ohh Willow! my irreplaceable and unforgettable dream friend, you came back ^*^ I couldn't count the days when I missed your words, during which I didn't feel your company and during which I missed your signs of life so much. now you come here after these incredibly long weeks to give your friends indescribable joy at the sight of you ^^ may I ask what has been going on with you during this time? I am very interested in what caused you to be absent and your neglect of your artistic skills.

leanthir!! oh ive missed you! Ever since my mom passed away, life has gotten so busy on top of my full time job I have lost sight of my drawing career... I would love to start drawing again but since it has been so long i fear that i have lost my abilities. I have yet to get my passion back but im sure its not completely lost! Hopefully the artsy side of my brain will spark again haha
How have you been during this time??

I guess your situation, I had very similar but in fact we both have a hard time now. me, because I still can't get up from the past and try to live on but only on my knees. you were weighed down by a great burden of responsibility and loneliness that made my days worse too. When my parents died, I only had my brother who hated me, and one day he decided to abandon me so that I wouldn't waste any more of his time. then I was also overwhelmed by responsibility, loneliness, and in addition fear. I was not even of legal age then. it follows me, but luckily for now there is no such thing that can be damaged by my past here. Something so horrible that I would remember it for my whole life and not forgive the past would be that I would have to leave from here with thoughts that wouldn't allow me to write normally with anyone, but I won't allow it. too many times the past has destroyed my precious things to now destroy one of the most important foundations of my life. unfortunately, not only I suffered in your absence, I am sure that you also did not feel best while not drawing, not talking to us and not receiving a few words of consolation. It took its toll on your skills which are still in you, never think that one day they will disappear, they will always be in you. it's a talent that will not just disappear by itself. it's like an extinguished light bulb in your soul, and you just have to turn it back on to illuminate your soul and all that is important. the path may not be easy, but as our universal master of varied arts, you can do it for sure ^*^

For me, a lot has changed in my life, I have the impression that hundreds of events are happening with each new day. My friend and I have welcomed Ukrainian families under our roofs, people looking for safe places, and we try to help them as if they were our own families, even though most of our lives we did not have our owns. I also took practical lessons in a hairdressing salon after I noticed that clients see potential in me, and so far I am checking if it is for me. on the occasion of my birthday, which are moving in small steps, my friend decided to help me return to my dead musical path in life. now I play mostly guitars, but I used to love piano music, I loved their look, sound, and everything else. unfortunately I lost my beloved and beautiful instrument due to an unpleasant incident with my brother, and since then I was afraid to return to the musical path of keys instruments. my friend got me an electric piano, on which I will be able to check if the true soul of pianists still lives in me after so many years.

It is so kind of you guys to take in Ukrainian families... I can't imagine the sadness and fear those families are feeling during this awful event. We will be praying for their safey every day until this finally ends.
It is so nice to hear that you are not only looking to respark your passion for making music, but also looking into new things like being a hair stylist! Having these hobbies will sure keep you happy and busy!
I am so happy to finally be back to see you! It's crazy to see that so many people are still with me, its like i never left <3

their pain and their fear were palpable even if there was no such suffering person next to you, a person who had been forced to flee their own home by bombing. thinking about it did not let me and my friend sleep, even if this war does not concern us, our neighbors are fighting there, we were afraid to close our eyes to wake up with the information that Ukraine was gone.. it just had a bad influence on us, we wanted to do something in this direction and we decided to take such a responsible step.

lessons in a hairdressing salon are huge and frequent contact with people, something that I fear the most. I am not only a person who avoids contact with others, but also discourages others from even looking at me through my appearance. I don't want it, but this is how others see me. it's still a miracle that some of clients talk to me normally and are not afraid of me. so far everything has been going well so I hope to keep it the same so that I can enjoy the music and know that I am doing something for others at the same time ^^