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The title of the drawing is because of this song: (I really love that song)
-> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zjbJS1k5Adw
I was trying to do this drawing since.. quite long time. But i just couldn't draw myself again.. until now.
With this picture want to express how important my drawings are to me.. Every story, every character (OC) that i had created, just.. they are everything to me. The stories always are things that i can't do, places where i can't go, the only chances to feel.. loved.. or deserver to be love... all of that happening only in my mind, where looks like it is the only place where it can happen.
I have always felt so alone that only my drawings could makes me feel better. With every story i feel that i can go anywhere, to places noone else can go, discovery things noone knows..
And with my OCs (husbandos) just trying to feel what i'm lack of.. feel loved and that i have someones attention.
I can confess that i had this idea to just.. fool my mind. If i can imagine it hard enough i can feel a hug, a kiss, i can feel being loved by one of my boys, i can feel a hand holding mine, i can feel.. secure again, just by a moment.
Even if isn't real, i try my best to fool my mind. At least, that way i can be "ready" to keep taking care of my real life. To just hide those emotions and needs that i can't fullfil, or trick my mind to just make it believe they are fullfil and everythings ok. Also that's the reason why i'm not sleeping much i can say, i always spend some hours of the night to imagine and travel in my mind.
These past years.. i could say they were the worst of my life.. to many thing happen, too many things changed in me..
I can't feel secure or calm anymore, i'm always alert to anything that can happen in my surroundings and i'm always really streesed and jumpy.
I think i have to get used to this.. i think i'm not recovering soon.. at all.. i feel quite broken..
~If you reach to the end thank you so much for reading and sorry for the "vent". I just had to take it out of my chest.
Really thank you, for real.
The title of the drawing is because of this song: (I really love that song)
-> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zjbJS1k5Adw
I was trying to do this drawing since.. quite long time. But i just couldn't draw myself again.. until now.
With this picture want to express how important my drawings are to me.. Every story, every character (OC) that i had created, just.. they are everything to me. The stories always are things that i can't do, places where i can't go, the only chances to feel.. loved.. or deserver to be love... all of that happening only in my mind, where looks like it is the only place where it can happen.
I have always felt so alone that only my drawings could makes me feel better. With every story i feel that i can go anywhere, to places noone else can go, discovery things noone knows..
And with my OCs (husbandos) just trying to feel what i'm lack of.. feel loved and that i have someones attention.
I can confess that i had this idea to just.. fool my mind. If i can imagine it hard enough i can feel a hug, a kiss, i can feel being loved by one of my boys, i can feel a hand holding mine, i can feel.. secure again, just by a moment.
Even if isn't real, i try my best to fool my mind. At least, that way i can be "ready" to keep taking care of my real life. To just hide those emotions and needs that i can't fullfil, or trick my mind to just make it believe they are fullfil and everythings ok. Also that's the reason why i'm not sleeping much i can say, i always spend some hours of the night to imagine and travel in my mind.
These past years.. i could say they were the worst of my life.. to many thing happen, too many things changed in me..
I can't feel secure or calm anymore, i'm always alert to anything that can happen in my surroundings and i'm always really streesed and jumpy.
I think i have to get used to this.. i think i'm not recovering soon.. at all.. i feel quite broken..
~If you reach to the end thank you so much for reading and sorry for the "vent". I just had to take it out of my chest.
Really thank you, for real.
Category Artwork (Digital) / Human
Species Human
Size 1280 x 560px
File Size 111.4 kB
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