Also just gonna get this out of the way real quick, no this is not a vent post. Vulkhi is a character I like to do a lot of backstory/emotional building for, I like to think of him as one of my more dynamic characters in that regard.
Unlike Ryle who is more the heroic character (in lore), and Al'KuhXul who is just an eldritch devourer of sorts, Vulkhi has made mistakes from all the years he's lived and constantly battles them in his later life.

(Also, worth nothing, the tidbit with "Vensveth" is a part of lore that is not publicly written/published yet. But it is already a canonical part of lore, that should hopefully be out sometime this millennia)

No Tears + Story Version here

Art by  Monokurome
Rant excerpt by  Urthoc (Me ovo)

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You know, being in here feels a bit like a dream. It's been centuries since I've had real sleep, one of the many things I lost with this so called blessing. I still don't want to go back, it would be like waking up and wishing you could just go back to bed. I remember at least what that felt like, each time I'm eviscerated and brought back it feels just like that.

I may not remember this place when I do return, but I still get that feeling. I wish I could stay here forever, or perhaps finally move onto the afterlife, whatever awaits. However, in my seemingly endless days, I've done some horrible things. I know there's nothing good waiting for me, and I'm sure if I were to truly perish you would likely send me to the worst of places.

I wonder sometimes though, if there could truly be something worse than the burden of one's own actions. I suppose someday if I'm lucky I'll find out for myself. However, as much as I despise my lonesome immortal life, I won't just keel over and die. I'm not going to stake myself, or go for an extended sunbathing. With everything I've been through, that would be far too easy.

As far as I'm aware, I'm known far and wide as a monster. Would be fitting for an experienced group of vampire hunters to finally put an end to me, or maybe a massive army. Who knows, heh... maybe even Ryle will try to do to me what he did with Vensveth.

You may not talk much, or at all from what I can remember, but you're the best and only company I've had for years now. At least, the only company that hasn't tried to off me. Then again, can't blame them, with all the things I've done. Either way, thanks for listening to me and not just kicking me out to the real world. I suppose just like a dream, I can't stay here forever though. Just give me a moment, and I'll leave you to your duties. Hopefully one of these times, I can see about getting you to talk."