I'm all dead. The work here has practically stopped making money, all the work is almost in vain. Looking at other artists, everything is relatively normal for them. Do others now accept orders only from those artists who must necessarily hate Russia? Why should I hate only one government, one country, when the government is practically the same everywhere?

I don't think Russia alone is bad, but everyone is good. It reminds me of my life where only I was blamed when I was just defending myself. Both are always to blame for the conflict, and in this case, even more stupid shit of world leaders.

But not about that now.
I see that it is pointless to do anything here. 2 months have passed, the money has run out, I have been doing paperwork and job search for more than six months, I also got sick. It's the same with my partner - he needs to replace his passport, he doesn't have an INN at all, he is also ill, and I will receive an INN only on the second of June.

My hands dropped.
I do not know what will happen to this account. Maybe I'll get better, and then sometimes I'll do something and post it. Or maybe I'll switch to another account or stop drawing altogether. I don't like my drawings, I don't see any potential in myself.

I am very angry with myself and the whole world. I was completely exhausted mentally. My partner draws much slower than me because of depression, and therefore I have no idea what to do. He is also not on very good terms with his parents because of the LGBT recognition and the fact that we are a couple. But, nevertheless, I thank them, them for feeding us. My mother, being in Uzbekistan, cannot provide me with almost anything because of the low salary.

In general, I'm tired of everything, and I just don't know what to say next. Sheer bad luck.