So you do go off on fanciful romps into nature for creative inspiration! Or at least, your character does; I wouldn't know much about what you do yourself for inspiration. The idea of Cobalt spending substantial amounts of time out in the wild on his or her own as part of the creative process seems pretty intuitive, perhaps due to some of your past artwork and ideas alluding to similar wilderness expeditions.

Personally, I feel a bit weird at times knowing how much of what inspires me comes from deliberate efforts to go and explore other peoples' creativity, either by browsing through art galleries or watching new media, and yet at the same time I have a hard time working up the enthusiasm to do so deliberately. It's like knowing what I have to do, but not wanting to do it, in direct contradiction to what I say I value. Do you ever have that problem with getting inspired yourself? I suppose it's a bit like knowing that you should exercise and then slacking off about doing what's good for you.

Like with exercise, inertia is a big factor. Artists at rest tend to stay at rest. Visibility is another shared concept, like those who are afraid of going to the gym for being seen.

I rarely take my sketchbook into public spaces, and when I do I'm super self-conscious. I can't even coax myself by telling myself I'm paranoid, because I'm not. Sometimes people who see me actually stop in their tracks within my field of vision and look at me, then look at what I'm looking at. Someone once blurted out "Oh hey! An artist!" while walking through the park as I was drawing a tree. I need to be in a really confident mindset to venture out. But after all is said and done, it's worthwhile every time.