This is what i think people would think if i commited suicide.


Creating the end


Though my problems are gone I don’t feel any good,
I don’t feel the release I thought I would.

I watch as my body wastes away,
It just watches the world unfold as it may.

I know I will never feel your embrace,
And I know I will never see your face.

My life flows out of the hole I created,
I was forgotten, hated and unappreciated.

I look at myself as I stare back at me,
I look for something in him but there’s nothing to see.

Looking at me now you don’t have a true tear to spare,
Even when I died you still wouldn’t care,
Even though I’m gone you still wasn’t there,
And as my body grows cold you just mock my empty stare.

I feel myself lose grip upon my soul,
Because loneliness has taken its toll.

I’ll never know what life is like as it slips away,
I want to live but it is in death I’m condemned to stay.
I told myself I would not die this way,
But I was living a life filled of total dismay.

I see my reflection in the metal of the gun,
But the sight of myself burns like the sun.

You pretend to care and you even cry,
But I see those tears are just a pathetic lie.

My existence was nothing to you,
Because I always questioned the things you do.

And even as you watch my body rot,
You never knew it was you for whom I fought.

You watch as I rot into something you can’t discern,
I wasn’t cared for enough even for an urn

When everyone leaves all you do is smile,
You inhale the smell that is putrid and veil.
I gave you an inch and you took a mile,
I thought you’d love me but all you do is defile

I thought you were different, I thought you care,
But like the devil it’s lies that you share

Your existence was all that mattered,
Yet you left me beaten and shattered.

I don’t want you to think of me, I don’t want to be in your mind,
I was given a second chance but knowing you I quickly declined.

All I ever wanted was to cry on your shoulder
I don’t care for you now and even if I did, my life is already over.