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As per...well my usual I guess I've found myself in a hard decision with myself in the fandom. With Nardia I have gone through many changes. She's been just about one of everything and I have grown almost bored with the entity of the character. I have chosen to keep the pandapard look for Nardia because it does infact fit her. However, I start to question if she is me.

Nardia has grown into a wonderful creation. I've loved seeing her grow and develope but I'm starting to feel that she isn't me. NOT because I do not like or want the pandapard. No. I love the pandapard! I loved creating it with my sister  Syntharia_Desire and I plan to keep it for a very long time.

However, with Scarlet I feel a kind of special bond. She is a character I had in my head a long time ago, but I never brought her to life. I wanted her as a fursona but didn't do anything about it. Now that she's here...I can see her and work with her design...I don't know. SOMETHING about her just tugs at me. She has my colors, my design. She's adverse like me. She can be cute and sweet, but then in an instant turn dark/twisted/wicked evil. She can be normal, or she can be crazy! She's witty and she's sarcastic. Her design is simple...yet inside she is complex.

In my mind, Scarlet is more me then Nardia is now. I don't know why, and I don't know what to do. I don't want to change again because I'll be prodded by people saying I'm just changing to be cute or because it's what I do.

I'm not considering the change because Scarlet is 'cute' to me. I'm considering it because in her creation I have made her as much as me as any character could get, without being me in actual life.

If you have any HELPFUL advice or suggestions feel free to put them, but please not. I do NOT want to have two fursonas. If I did this wouldn't be an issue.

All I can say is that if I keep Scarlet as my 'sona, Nardia will remain a character of my property. I'll use her in pictures and keep care of the character. Nobody will have her but me.