I honestly don't know if she was serious or if she even cares now. Some girls are like that. All my gal pals are.. Not me though.

...she wasnt like that though... *cries*

*hugs* I'm just saying... my friends act like they love their boyfriend so much and even talk about marraige.. Then they break up with them and forget about them and move on to the next guy.. Idk. That's just how it seems here to me.

maybe... maybe..... i hope to god not.......

*hugs* ....I'm sorry.

*hugs back tight*

Everyone here seems to agree with me though...

i think that might be the worst part of it...

Maybe you should take that as a sign to move on...

maybe... but still...

Please Ian. Don't keep beating yourself up.

i have no reason to stop... ive fucked everything up... i desurve to suffer...

Stop that!

its true though

No its not

why?

You did nothing wrong. So get that out of your head

...

oh dear.its cute,but sadly i agreee with SecretlyDevious

*crying hard*

im sorry

*curls up in the corner crying hard*

*sighs*i'll leave now

please... please dont go... please...

then what do u want.

*holds you tight* i need someone... and i care about you very very much... its just... i dont know...

i see....

*holds you tight without letting go*

*rubs ur bak*

*kisses your cheek softly*

*nuzzles ur neck*

*clings to you tightly*

*kisses u*

*kisses back, not wanting to let go*

*pats ur head*

*still holds you tight, trying not to cry anymore*

u can cry as much as u want

i cry too much though

sometimes its good to cry

as much and as pathedically as i do?

yea.

*snuggles you tight*

Oh dear god. Look Hurts But Things happen Again. Life is bull shit, I KNOW. My heart was broken 100x at least. But Got off my as and find other people. If they hurt you, this means a win for you. 1 less person deal with and i agree with SecretlyDevious.

Ass*

Not you I put as instead of ass XD

i know...

Okay. Just making sure^^'

*pats your head*

*hugs you* Just calm down alright^^'

alright...

Good. Now stop mopin' and be happy...

its far from that simple...
id it were that easy i would be happier

Try me me..

i am bipolar, have sever moodswings that are mostly between suicidal, depressed, sad and emo... i have depression...
this is nothing i can just fix on my own... ive been trying for years...

Ah... Theres meds.

no i dont trust them! not one bit!

*makes you take Bipolar pills*

look, i dont trust any of these fucking brain washing pills
...i have sever trust issues if you didnt know... more so through real life shit than through the computer...

Well, if say so.... I don't like them either^^'

People change, you can't expect them to be the same forever, even if you make a vow to each other... unless you both stay true to it.

...i intended to...

this will sound harsh, but i mean it kindly, its better to get over her fast, if she hurt you then shes not worth you.
find someone who will treat you like you're god, and treat them the same!
then that vow will mean something :)

but... who would treat me like that? im worthless...

dont you dare say that! anyone who knows you will tell you exactly the same! you're not worthless! you're a great guy and im really glad i met you on here! you make me smile! and to me that means something! so dont give me all that im worthless nonsence!
your my friend now whether you like it or not and you ,mean a hell of alot ok!? =]

*holds tight* thanks, im glad i mean something to people on here
but... real life... it seems like... like im worthless...
i mean ive had 8 girlfirends in the past... and... ive been broken up with for a number of reasons, includint, im not enough to keep her happy, i wanted a monogomous relationship, wanted someone else... parents over me... etc...
im glad i can make you smile though ^^ <3

well your not that old to be fair, love will come to you, most people dont find true love at the age you are! its such a rare thing! i mean im 20 in october and i still havent found my true love! so dont worry about it! just enjoy being young and let the love find you! :D *hugs back* of course you mean something to people :D

*snuggles*
im someone that wants love... more than anything... i thaught i did find true love, but she left me...
its rare to hear that a teenage guy wants love rather than sex... but thats what matters to me... i want love, i like to be pet and snuggle and talk and hold hands and cuddle... sex is more... meh...

your right =] sex isnt everything.
but like i said, maybe you should stop looking
and wait for it to find you =]

*sigh* what else am i to do though? i mean, amongst people, it rarely appears that im looking... i dont know what else to do...
more than anything, i want to feel love and to love someone myself...

and sex for me.... is kinda weird... like... please dont laugh at me, but do you know what uterophobia is?

no but im guessing its like genaphobic, [where your scared of sex.]
and i dont see why it matters :D
if someone loves you they will wait. or it wont bother them =]

fear of... *caughs* female genitalia *caughcaugh*...
as a teenager, its wierd...
it shouldnt matter, but it doesnt help as far as blending in goes...

well if people cant acsept that then they can go fuck themselves! i dont see whats so bad abgout that. i was genaphobic for quite a while but then when i finally had sex [as drunk as i was] t helped me realise there was nothing to be scared of. you know, its just natural. and i guess maybe you should just not worry about that =]

*snuggles*
te me, its not exactly... entirely fear... its just weird to me... sex is more than natural... i mean isnt it a primary instinct, reproduction?
im glad you got over your fear... i hope to deal with mine *snuggles*

*hugs tight* just try stay positive!
at least you havent found the one and cant have them!

maybe...
*nuzzles*

^-^ *hugs*
trust me, finding someone you want and not being able to have them is the worst! ts so painful, cant eat or sleep cant do anything but feel dead inside.

i know that one... far too well...

yeah =[ love sucks D:

it really does... but i want it more than anything...

yeah same. haha it really is strange isnt it XD

the worst pain and greatest joy at the same time

yeahh, love really does destroy people...

yeah...