drew a piece for a friend yesterday of their nitw character that made me really want to make my own self insert so here's to mira mirn

if you are interested in happy characters perhaps this is not the introduction you would be looking for although as far as my fursonas go this is probably the closest you will get to knowing who I actually am as a real life flesh person so take that as you will

mira mirn is a little grey cat of 22 who is in no way remarkable or spectacular. A happy home life is not something she's used to having endured 21 years of abuse and neglect before getting out. She never wants anybody to suffer like she has so she strives to be as kind as possible. She is very tender and she has so much love to give and when she does she loves wholly and completely, loves so much that it hurts
she doesn't have friends though because everybody thinks she's weird and creepy which hurts because her feelings are five times too big for her little body to contain always and forever.

she just never seemed to have good social skills no matter how hard she tried. She's always too quiet, too loud, excited about things that nobody else seems to care about, physically stimming when both excited and upset, emotional in general, and those eyes!
During school those who wouldn't outright bully her generally tended to avoid her and though the bullies were left in high school she still recognizes that people still view her as different, as Other, and tend to stay away.

She got the contacts to try and help her fit in to cover her red eyes because she hopes that people will like her if she hides the parts of her that aren't normal but you can still tell and they still avoid her no matter what she does. She still never takes them off around others though.

To deal with the pain, in the evenings she goes into the woods and screams until she doesn't have a voice anymore and she frequently wants to smash things and throw a fit that breaks the world around her to little shattery bits like her emotions but feels like she's not allowed to so it builds up until she self destructs in other ways

she wants to escape but feels trapped
by what? who knows she certainly doesn't herself the world her past maybe but it's endlessly frustrating and everything is circular going around and around forever

she lives alone in a tiny little apartment and works at the library part time which just barely pays the bills and nothing else. When not working she's watching cartoons or doodling or walking in the woods to clear her mind. she has two little house plants that she loves dearly and her favorite colors are bright lemon yellow and greens. She used to like red too.


I probably won't get to draw her very often but she is very dear to my heart so I hope you all at least like the design because i'm very happy with it!