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I never draw vent art anymore or vent in general, because every time I rant or vent online I always get attacked for it or get called a dumb fucking baby.. So just spare me just this once alright-? Just click off this if you don't wanna go through and read my dumb rant.
Alright- I guess Im under some sort of upsetting spell once again. This time, it seemed to have settled down and made a home inside my mind. I can't jerk the thought away like all the times in the past. I can't get rid of it...
I'm tired of being a small artist. It's dumb I know. Something I shouldn't worry about, but when you've been drawing for over 10 years and have never managed to break over 1k it gets frustrating. Hell! I've never been able to break over 300. I'm tired, and I always feel like crying over this stupid issue. It's so fucking dumb, yet I have friends who some how can break over 1k and they're younger than me!? If I were one of the 7 deadly sins, I would be envy. I put so much effort into my work, hours and sometimes days. And it goes unnoticed. It gives me the sense to just give up and drop dead. I had to remove one of my favorite pieces just because it did horribly while my friends piece that my piece inspired his somehow blew up instead... I've put myself out there, drawn vast things like fan-art, original content, and other things.. but nothing helps my viewer count grow.
This stupid 'problem' is keeping me from doing just about anything drawing related. I've lost my charm, I no longer feel happy when I draw. I look down upon my art like it's trash. Hell, it might as well be. It seems the only time I'm able to get art done is when it's a commission, I don't want to rip my client off and just run away with their money. It would just be wrong.. Even doing commissions I' still unhappy. I've started taking medication to improve my mood and anxiety. Nothing has changed. I doubt anything will change anymore.
I'm in a constant loop, I just want to be noticed- I just want to be appreciated- I don't want to be small anymore... I'm tired of putting effort into things... I'm tired of even trying
Alright- I guess Im under some sort of upsetting spell once again. This time, it seemed to have settled down and made a home inside my mind. I can't jerk the thought away like all the times in the past. I can't get rid of it...
I'm tired of being a small artist. It's dumb I know. Something I shouldn't worry about, but when you've been drawing for over 10 years and have never managed to break over 1k it gets frustrating. Hell! I've never been able to break over 300. I'm tired, and I always feel like crying over this stupid issue. It's so fucking dumb, yet I have friends who some how can break over 1k and they're younger than me!? If I were one of the 7 deadly sins, I would be envy. I put so much effort into my work, hours and sometimes days. And it goes unnoticed. It gives me the sense to just give up and drop dead. I had to remove one of my favorite pieces just because it did horribly while my friends piece that my piece inspired his somehow blew up instead... I've put myself out there, drawn vast things like fan-art, original content, and other things.. but nothing helps my viewer count grow.
This stupid 'problem' is keeping me from doing just about anything drawing related. I've lost my charm, I no longer feel happy when I draw. I look down upon my art like it's trash. Hell, it might as well be. It seems the only time I'm able to get art done is when it's a commission, I don't want to rip my client off and just run away with their money. It would just be wrong.. Even doing commissions I' still unhappy. I've started taking medication to improve my mood and anxiety. Nothing has changed. I doubt anything will change anymore.
I'm in a constant loop, I just want to be noticed- I just want to be appreciated- I don't want to be small anymore... I'm tired of putting effort into things... I'm tired of even trying
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I feel this hard. It's so demoralizing see people explode in popularity within months with what took you years to amass like 100+ followers. It took me a long while to find confidence in my art, even, let alone post it.
I'm glad you shared this, it's something I've struggled with a lot, but having friends to share and make happy with my drawings helps a lot. Might not be the same for you, but it's something
I'm glad you shared this, it's something I've struggled with a lot, but having friends to share and make happy with my drawings helps a lot. Might not be the same for you, but it's something
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