Hello everyone!
I was gone for a very long time and I want to tell you what happened to me this damn year. My psychologist said it was a good idea.
I want to apologize to everyone who ordered a commission from me, all artwork is done and I will give it back soon!
So, chronicle of my 2020-2021 year:
- January, 2020 — first signs of burnout and onset of anxiety-depressive disorder.
- February, 2020 — severe burnout, chronic fatigue and progression of the disorder.
- March, 2020 — critical Red line, suicidal thoughts, loss of meaning in everything, a visit to a psychotherapist and start taking antidepressants.
- March-July, 2020 — running from everywhere, condition of the vegetable due to antidepressants, nothing, playining in WoW.
- July, 2020 — self-cancel of antidepressants (too expensive + condition like a vegetable). The psychotherapist left me silently. "Hey, how about a dog? You have wanted a puppy for a long time. This will be your new motivation and meaning". Breeder search, preparing for the appearance of a first puppy in my life.
- August, 2020 — a sharp deterioration in mental condition, waiting for a puppy. Waiting for a my first puppy. This is a bull terrier. I called him Repka (in eng it sound like a "Turnip"). He was born on July 9.
- 1 September, 2020 — my puppy has arrived to me! But two days later he got sick. Gastrointestinal tract. It was the beginning of a long treatment for many months.
- September-December, 2020 — long treatment for my puppy Repka.
- September-November, 2020 — our best time, we walked and trained a lot. Cute sweater for him, many goodies. My mental condition has improved!
- December, 2020 — Short-term health improvement due to natural nutrition. Sharp rapid deterioration in health, new problems. More droppers, injections, refusal to eat, syringe feeding, pain relievers, antiemetic, anorexia, (our) sleepless nights, more veterinary clinics. A lot of money spent.
- December-January, 2020-2021 — Finding the best veterinary hospital, placing Repka in a hospital. Hope for the best, little rest, round-the-clock supervision of doctors for Repka. More analysis. A lot of money spent.
- 3 Jannuary, 2021 — Repka died. Pulmonary bleeding, analyzes posthumously confirmed the presence of toxoplasmosis. Ordered cremation and urn.
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I got a dog but only for 6 months. I'm so sorry, Repka, i'm a bad parent. My Repka, I will always remember you.
I drank a lot, I gradually drank too much every day. More alcohol. Alcohol, alcohol, alcohol. I was lost.
I was scared that I would get drunk and die. Or will have to take antidepressants again. I developed neurosis, my teeth began to crack and crumble because I chattered my teeth uncontrollably. I wanted none of this and at the same time did not want to be alone with my grief. It was decided to take a new puppy, also bull terrier, I called him Tobik. He was born on 27 September 2020. He is 3,5 months old (now 5 month old). I love him and I care about him!
I found a new psychologist, decided to pull myself together and did it without pills. I organized my life, began to draw a lot again, closed all my debts on commissions and did a lot of preparatory work. I worked hard on myself, I quit drinking more alcohol. I also received a lot of support from my friends. Thank you, Nastya and Anton.
It all took 2,5 months. Now I am here, writing this text. I was very afraid to come back here. But I intend to get serious about drawing. I hope everything will be fine and I can many work and make a more commissions!
Well, this was my story. In memory of Repka. I want to apologize to everyone for my absence during the year.
If you want see:
Album with Repka: https://drive.google.com/drive/fold.....ZP?usp=sharing
Album with Tobik: https://drive.google.com/drive/fold.....iI?usp=sharing

...If you want to support me, you can:
- take a commission from me, my new price list is here: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1qA.....ew?usp=sharing (SFW, NSFW, anything)
- take a slot from my new slavic challenge or YCH's (will be loaded soon!)
- give a little tips via PayPal: anya.neft[at]mail.ru
- offer art trade
For my successful return, I need activity in my profile! Also, you can just write to me and chat with me (FA, Telegram), I will be very glad to any communication!!! (Telegram: @Jack_Neft)

Thank you very much for your attention and reading!