I find myself visiting this rooftop quite a bit. I don't know where it is, per say; no landmarks to see, no way to see if it's in this universe or another, and I'm entirely by myself each time. All I really know is how beautiful it is. Life can be difficult to deal with for a multitude of reasons. Maybe it's your fault, maybe someone else's but whenever I look out to that glowing city down there...I forget all of that. It makes me happy. Well, maybe happy is the wrong word. Calm is a far better one when it comes to this. It's hard being happy when you're by yourself, at least for me, but feeling the wind and the noises down below with that beautiful landscape...It's hard to describe, I guess. Regardless, it feels good seeing this.

I've been struggling a lot more recently, and so I see this place more and more. You'd think it would lessen the beauty, but it never does. Maybe...because this is the only escape I really feel like I have. Or maybe it's because it's how I truly feel? I don't think I'll ever really know. Shouldn't be making guesses anyway. Therapy exists for a reason, heheh. Though it might be because sometimes when I'm up here, I imagine I'm a giant. Yeah, I can become one, but this way it's more...covert. And that way I don't have to worry about causing a panic. But it's just so odd...thinking that me, being all the way up here, towering over everything and everyone...has the same problems as the little lights down there.

It's kind of like being a star to a planet, yeah? I wonder how they feel being alone. I mean, there's light years between each one, right? How would they deal with that? Hypothetically, obviously. I'm not suggesting giant flaming balls of gas can really have emotions; this is more just a 'what if.' Anyway, spending all that time alone with no one to talk to must be horrid for the mind. Then again, just because they don't speak to one another doesn't mean they feel alone. Maybe...when they see all those twinkling lights out there, they realize that they aren't alone at all. Just like me...up here, with all these passing cars and people...Oh goodness, now I'm getting sappy. My bad...I think I'll just stare at this place a little longer, let you enjoy the viwe in silence, that sort of thing.
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A more somber piece that I really needed. Life has been hounding me hard for the past few weeks, and I've gotten very little respite from feeling bad, so seeing this helped immensely. I really wish I could be there and stare at that beautiful scene, but this image is the next best thing. Sometimes...it's best to be alone, yeah? Though then you feel like you want to hang out with people and yadda yadda. Feelings are complex =x=

Eric/Verbal Barfing is Me

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