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MysteryFanBoy91 did this art 5 years ago and it was connected with some event. Not sure if somewhere marriages with the person of the same gender were legalized then or it was about something different.
As the part of reposting some of MFB91's arts with Lindsay, I have thought posting this one will be a good idea, so I can share my story with you. The story of young hypocrite, who within years changed his mind.
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As you know, I live in Poland since ever.
Those country is known for it being so religious, but the truth is not that much of Polish are really believing in catholic God. According to official statistics, more than 90% of Polish declares as catholics, but less than 40% are practicing this.
Why there is so big difference?
Because many Polish are not following the religion, but traditions and social "standards". In the effect of that, a lot of people there visit church, because they feel they're expected to do this.
As the kid, I have used to believe in God and was eager to go to the church and be active on religion lesson - in Poland parents are allowed to sign their children to religion lesson in school, but in the practice, some of them are signing them feeling like they are forced to this by society OR sometimes the school signs them without asking parents for permission. Then, I had no idea that I was under the conservatist propaganda. The propaganda being against the science & knowledge. The pro-catholic propaganda with added pro-patriotic, martyrdom propaganda in school and some of Polish media.
In those period of my life, as the 13-years-old kid, I have created Lindsay. Those beautiful cowgirl, since her beginning, has been created as lesbian. But it wasn't because of me being or supporting LGBT. It was because I, as trained homophobic (and due to personal school trauma), have been against males (even today I am not willing to do erotical RPs with male characters). I was treating this as some kind of protection, because I was receiving many sex RP propositions from males and I have faced at least 3 gays trying to flirt with me in the real life. Its not that I was disgusted by gays, but some of them were acting weird plus - honestly - I was feeling very often as shy girl approached by male willing to do something bad to her. I was stressed or afraid sometimes.
On the other hand, I have never had problems with lesbians (and had no idea there are even bisexuals). You can now imagine how much of hypocrite I have used to be!
But coming back to Lindsay - after creating her, I could feel those amazing feeling of her somehow being *me*. Like I have discovered the part of me buried under all of the mentioned propaganda and trauma. Like I have founded the true me, my real self. But then I still had no idea there is something more behind this.
I mean, I had the signals, symptoms. But doing my best to be "normal", I have been pushing them out of my head.
Within next years the rightist propaganda was growing stronger in my mind. Many things decided on this.
My conservatist, religious family.
Strong position of church and catholic religion in Poland to the point that many Polish are believing there were not or there still are not the people following different religions or being an atheists in this country. And to the point, where religion and priests got the strong influence on law, which within last years seems to be growing stronger.
The influence of my first, rightitst university, my rightist roommates and the influence of radical liberals - in Poland there is a strong neoliberal movement.
In the meantime, as the person, I have been lost. Travelling around the world and testing different things, trying to find my true self. To find out who I really am. Eventually I have realized the hard (for me) truth - that I am transgender. Genderfluid, to precise, but if I could magically change my gender and jump into the reality, where everybody knew me as a girl since ever - I would do this.
That was the final moment, when everything put on me by propaganda, collapsed. I have realized that I am an atheist too. That I deeply inside believe more in leftist side than rightist. That my heart is closer to the mix of liberalism and socialism, like the Western Europe does, not the current Polish model or neoliberalism. And then - finally - I decided to stand on the other side and support LGBT+.
On one side it was too late. As the 'rightist', I have ruined too much things. On the other side - better then, than never, right?
Its kinda funny, because for years I was thinking that Lindsay is part of me. One of 2 sides of my face.
The truth happenned to be that she had the spark inside me, but it needed to be developed through life experience. I had to grow up to really become Lindsay, not be just a guy with pretty cowgirl OC ^^'
It changed my approach for males a bit. With some of them I can speak normally instead of feeling worse or scared. I accept gays and tolerate them.
There is no change in the fact that I preffer girls and that I do not RP erotically with male OCs.
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Lindsay Cowie -
LindsayPL
Art by
MysteryFanBoy91
MysteryFanBoy91 did this art 5 years ago and it was connected with some event. Not sure if somewhere marriages with the person of the same gender were legalized then or it was about something different. As the part of reposting some of MFB91's arts with Lindsay, I have thought posting this one will be a good idea, so I can share my story with you. The story of young hypocrite, who within years changed his mind.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
As you know, I live in Poland since ever.
Those country is known for it being so religious, but the truth is not that much of Polish are really believing in catholic God. According to official statistics, more than 90% of Polish declares as catholics, but less than 40% are practicing this.
Why there is so big difference?
Because many Polish are not following the religion, but traditions and social "standards". In the effect of that, a lot of people there visit church, because they feel they're expected to do this.
As the kid, I have used to believe in God and was eager to go to the church and be active on religion lesson - in Poland parents are allowed to sign their children to religion lesson in school, but in the practice, some of them are signing them feeling like they are forced to this by society OR sometimes the school signs them without asking parents for permission. Then, I had no idea that I was under the conservatist propaganda. The propaganda being against the science & knowledge. The pro-catholic propaganda with added pro-patriotic, martyrdom propaganda in school and some of Polish media.
In those period of my life, as the 13-years-old kid, I have created Lindsay. Those beautiful cowgirl, since her beginning, has been created as lesbian. But it wasn't because of me being or supporting LGBT. It was because I, as trained homophobic (and due to personal school trauma), have been against males (even today I am not willing to do erotical RPs with male characters). I was treating this as some kind of protection, because I was receiving many sex RP propositions from males and I have faced at least 3 gays trying to flirt with me in the real life. Its not that I was disgusted by gays, but some of them were acting weird plus - honestly - I was feeling very often as shy girl approached by male willing to do something bad to her. I was stressed or afraid sometimes.
On the other hand, I have never had problems with lesbians (and had no idea there are even bisexuals). You can now imagine how much of hypocrite I have used to be!
But coming back to Lindsay - after creating her, I could feel those amazing feeling of her somehow being *me*. Like I have discovered the part of me buried under all of the mentioned propaganda and trauma. Like I have founded the true me, my real self. But then I still had no idea there is something more behind this.
I mean, I had the signals, symptoms. But doing my best to be "normal", I have been pushing them out of my head.
Within next years the rightist propaganda was growing stronger in my mind. Many things decided on this.
My conservatist, religious family.
Strong position of church and catholic religion in Poland to the point that many Polish are believing there were not or there still are not the people following different religions or being an atheists in this country. And to the point, where religion and priests got the strong influence on law, which within last years seems to be growing stronger.
The influence of my first, rightitst university, my rightist roommates and the influence of radical liberals - in Poland there is a strong neoliberal movement.
In the meantime, as the person, I have been lost. Travelling around the world and testing different things, trying to find my true self. To find out who I really am. Eventually I have realized the hard (for me) truth - that I am transgender. Genderfluid, to precise, but if I could magically change my gender and jump into the reality, where everybody knew me as a girl since ever - I would do this.
That was the final moment, when everything put on me by propaganda, collapsed. I have realized that I am an atheist too. That I deeply inside believe more in leftist side than rightist. That my heart is closer to the mix of liberalism and socialism, like the Western Europe does, not the current Polish model or neoliberalism. And then - finally - I decided to stand on the other side and support LGBT+.
On one side it was too late. As the 'rightist', I have ruined too much things. On the other side - better then, than never, right?
Its kinda funny, because for years I was thinking that Lindsay is part of me. One of 2 sides of my face.
The truth happenned to be that she had the spark inside me, but it needed to be developed through life experience. I had to grow up to really become Lindsay, not be just a guy with pretty cowgirl OC ^^'
It changed my approach for males a bit. With some of them I can speak normally instead of feeling worse or scared. I accept gays and tolerate them.
There is no change in the fact that I preffer girls and that I do not RP erotically with male OCs.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Lindsay Cowie -
LindsayPLArt by
MysteryFanBoy91
Category Artwork (Digital) / All
Species Cow
Size 960 x 1280px
File Size 125 kB
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