Sad but calm. What are the sun flowers for? I noticed them in an image before.

I'm not a fan of plants, but I really love sunflowers. (I fell in love with them after the The Evil Within) For some reason, for me, these flowers represent something in my soul, some kind of feeling, but I still don't understand what it is. However, all my art with sunflowers and me are devoted to the theme of pain from love, affection, the past and loneliness.
These works can be collected in one series with the development of my feelings. In my life, although I always sit at home, there are many strong sensual events, both good and bad. And I painted this work, depicting my tender feelings, but full of fear, doubt and sadness. However, for sure, I will soon draw a sequel to this work. events and feelings happened again in my life that I would like to portray, but I am not yet quite ready for this, because the pain has not yet completely subsided.
P.S. I'm not trying to evoke pity or sympathy. With my works, I simply show feelings that can inspire or help other people.

Your comments are really important for my work, because even when I paint for myself, it is important for me to see that my art moves the viewer's feelings.
As the Russian poet Pushkin said. "And bypassing the seas and lands, with a word burn the hearts of people." I want to do exactly the same, only not with words, but with arts

And I do not want to drill for any deep truths here. In fact I feel quite inspired by the images. I stopped drawing personal feeling because I noticed that I communicate with them. So I quit in shame and turned over to fictional characters only. Seeing these images somewhat remind me of something I abandoned long ago. So thanks.

I found you on DA as well and it is written you are from Siberia? Because this term belongs to quite small area of this planet shal I ask with region? I have been there three times to study mosses and if Covid will let us my Russian colleagues and me will visit Chukotka this summer. I appreaciate the vastness of emptiness, only me, the back, the anticipation of a new finding and the kilometers to it.

Oh yes, I'm from Siberia! Cold but beautiful.
It's great that you travel, it's interesting and exciting, although I myself avoid travel, I find beautiful aesthetics in them.
If you gave up something against your will and want to return, then I think that no reason should stop you from dreaming about fictional characters one evening.

Siberian Summer is warmer than often in Germany. I enjoyed 30 °C north of Polar Circle - sadly with lots of комаров и можки. That is why I remember these words still after years.

Oh, I have no problem in creating characters. But they tend to have some emotional distance from myself. Just to keep things seperated and not beeing to much attached emotionally what I am drawing. That is why those deeply emotional pictures draw me in.

Oh, annoying insects are familiar to me! As a child, I lived close to nature and these insects are still in my memory and the smell of the remedy for them