so i googled what 'bokeh' was today and despite how beautiful it looks, it make me feel incredibly sad and lonely. like something nice that's too far away for you to even dream of having.

so then i that compiled on top of my already terrible mood and i jsut focused in on that loneliness and that feeling of no mater how good or bad you feel on the inside, the world around you will never truly care. it may look at you and briefly, idly, wonder but in the grand scheme of things, you don't matter at all.

Is that a horribly bleak outlook? definitely. But to each their own.

It became a restaurant because that's just something i associate with loneliness and/or solitude; going to a restaurant/cafe alone.



i'll probably work on this over the next couple days. or hours depending.