as you may have noticed, I have become even worse at delaying all the deadlines that I set myself. and I don't want to hide it, I have my own reasons, which are not at all happy.
I am infinitely sorry that it turns out this way, but everyone knows perfectly well that drawing is my only income for this time.
but, it so happened that my family owes the bank money because of one person - and we are obliged to pay on time, as we can decide at home.
I also keep silent that I am constantly ill ( last year I went through 3 operations due to the extreme condition of the internal organs, mainly the kidneys, so I always have to take courses of very expensive medications and conduct examinations to prevent relapses and to exist normally)
I am not a bad person, I always try to do my job - but often I am hindered by circumstances, such as now as - creditors .
In general, I must ask all of you for a huge apology and understanding that I am now just a hostage of circumstances . this year has started just terribly, but I try not to panic and do what I can and can do a little - draw .
That's what I mean ... that I have to find the amount of about $ 200 again within 7 days . this will cover the loan obligations and I will be able to live in peace for a month without incurring new debts .
so it turned out that this month my mother was left without a salary and we now live only on the funds from the drawings - and therefore it is disgusting and difficult for me.
also, my psyche, because of the constant calls ( calls come more than 20 times a day from different numbers due to overdue loans), decided that I do not need sleep-I have been in constant anxiety and without sleep for the 4th day.
and of course in this state I can not work normally.
it's scary to live at this pace and realize that because of one person who decided to frame my family, we can lose everything. obsalyutno all. and because of this fear, it makes no sense to live and do something.
this is terrible. It's terrible that I can't keep quiet about it and have to take it out in public .
a huge test, in which it is very difficult to find and catch the meaning.I am very sorry that I write very poorly, and also very poorly express my feelings.

In general, I will be forced to open 4 slots for $ 50 work to cover this month and the next month of payments .
but this is a small plus-if I cover the entire amount, I was promised that I will be able to work safely without threats until the very end of February - this means that I can work on everything that is and without gaining new auctions ! I will be able to work without stress and finally fulfill all that I promised you .
In addition, if you are interested, I can tell you the whole story of why this happened in discord, as well as show you some screenshots and confirm my words .
something like that. the text is chaotic, as I write on emotions.

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