I like that this word really fits
underdog is a term for a person who looks weaker, who will lose, from whom it's better not to expect too much
foxes are canines so ye
underfox
anyway

I like that I use songs in these arts that are important to me
some are new to me, some have been with me for a long time
today's theme has been with me for almost 10 years, because Linkin Park was probably the first band that helped me so much in the past
I was just entering the world of music and discovering that I can identify so strongly with this type of art
in addition, Chester's story shocked me a lot then and made me realize how fragile human life is if you're unable to deal with your own problems
although I didn't know him and I probably don't know about many things about his life, I'm glad that he was a significant part of this work, which helped me cut myself off from reality even for a moment

about the art - a glass, cracked moon that can be compared to something like my inner shell that protects me as long as it sticks together
the shell, which allows me to play a composed, self-confident and easy-going person

in the past the moon (as a celestial body) was for me something that I spoke to and treated as some embodiment of a higher power (times when I was into Wicca)
I often sat in front of the window and stared at it, trying to focus only on looking at the craters and thinking, forgetting about the whole world around me (btw quite a difficult thing to do - to look at one point for a few minutes and not look away
now it wouldn't be possible, because my eyesight got a bit worse and I can no longer see craters on its surface
it's probably time to get better glasses)

you can say that the fox on the art shows what I feel during panic attacks, which are most often caused by fear (surprise surprise)
fear makes me feel weak
then I don't control my emotions, logic and rationalism have no strength and I can't use them, even though I really want to

at such moments, a lot of things trigger me - light, movement, laughter, other people's conversations
I curl up in a ball, tear my hair, sometimes cut myself, cry, whatever - just to close myself to stimuli from the environment
then I'm also not able to say a word, although I really want to throw out that hella big amount of thoughts that are swirling in my head, to get rid of these emotions and the feeling that I can never cope with anything, that people will stop being patient with me, that they will doubt in me, that they will stop understanding this fear

theme: https://youtu.be/RRGSHvlu9Ss?list=P.....KXMiThECFikMK8

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challenge - https://www.instagram.com/p/CTqgnJ2ITW9/