"there's alot more breaking inside, and it's not just love"

2 times i dated or had a mate just for it all to come down in a terrible manner, a friend of mine just unwatch me n i feel like he might be ignoring me now, and my mother after stating the other day that "even if he(Me) get to jail i wont help him, let the devil have him for all i care. i wont let him drag me down" in the morning the day after she being an ass as ever "said please just get a job at this point and get an apartment and leave us... Dont call me your mother your not my son", i also live in the ghetto and trying to get enough money just to be able to pay the college i'm going too. and my sister is in the mouth of the tiger with someone who verbically abused her numerous time even though they were seperate........ welcome to life

either way this was more towards trusting and hurting by love, but of course what else can i say? thats what i get for letting "my heart win". the idea was at the part in the vid ( 2:50 ) where everyone sang that part of the lyric "thats what you get when you let ur heart win". it sounds like a pack of people bullying you. but either way what else can i say?



"Thats what you get"
Paramore:

video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HrafJDPXGJc

Lyric:
No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt, so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating. (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Hey, make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

artwork (C) of me
song/lyric "thats what you get" (C) Paramore