my birthday is a few hours away, and every year I get nostalgic, anxious and depressed around this time, I hate birthdays and I hate getting older without getting my life where I want it to be

I made promises last year that I would do and be better by now, with my queue cleared and working on my comic, maybe have my own place and be able to pay for things and even having some kink gear and clothing (andeventuallyabigassdungeonroom,jkimaginethatol-<) but everything seems sooo faaaar awaaaaay and delayed that I get a mix of angry and sad everytime I think about it x'3

I know I made some progress (not all related to art or the queue but personal as well) and I'm trying to stay hopeful regardless of everything that have been happening adding to and causing so much pain, worry and stress /pandemic and shitty dumbess fool clusterfuck of a president I'm looking at you

I'm trying to focus on drawing, doing streams, finishing what I owe and thinking about the world I want to write/draw/create, some days are harder than others and I'm still taking breaks to be able to recharge mentally from time to time.

I just wanted to make sure you guys know that I'm very thankful for the support, for the new and old watchers that stayed, for the patience, for everyone that likes what I do and wants to see more and everything else. You are the ones that keep me going, that give me something to try harder and do better, I will be amazing one day just you wait

Truly from the bottom of my rubber heart thank you for everything :3


the drawing above is a collab between me and my love  rostan