Well... This is a belated, belated, belated pride drawing, I finally dared to do it, but well! It's better later than never.

What can I say... And if you didn't realize, yeah, I'm gay, oh wow! Another gay furry! What a surprise! Another fag, another sissy, another moddlecoddle! For me it has been complicated to say and accept yet, why?! Mainly for traumas of the past, bullying and discrimination...

Well, since I've had memory and conscience, I felt an special attraction towards guys, and I've been a very sensitive guy, more than normal guys are, why?! Maybe because of my mom's overprotection and the lack of father in my life. I always felt very different from the normal guys, I don't know why. When I started elementary, I behaved as normal as I used to be, being myself, however the other children, mainly the guys started to mock and bully me, saying me stuff like: "Ohhhhhh! You're a gay!" "Fag" "Faggot" "Girl" Those years were very tormenting for me...

These years I hangout with girls, and I didn't do the stuff that boys used to do, mainly playing soccer, I didn't feel interested, however, for my own sake I had to hide and deny deeply my encountered feelings to boys.

When I started highschool, the bullying and discrimination was minor, I started to hang out more with guys, it was awesome, however there was a moment that I felt social pressure about having a girlfriend, although I got along well with girls, I didn't feel more intentions with hers than having only a friendship, no more, I didn't have more feelings towards hers. However I had "girlfriends" but they just played with me, they didn't take me serious, even one said me all time on my face she prefered my friend than me... And besides, how could I express freely I'm gay if I was bullied and discriminated?! Even if I didn't tell anything about it, it would be worse if someone had known and I expressed this...

After my highschool 3rd year, I didn't have any girlfriend, although a friend of mine tried to help me to get a girlfriend, however it was a complete fail, because I showed up so shy and uninterested, I could only see my friends having girlfriends freely, expressing their love, I admit that was upsetting and frustrating to me. And when I was in my last school year, I officaily confirmed I'm gay.

I admit it was a little perturbing for me, and well, as I did all that time, I had it so hidden deep inside me, only pleasing myself, and I knew that eventually I would have to start talking about this or manifesting it, I left all traumas affect me and I even I thought that due to all bullying and discrimination I suffered, they turned me gay, and I hated it.

However this has affected so badly my self-esteem, I hated myself, I felt very embarrassed and upset, and I thought that maybe through time, if maybe I could get a girlfriend that would be forgotten, and I'd bury those feelings deep inside me.

After a few time, I knew this fandom, I started to notice that most of the people here is gay, or is part of the LGBTI community, I just saw how they express so free and proud, how some of them respect and find this cute or adorable, even do funny but no rude jokes! Expressing so freely their pride for being part of the LGBTI community. Personally seeing that was upsetting, awkward and overwhelming for me, everybody less me.

Then, I decided to start talking about this with some people, when I confessed to someone that I'm gay, I did it in a rough and raw way, after that I started to feeling depressed and gloomy, after a time I talked about this with other guys too, they received well my confesion, and advise me very well, even one of them told me he was happy to know that I'm gay, it was the first time I heard that, very surprising, I must admit.

After a time I went to help center for LGBTI community, I was well received and I got psychological help, the psychologist was so nice and kind with me, she understood me very well and helped me to discover the root of my lack of self-esteem, and along the support of the people who I talked about this was wonderful!

Well, now I recognize me officially as gay, I don't have any doubt about it, and now, it seems there's a long path to walk, a path of acceptation, recognizement, knowledge, rediscovering and, well, why not?! Love! I now want to develop more my self-esteem and self confidence, my conviction and well, that desired pride that most of people here express, and walk with confidence through that rainbow!

There's the people who had supported, advice and rooting for me to encourage this:

 axelshane
 Pastel-Dragons
 Pornography
 spiffyjuize

Thanks so, so, so much for all! It really has meant a lot!

Well, and finally, if anyone would like to advice me about this! I'll be really glad to hear them!

Axel the Rat belongs to  axelshane, Pastel the Coyote belongs to  Pastel-Dragons Icky the Opossum belongs to  Pornography Tufty the Doggo belongs to  spiffyjuize, Dave the Hedgehog and art belongs to me  HedgehoVid