This is the most nakedly-honest piece I've seen from you in quite some time, and I think that's a good thing. I've said more than once that you need to let your anger off the leash more often. :)

Last time I did I got a ton of shit for it but that was about politics. I dunno...I was just missing talking to my sister and yet again realizing how what my aunt did in the name of loving me just fucked up my ability to maintain relationships with others and caused my sister a lifetime of pain, too. This is a lot nicer than she deserves but I don't like being a hateful, spiteful person. i'm not my aunt.

Anyways, thanks.

I didn't see this as spiteful or hateful, more than just a cold and bitter helping of unvarnished truth. The worst anyone could honestly accuse you of is perhaps being a bit unkind by not soft-pedalling or glossing over the truth, but some people wrong us badly enough that we no longer feel the need for extending such a courtesy, especially to someone, who would not appreciate it, but rather, would resent it. You have noting to apologise for.

Yeah. Agreed. It helps that I'm putting it here where she'll doubtfully ever see it. I'm not the type to bring up family issues. 99.9% of it i've been able to process, deal with and move on from. It's just this long-term, long-lasting bullshit that is just really fucked up. My sister told me about how one Christmas my aunt told another one of my uncles to avoid putting my sister in the Christmas' video. My uncle Ray always seemed like a stand up guy to me but he went right along with it. She noticed something was up but was hoping it was just in her head like my aunt's always told her when her mistreatment was thrown in her face. Nope-end of the party he shows the video and sure enough she was nowhere in it to be seen.

Dumb, oblivious me didn't notice a thing of course. I just saw her leaving in tears and wondered what HER problem was. I hadn't seen the video. That's when my aunt took me aside and lying to my face told me sis had been selfish and not wanted her uncle to videotape her. She blamed it on my sister. Even now it infuriates me.

Wanna know the worst part, though? This woman was a psychiatric nurse in charge of nurse employee training at RI's state institution for almost 50 years. I can only imagine the kinds of things she taught people and how her training affected so many others. I strongly suspect my sister and I got off light.

Oh, I can well imagine.
After all, Nurse Ratched always comes from somewhere. Hell, even Genene Jones didn't just spring out of Satan's loins, fully-formed and ready to be Texas' own nursey angel of death. There were other factors at play within her educational and work environment as well...
It was old phonograph advertisements that first coined the phrase: The Gift that Keeps on Giving, but I've always maintained that the real gift that keeps on giving is abuse.

Yeah.

Not to make light of your suffering, but I saw the title "Aunt" and, because I know you're into certain fetishes, I was like, "Ooo, I bet this is spicy!" Then I read it and I was like, "Mmm, that's...considerably less spicy than I was anticipating."

But hey, I read that journal post you've disabled the comments to, and that was pretty dope!

Yeah haha sorry. I'll come up with something spicy poetic-wise at some point. I think I burn so much energy writing that kind of fic for Silv that it uses up whatever fuel I might have had for the poetry side of things. It's hard for me to sit down and deliberately write a poem. They kind of have to pop into my head as a spur of the moment thing.

And thanks :) It's heartening to see the response has been more positive than negative. i've had about 20 different people pm me letting me they know they appreciate it vs the four who didn't like it.

Yeah, I've got spicy poem on a similar subject that's been bouncing around in my head years now. It's still not ready, though.

My best advice is to start writing as soon as the first line appears in your head. You can always go back and tweak stuff (not that I advise doing so-I find it's almost always better to let poems stand as they are save for necessary spell-checking). Otherwise you risk something never getting written. Nothing you write will ever be perfect. Even the highest-acclaimed authors have issues despite having great editors. What matters is you get your work done and out there. Good enough is great, great is better but done is best.

Nah, my method works completely differently from that. Everyone has their own cookbook, as they say.