im feeling better, i have no longer have this heavy feeling on stress pushing on my shoulders, i'm not afraid of leaving anyone behind anymore, whatever happens, happens.
This life could end any moment, whether i have someone or not, it will be okay. I have made emends with those i have hurt. After spending some time with those close to me i realized that you need to live life in this moment now, no worries for the future, prepare yourself, but don't worry too much.

I wanted love, but now i don't know what i want. Maybe less worries, less of this feeling of missing a piece of me, less of loneliness, less of an uncontrollable wanting feeling.