Karma, God, a simple coincidence - some of this caused the fact that I was born in Russia, in a truly cursed place. This is 1/9 of the land, where people in power build real palaces for themselves and ride their concubine on rich huge yachts, and the 80% of the people do not have the money to buy a new vacuum cleaner, clothes or even quality food without saving some money for several months. A place where you will be beaten and imprisoned for having your own opinion and going out into the street to talk about it. A place where you won't get a good enough education to leave here - local diplomas outside of this country are good only as toilet paper.

The piece of shit that's been sitting in the top chair here for years went completely mad some time ago. At the wave of his blood-soaked hand, my friend, who lives in Ukraine, was in mortal danger and is still in it. When I woke up and read about it on the news, I couldn't believe it...

I fear for his life every day and I'm scared if he doesn't answer my message for even a few minutes. I write to him every day somewhat with the thought that he may never answer me. A bomb could hit his house or he could be shot on the way home from work... And I'm ashamed that this is happening because of the country where I live
I can't help him, I can't send him food or money, I can't get him out of there.
This is killing me

But this was not enough, and now the little I have created in my not very long life is collapsing. All I wanted was to do what I like, make other people a little happier and to get paid for it, which will be enough to live on. But I was born in the wrong place and now PayPal, the service that is convenient for most of my customers, has closed in my country. Gradually, other ways of transferring are also being closed... For years, commissions were the only source of my income, not counting temporary part-time jobs from time to time. Now I have only small savings and prospects of a delivery worker or a cashier.

I'm still looking for ways, maybe I can find an intermediary for transactions or something else... but to be honest I have no energy


Until I find another payment method, I close commissions. However, I will definitely complete all current work. I apologize in advance if one day I find myself on an isolated Internet like in China and never again send my drawings to customers and watchers (everything is leading to this)

You have the right to hate me. This is fine. It's just that I never wanted it