The last couple of weeks have been pretty tough for me mentally. There are some obsessive images, thoughts that make it difficult to focus on something really important: at work, family, friends. And obsessive thoughts are associated with a periodic desire to remain completely alone, to cut off ties with all friends and relatives and move to another place where no one will find me. This has never happened before, so I can’t even guess what it’s connected with. I am so tired of people who are present in my life that sometimes it starts to seem to me that it would be easier if they simply did not exist. Although many of these people have never done anything bad to me and it is definitely not their fault. It seems to me that I cannot cope with the role of a good friend, a good wife and a good daughter. And for the first time I decided to see a psychologist. I'm scared. We go there together with my mother, because first of all I would like to establish communication with her. We have very different opinions, and every time I come to visit my parents, it ends with my tears. I am writing this here because I cannot tell anyone personally about it. But there is no more strength to keep this in my head. Sorry