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so this piece is about my personal dysphoria
having a uterus and thus having the physical potential to have periods and become pregnant gives me hella dysphoria and lots of mental turmoil. the only thing that keeps me from these things is my IUD (intrauterine device), which was only given to me because i have dysmenorrhea (severely painful periods) rather than for my dysphoria, so i kind of have the condition to thank.
what's insanely upsetting to me is the political atmosphere around hysterectomies. i am extremely unlikely to be able to get one because im young and "might want to have children someday," when really i just want it gone for the sake of my mental health. i dont have endometriosis or anything "serious" so i wouldn't be able to have it removed for those sorts of reasons.
basically my IUD is the only thing keeping me from immense dysphoria. it's made my life much easier because i no longer have periods (which is a huge load off my shoulders dysphoria-wise), but i don't want to have this thing (QUITE painfully) removed+replaced every few years. i don't want to take birth control shots every 3 months (i used to, for years) for the rest of my life. i'm stuck here for now, and i'm pissed.
thus this piece.
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i chose a hyena because of the ambiguous sexual dimorphism and the way female hyena genitalia has evolved to function.
the IUD in its mouth is a mirena, like the one i have, and its between the hyena's jaws, kind of leaving the animal stuck with its mouth open, speaking to a feeling of frustration and helplessness
the tongue is split to resemble a vulva, and the knob bit at the end of the IUD suggests a clitoris.
i chose a red background to symbolize blood, and i'm having this piece printed so i can give it a background of red velvet, alluding to vaginal metaphor and imagery
the hyena has a twisted expression of rage, which is of course, calling back to my own anger and discomfort.
hope this makes the piece make sense! n__n
having a uterus and thus having the physical potential to have periods and become pregnant gives me hella dysphoria and lots of mental turmoil. the only thing that keeps me from these things is my IUD (intrauterine device), which was only given to me because i have dysmenorrhea (severely painful periods) rather than for my dysphoria, so i kind of have the condition to thank.
what's insanely upsetting to me is the political atmosphere around hysterectomies. i am extremely unlikely to be able to get one because im young and "might want to have children someday," when really i just want it gone for the sake of my mental health. i dont have endometriosis or anything "serious" so i wouldn't be able to have it removed for those sorts of reasons.
basically my IUD is the only thing keeping me from immense dysphoria. it's made my life much easier because i no longer have periods (which is a huge load off my shoulders dysphoria-wise), but i don't want to have this thing (QUITE painfully) removed+replaced every few years. i don't want to take birth control shots every 3 months (i used to, for years) for the rest of my life. i'm stuck here for now, and i'm pissed.
thus this piece.
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i chose a hyena because of the ambiguous sexual dimorphism and the way female hyena genitalia has evolved to function.
the IUD in its mouth is a mirena, like the one i have, and its between the hyena's jaws, kind of leaving the animal stuck with its mouth open, speaking to a feeling of frustration and helplessness
the tongue is split to resemble a vulva, and the knob bit at the end of the IUD suggests a clitoris.
i chose a red background to symbolize blood, and i'm having this piece printed so i can give it a background of red velvet, alluding to vaginal metaphor and imagery
the hyena has a twisted expression of rage, which is of course, calling back to my own anger and discomfort.
hope this makes the piece make sense! n__n
I don’t suffer from gender dysphoria but I do have insane periods, they’re very uneven and once they came I bleed like I’ve gotten shot 25+ times. I have an implant, those who last only three years and that’s the issue causing my uneven periods. I’ve been thinking about getting an IUD, but I’m not 100% sure and hearing this- how this helps you. Makes it even more tempting.
Besides that, I appreciate you telling me your story, I really do, I never could imagine this was the convent of this drawing and oh man I’m touched. I’m glad you found something (IUD) that makes life easier for you, and I understand youd like it completely gone.
I hope one day you might be able to!
The resembling and everything with the hyena, fitting a vagina/vulva is stunning and you have one hella of an imagination, and skills to draw this out. Seriously preach. I’m proud of you.
It might not matter what am saying but this is really touching. Thank you for sharing this.
Besides that, I appreciate you telling me your story, I really do, I never could imagine this was the convent of this drawing and oh man I’m touched. I’m glad you found something (IUD) that makes life easier for you, and I understand youd like it completely gone.
I hope one day you might be able to!
The resembling and everything with the hyena, fitting a vagina/vulva is stunning and you have one hella of an imagination, and skills to draw this out. Seriously preach. I’m proud of you.
It might not matter what am saying but this is really touching. Thank you for sharing this.
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