FA+
Shop
135
Views
Views
0
Favorites
Favorites
Category
Artwork (Digital) / All
Species Unspecified / Any
Size 821 x 1280
File Size 335.6 kB
Report this content
★
More from rapalien
Summary of art 2020
Last year finished like a "good year" for me, i knew that "happiness" doesnt last but 2020 has been like a roallercoaster every day, besides all the shit with the pandemic (not gonna Talk about that here, im going to Talk about myself and my art)
Last year when i uploaded the recap of 2019, we were only 80 people here, and now we're 213, a lot of people joined in this 12 months, and many of them were thanks to my friends that shared my art.
And about my art, i want to tell you how i feel after i finish every drawing that i make, bc its always the same
At the start i look at them and think "yeah, it going wonderfully and i like it a lot" but there's a point in time when i start to dislike everything, and start seeing errors everywhere and that frustates me a lot, of course i upload the finished drawings bc im not gonna trow away those hours, but this is something that mines my moral and makes me wonder if my art is worth or good, i try to put everything i know in every complex drawing that i do, but at the en i tend to wonder if it is enough.
This plus the constant stress from my work (i love my work and what i do, ont get me wrong, but the schedule is bs and i return home very very tired) and my personal problems (im not gonna tell much details, but its something kinda serious, this is gonna be my second year on medication, and my family doesnt help to at least respect me or treat me as a 22 yo dude and not as a child. Everytime that i see a glimpse of something good or a bit of happiness it banishes quickly, and im the same or worse than before) I want to move to a flat by myself asap, i want to have my space for me an noone else so i can feel less "restrained", i dont hate my family, but its time for me to make my own life and get things done.
All of this thigs made for me a bad year, not as bad as 2018 was, but its near.
For the end of this reflexion, besides all of the bad things i want to thank all of my close friends for being close, i probably wont be here if it werent for them. and all of you that are here and read this, idk if you like my art or not, but thanks for helping me feel more "someone" bc of the number of followers.
Thank you so very much
Category Artwork (Digital) / All
Species Unspecified / Any
Size 821 x 1280px
File Size 335.6 kB
Comments