I'm not one for, well..."vent art" but this is the closest representation I could do with my limited artistic skills of my own...self, I guess. I looked inward and came to a few conclusions about myself.

I'm trapped in a cycle of emotions. I take in everyone else's pain and suffering, but when they become happy, I become happy as well, and for a while, that happiness and love shines through, warm and bright like fire. But eventually, all that negative energy builds up, and the happiness fades away, leaving me ice cold, wanting to reclaim all that I had given to others.

When I can shine for my friends, I smile and laugh for them, cheerful and pleasant. But when the emotions turn to shards of frozen pain, I retreat inwards, putting walls and shields between myself and those I care about, trying to avoid hurting them when my need for warmth becomes a vampiric chill.

It's a cycle that's a part of who I am, over and over again, inescapable. Tonight I looked at the mirror and finally accepted what I saw within it. It's not perfect, but...the knowledge should help me protect those I love from the cold world around us...and the terrible frost within me.

I shall burn bright, for everyone who needs a candle in the dark...so that they can stand strong when my wick turns to ice, until the cycle renews.

I also should mention, this isn't a depression piece. It's not here to ask for sympathy or hugs, it's just...kinda an honest piece I did to express emotion and accept myself for who I am. I'm still the cheerful smiling birb you all know, just...getting this off my chest.

I just want to let you guys know. If I ever go quiet, or don't respond after you say heavy stuff, I haven't abandoned you or gave up on you...I might just be battling my own frost, and I might be hiding behind my own walls. Sometimes birb needs a flame to sit besides too...