hehe yeah cant wait to see them [[ lmfao you just reminded me I had a comic.....oh man 0.0 I havent worked on that in awhile, I better get on mine to X3]]

Lawl, good luck with that X3

I hope you got good luck with yours tew

lamo!

Can't tell if that's a typo or you think I'm lame =x

lmao = laugh my ass off

Yeah, I know ;3 You're previous post had a typo though, so I wasn't sure =/

i had a comic 2
o.o
i forgot about it
is your comic up on line?

It's in my gallery. I do need to get a job, my own compter, and my own webspace though.

id sugest free webs or comicgenisis or something like that
i fail at spelling
lol

But I want my own domain name. It just costs money that I don't have =/

awwwwwwwwwwwwww
well ill help if i can ^^
i like your stuff
i want to see more of it

I'm glad you like my stuff <3 but I'm probably not gonna set up a website till after I leave NE and settle down somewhere else.

ya i feel ya

Did you change your shirt again?

It changes colors...you don't expect me to wear the same exact thing in every picture, do you?

YES. That or nothing. Nothing is good too.

Well this is the internet, and your opinion of clothes means nothing to me. Though what I did get from your post was that you want to see Kyte nekkid ;o

Who said I was talking about Kyte?

Ar-...a-are you hitting on me o3o? Cause if you are you're gonna have to be less subtle, I'm not very well versed in those situations =<

I'm just joking around with you.

Aw...lol, just proves my lack of social aptitude.

Naa, people never know when I'm joking over the internet. If anything, it was my fault.

I blame my being socially inept, so meh =P I was gonna give a different response, but I took you seriously because I'm stupid =<

You're not stupid, you're a very intelligent individual who's self-esteem has been constantly slandered by awful parents.

That sounds pretty accurate ;~; I don't complain much though because then I feel like a whiny, shelfish prick...

Well you're not, you have every right to complain about these things, and seeing as your not actively forcing people to listen, it's fine.

I've just gotten so good at putting up a façade I tend to keep it all inside, pent up away from everybody else. I know it's not healthy, but I feel my problems are not somebody else's concern. Like right now, I'm forcing myself to type this =\ I want to just delete this and keep being happy and cute and 'ignorance is bliss', so I don't know why I'm still keeping up this conversation.

Does it make you feel better to actually tell this to somebody?

I told you, it makes me feel like I'm whining. I feel like I'm not important enough to be talking about my problems. There are people out there that don't have others that love them, people whom are victims of domestic violence and constant verbal abuse, people that are dying slowly and painfully in some gutter in some God-forsaken city. I consider myself lucky to have people that care about my existence and that I have access to food, water, and shelter. I can't exactly claim that I haven't faced physcial and mental abuse, but, hey, two out of three ain't bad. Besides? Who am I? I'm just one person. Who cares about one person? I die, there's at least one other person on this planet who could take my place and almost nobody would notice the difference. Same look, same personality, same preferences, etc. The statistics have proved this to be pretty much true for anybody.

And thus, acknowledging this, you're not whining, you're just expressing your opinions.

I've stated opinions before openly and freely, it's when I talk about my problems, personal or not, or mistakes I've made with my life I feel like I'm whining. I don't tend to want to talk about the face my parents hate everything I do and believe in, that they think I'll never amount to anything and that I'm throwing my life away, and that they probably only keep me around for a bigger tax cut! That coupled with the being beaten up to the extent I've had to hide bruises 6th grade to now because my friends thought it was fun(ny); I'm well on my way to developing a very bad inferiority complex and leaving myself in a ditch somewhere to rot because I think nobody cares about me. Is that what you're trying to get out of me? Cause once again, I feel like just deleting this whole thing and walking away. I want to talk about it, but I'm scared that you're gonna do what almost everybody else has done to me and just throw up your arms and say, 'STFU, my life is worse than yours cause I'm emo and I have no empathy for another human soul because nobody knows what I feel!'.


tl;dr version: too much social rejection, and I keep quiet because I don't want more.

I'm... not entirely sure how to respond, but I'll try my best.

I, nor anybody worth a shit, would never turn my back on you no matter what. If anybody else turns their back on you, it's their loss, because they just missed out on being friends with a wonderful, talented individual who makes everybody around him feel better, and if anybody says otherwise they can kindly die in a waste filled ditch. Being rejected by people may hurt, but if you keep quiet then nothing will improve.

There aren't enough words to describe nor enough time to explain how great it was to hear that.

Yay! Hugs?

*Hugs tightly*...Yeah, hugs =<

Amazing how this went from happy to joking to sad to depressing to OH GOD WHY!? depressing and back to happy in a string of comments that can be read in under a minute.

Having put up a façade for over half-a-decade, I think I'm able to appear over myself quite well on the internet where text can't show emotion when in reality I have to work at typing because I'm pushing tears out of my eyes to see...

wow X3 I think its just where you live... come to Texas already dang it! no one here would be like that to you here. The girls here would want to know what your problems are, and want to help... the guys here would try to help... never say you dont matter, because you matter to me quite a lot.

me and you are nearly the same.... I stay quiet due to past rejection (getting made fun of and such) but because of being that way for 4 years, when I do talk, people listen to what I have to say.... and I dont get made fun of anymore.
tell your friends to stop hurting you... dont stand for being pushed around.

your the only you there is, and that is what makes you important. You shouldent keep all this to yourself. Theres a big difference between whining, and expressing.

you also live in an abusive house... spiritual abuse and mental abuse can be worse than physical. you have earned the right to whine, but thats not what your doing.

as a last note, just because you think you not being here would make no difference.... even though I've never met you, I would be depressed for a while, and probably cry about it for several days. your a GREAT friend, and an even better person. dont you EVER let ANYONE tell you otherwise. Including your parents. Stand up for yourself, and you will get more respect.

I don't know how to respond =\ I thank you for showing that you care (<3) and for the advice. It's just become so hard to talk about it that I don't know what to do besides shut-up, set it aside, and move on...

And I would just leave now if it wasn't for the need to finish high school. I can't do anything legally until I'm 18 (19 actually because NE sucks =P) such as switch schools between states without parental consent and that's just a week before I graduate in May.

Your messages are so cute!!!

This is why I don't like journals, you can't make 'em cute ;3 That's usually why I only make them when I'm angry =/

That's a very productive way of doing it ^^

*may do that myself*

Tis a cool idea I think more people should use. Go for it X3