It's really hard for me. It is very difficult for me to cope with depression. Every day I have to convince myself that everything will be fine, just so as not to slip into a bad state. Every day I try to cope with bad thoughts, I try not to hurt myself. I've been holding on for a long time and I don't do this. I can enjoy life, I can smile and laugh, sometimes even hmm.. Feel happy? But I feel that it is near. This shit is constantly near me, it does not make me feel good completely, it consumes me when I am alone with it. I'm just very tired and I want it to end as soon as possible(((