"Dies irae"

basically I just wanted to draw some art that i'll be able to use as a cosplay project
because I still plan to have a plague doctor one 👀

previously i've also designed such outfit while drawing a challenge and back then Tay was having it, but I found that Nikae would look better in it, cause they wearing it can be explained in any way
the one that Tay had was more just like a random halloween outfit

+ I wanted to change the appearance of the outfit, so that it's not the same as those on all photos with plague doctors
this one is more elegant

so, lore stuff - Nikae just took the role of a plague doctor in one of the cities they stayed in during their eternal mission of literally being Karma (more on their TH)
this was the reality of this world, so they had to blend in with the crowd and quietly do their job
the form on the art is demonic one (normally they don't have wings, tail etc., it would be too suspicious), which they only use under certain circumstances

anyway, about the art:
I need someone to judge my actions and tell me if I'm doing right or wrong
I don't want to do bad things because I fear the consequences or that I'll never fix them again
because there are things beyond repair
I know that, because such things have already happened

but I trust no one to the degree that I know that they're judging me fairly
people have their opinions, but they're subjective

Nikae was indirectly created as the personification of the need of having a sense of justice
I don't know if my morality is the right one, but Nikae's one is
because they're subordinate to someone greater than them, who gave them this knowledge, so that they could use it for good purposes

I wish I could judge myself with the certainty that I'm doing it right
or know the punishments for bad things I've done

I just want to know how i should act in this world

theme: https://youtu.be/MNYEyp-1zRY?list=P.....KXMiThECFikMK8 (I wanted to use this music as a theme a long time ago, it's quite important to me, indirectly the art was inspired by Dies irae [https://wolnelektury.pl/katalog/lektura/hymny-dies-irae.html] and by the artwork from the cover of the music)

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art by me
oc belong to me
challenge - https://www.instagram.com/p/CTqgnJ2ITW9/