I mean, okay. I don't go to Labs very often. I tend to skip them. when I'm working on a project, if it's 'okay' then I won't work on it past that. I hardly even get personal drawings done because i'm a lazy bitch who can't be bothered to finish a fucking drawing. I haven't even gotten a job yet cause I'm too lazy to go out and apply for them, and the employers can probably tell what a horrible person I am just by looking at me.

Why do I even draw? if i never finish anything why do I start them? my classmates are fed up with my attitude even though I never asked them to look out for me... most of them are older than m and have already gone through a college/university once already. a few classmates are the same age as me and they have better work ethics than me.

well i'm sorry i'm a lazy whiny ass teenager who won't get her head out of the clouds and grow up. I've seen what happens when people grow up - it fucking sucks. Maybe my unwillingness to get stuff completed or get a job or grow up is my subconscious not wanting to do 'adult' things or finish things cause that would be completion or growing up.

I'm selfish. I'm whiny. I stubborn as all hell. I can't remember family's birthdates. I don't give gifts on holidays or events cause i'm too lazy to go out and get them or even think about what others would like or appreciate. if i appreciate something, like hell i'll do anything. Too much work. I hardly go outside cause it's so much easier to stay inside and draw or sit at the computer or sleep.

My father is working his hands off to get me through college and I just sit on my ass and skip classes cause I don't feel like going to class. my mother is going through preparations for bariatric surgery to lose weight so she can be more help with the family. what do i do?

nothing.

it's a miracle i'm not suicidal. I guess cause that's too much work too.