys might know as “TB”. He's been such a positive influence on my life. Technoblade was the sole thing that got me back into Minecraft. He’s been the driving force to my creativity for almost 2 years. I tried very hard to find a way to thank him properly and words just aren’t even close. I sketched this three times before settling on what I’m sharing with you today.

I know I’m not the only one, but I was absolutely devastated when I heard the news. It still doesn’t feel quite real. I watch his old videos and it’s hard to think that his life was cut short by sarcoma. It just doesn’t feel real. And I think about his dogs on the dsmp server and how each of them is one of us and how we will always be waiting for him to come back, for him to start another stream, to hear him ring the channel member bell.

I don’t think I can leave the dsmp fandom after this. I feel like I owe it too much. I owe him too much. If I let my fear of being judged stop me from enjoying the things I love doing, then I’m disrespecting his legacy. One of my favorite clips of him, which I plan on animating, is him going “Do what makes you happy. Do what you want, man!”

I’m going to miss the community he built, I’m going to miss spamming ONE OF US in the chat every time he rang the bell, the Es, shouting BLOOD FOR THE BLOOD GOD, the roles in tftsmp that he never got to play, the jokes he never got to make, the way every insult just slid off of him, how he was always able to put a humorous spin on everything, how every life he touched left a positive impact on them. I’m just going to miss it all.

I’ve been sobbing my eyes out for the last week, barely able to function and I don’t know when that will stop, but I will still make Techno content. I’m not giving up my OC TB but I want to animate Techno again. I miss him, and this feels like a way I can carry on his legacy. I won’t stop until I’ve run out of content to animate or draw.

Thank you for reading this. I wish you the best in dealing with your grief and I hope you wish the same for me. Have a good day.