Old doodle because I don't feel like drawing right now purely because of how fucking pissed I am. I could probably use a journal post to my advantage with these things, but eh, pretty drawing, people gives more attention, ya feel?

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I. Am. Fucking. Livid. I could just fucking strangle someone right now, specifically my mother. Now, generally i've learned to just ignore her antics because of how immature and neglectful she can be. But holy FUCKING SHIT THIS IS A NEW LEVEL OF BAD PARENTING. She dropped my sister off here at our grandparents, and my sister comes upstairs to the work room and mutters to me "Mom dropped me off so [her gf] and her could go take shots.." now, as she's only six, her wording isnt quite clear a lot of the time, so I had asked her if she meant they were going to get a covid vaccine or smthn, or if she meant alcohol. She pauses for a minute and muttered "V-vo-what's it called..?" I immediately knew she was referring to vodka. The only thing moms gf ever drinks. Im FUCKING PISSED. YOU UNEXPECTEDLY DROPPED OFF YOUR TODDLER AT YOUR PARENTS HOUSE FOR FREE BABYSITTING, JUST SO YOU CAN GO GET FUCKING WASTED WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND? MMMMMM. I've never been more tempted to just call fucking cps on this woman. For one, this kid knows so much shit she absolutely SHOULD. NOT. Due to her and her gf's constant dirty talking, it'd fucking irritating. And it's not just sexual shit either. She knows about alcohol (arguably not as bad. but still) and drugs due to these people. They piss me off to no end. I was already in a bit of a sour mood for reasons I won't delve into. But this, OHHHH THIS. This fucking enraged me like never before. I legitimately don't think i've ever felt this much white hot rage at once. I can feel my face and hands burning as im writing this. Sometimes I wish my grandfather would do as he's angrily brought up many times before, take this vile woman to court. She's so fucking irresponsible. I was raised by my grandparents due to her neglect, and my dad's alcoholism and drug addictions. She never fucking learned from what happened with me. Did she? She never fucking learned, I might as well be fucking mentally disturbed due to all the shit she's put me through, she's caused me anxiety, and likely depression as well as a mild form of ptsd. But she goes and does the same things she did when I was little with my sister. God, I am indescribably angry. Angry at mom, angry at her gf, angry at the fucking world. I should probably go calm myself down before I make a bad decision and snap at someone here or call mom and go off at her.