Wow, very emotional. C'est magnifique!

thx

"Sittin' alone"
I know all about that.

I haven't been so alone lately ... but I feel like I'm falling none the less... like I am not allowed to be happy... that as soon as something/someone makes me feel whole and myself... something else in my life is meant to go kaboom right there in my face...

things will settle down... it's just that free falling sense of helplessness that's been hanging over my head I guess.

I get worried when things seem to be going good and I feel happy because I know it wont last. But alone, yeah that I am now. I have a few good friends and I'm very grateful for them, but it's not the same.

I'm glad things are going better for you now.

just for the record:
You're not alone.. maybe a bit far but not alone. you are doomed

I know I'm not ... it's not about that ... and you know it... it's just ... yah... *hugs* who needs words right?