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Pinnipad Blog: Interview with the World's Heaviest Celebrity
Voz reporter Alissa Golshan sits down for a one on one with Patricia Whales, 30 year old online model infamous as the world's heaviest celebrity at over 800 pounds. Together, we will learn a little about her life and what motivates her to keep on gaining. Tune in at 5:00 pm CST!
This is a bit of an experimental piece, a written interview in the format of a news expose. Not a whole lot of my usual detail work in describing fat stuff, but I wanted to take the time to flesh out the mind and life of someone I might consider an ideal feedee. Maybe I'll write more about the character later =P
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Self proclaimed “fat-sionista” Patricia Whales, aka “Goddess Parfait,” sat down with Voz reporter Alissa Golshan for a first time, exclusive interview concerning her rise to fame as the world’s most recognizable super-sized woman and what her day to day life is like.
A virtual unknown in 2014, Patricia has starred in a few pornographic films, but eventually made a transition away with a surprise breakthrough into largely self-promoted online modeling. At first, her fame seemed to grow in direct proportion to her own waistline, but once the novelty of seeing someone who weighed in excess of 500 pounds strut about unashamed by her size had worn off, it turned out that Patricia had a lot to say to her fans. Always a proponent of size acceptance, Patricia is now held in high esteem among the LGBTQ community for her ideals of tolerance and acceptance -- though her status remains somewhat controversial even among the normally tolerant LGBTQ community.
While other female actors of size have been seen in the past (Chrissy Metz springs to mind), Patricia Whales has always been rather exceptional due to her sheer size and the fact that she has always been unrepentant of it, going so far to say that she enjoys actively gaining weight and has no intention of ever losing any of it. To critics, she has said that this is largely a lifestyle choice on her part, however, she has a hidden ace up her sleeve when answering those who question if she is setting a proper role model for younger fans. Patricia, since age 18, has been enrolled in a clinical trial for a hormonal therapy, the name of which has changed several times over the years but was originally labeled Seal-Guard, designed to combat negative health effects of obesity. Patricia has said that she is perfectly healthy despite her weight now having eclipsed 800 pounds and having lived with super-morbid obesity for her entire adult life.
Our conversation below has been edited for clarity and length.
Alissa Golshan:
How are you doing, Patricia, may I call you that? The trip here wasn’t too difficult for you was it?
Patricia Whales:
(chuckling) Of course you can call me Patricia. And if you’re asking me about the trip from the lobby to this couch, then no, your people have been very sweet and considerate of my needs. But as you can surely guess, traveling in general at my size is a giant pain in the ass. That’s why I’m very much a homebody as far as most celebrities go.
Alissa Golshan:
Could you tell us a little about that?
Patricia Whales:
Well, embarrassing as it is, I’ve gotten too big to fly. It’s not because I can’t fit in a whole row of seats though, I wouldn’t mind buying three tickets, but I can’t really fit through the plane door very easily now and the airline companies have told me that’s a liability in the event of an accident. I can’t really blame them for that, I suppose. Instead, I chartered a bus and came here the old fashioned way.
Alissa Golshan:
Of course, we didn’t make you take the stairs up to our studio today.
Patricia Whales:
Cheeky. Well, if stairs were the only option, we really would be doing this down in the lobby. But your elevator has a 4,000 lb weight limit, so I have more than enough headroom there… for now.
Alissa Golshan:
(laughing) Well, would you mind telling us a little about yourself? What initially attracted you to the… ahem, plus-sized lifestyle, and when did you decide to start gaining?
Patricia Whales:
Well, if you want my whole life’s story, this is going to be a pretty boring interview. I was born and raised in Saugatuck, Michigan, and for as long as I can remember, I wanted to be big, like really big. When I was six, my family took me to some kind of old fashioned carnival-type thing. I can’t remember anything about it now, but they had a fat lady there and we never even went in to see her, but the way she was drawn on the advertisements outside had me totally fixated. I wanted to look just like her, and the feeling never went away even though I eventually got much bigger than even the old illustration depicted.
I grew up fat, not because of “bad” genes. Despite living in the midwest, none of my family has ever had issues with their weight. But I constantly sabotaged my mother and father’s efforts to trim me down. I wanted to put on weight so bad, even before I hit puberty, but the feeling only intensified in my teenage years. So, by the time of my high school prom, I was the only girl there who weighed over 300 pounds, and believe me when I say that my classmates made sure I would not forget that little fact.
Alissa Golshan:
What did they do?
Patricia Whales:
I’d rather not dredge up the details. Size acceptance is something I’ve struggled with for my entire life, and I still get a lot of hate coming my way for simply living how I want to live even today.
Alissa Golshan:
I am sure that there are a lot of people out there who can relate to what you went through. Could you tell us about the clinical trial?
Patricia Whales:
Sure. You see, I as I started getting really big in my late teens, like to the point where I would stand out in crowds, I did worry more and more about my health. I thought about getting diabetes, which runs in both sides of my family, or dying of a heart attack before I was 40. I thought that my desires, which I’d still shared with no one, would have to stay secret forever because I didn’t want to damage my health so much that I’d die young. As a result, my weight bounced around a lot in my mid teens as I went on diets, would lose weight, get depressed, and actually try to get back the lost weight.
But I did have the internet, and health and obesity were terms that I would literally search the news about every few weeks or months. They actually started the clinical trial when I was 17, and I had to wait eight months before I would legally be able to apply.
Alissa Golshan:
But what made you interested in it, what stood out to you, as a teenage girl at the time?
Patricia Whales:
To be honest, the thing that interested me the most was that they were looking for people who weighed over 400 pounds. I’d never seen anything at all where weighing 400 (lb) was a requirement. I was 17 and weighed 385 lbs at the time, and I think I would have taken virtually any excuse at all to finally climb over the 400 pound threshold for the first time. But the clinical trial said explicitly that they were attempting to mitigate some of the health effects associated with obesity, and that was also the number one thing that I had been worrying about at the time, so it was a big no brainer for me, despite how weird it sounds for a teenager to be looking to join a clinical trial.
Alissa Golshan:
Did you tell your parents?
Patricia Whales:
Hell no! (laughing) Oh, they would have never understood. They barely understand me now, though at least my mother has stopped asking me to “cut back” to 500 pounds, which, by the way, is the heaviest my doctor has said they’d take me in for weight loss surgery. No, I did it all behind their backs, which was easier said than done when I was living under my folks’ roof and needed to take the bus a lot because it was already getting kind of awkward for me to drive with my size.
Alissa Golshan:
So you faced pressure from your family to lose weight?
Patricia Whales:
Yup. Pretty much everyday. I guarantee you that if I were a dude, they would not have cared as much because I knew some football players who were chunky as hell in high school, granted, not even any of them weighed 400 (lb). But I was a girl, and my mother would tell me that no man would marry a… a cow like I was getting to be. Well, she would often say things like if I didn’t stop, I’d look like a cow, or I was swelling up to the size of a house, but I knew that what she meant was that I was those things already.
They had interventions for me. One time, my dad told me that we would both be fasting and drinking nothing but orange juice for the next five days so we could both lose a little weight. My mother would give me the stink eye whenever I ate anything at the dinner table, and I could never get seconds; I had to steal the leftovers out of the fridge after dinner or else go to a friend’s house for a second dinner in order to get enough food sometimes, not that I ever had many friends, but I did have a few. It usually didn’t hurt to have the fattest girl in school next to you to make you look skinnier, and even back then, I got some interest from a few of the guys. I got to be well endowed pretty early on, and that got me a lot of attraction even when the other girls were still developing their busts.
Alissa Golshan:
And did you like the male attraction? Did some of the boys like that you were so big?
Patricia Whales:
I’m not sure whether they did or not, or if they knew themselves or not. It was a small town, and the percentage of guys who really do like big women tends to be fairly low, less than a third, I’d wager. What I think is that I had the biggest tits and the biggest ass in school and the boys with their little boners they couldn’t control saw that and simply couldn’t help themselves…
(long pause)
But you know, I am grateful for the attention, looking back, though my heart was broken more than once. I learned a lot about how guys behave when they are attracted to someone, what they are and aren’t willing to do, and also the difference between when a boy is really interested or just horny. Of course, some men are slicker than others and play their cards closer to their chests. I’ve been fortunate not to have to deal with many romances like that. Most of the men who are interested in what I have to offer are very straightforward about their desires, as am I.
Alissa Golshan:
I’d like to touch more on that later, but for now, could you tell us about what happened once you signed up for the clinical trial?
Patricia Whales:
Okay, well, the drug was called Seal-Guard at the time, but I didn’t know that at all. They didn’t tell me or the nine other people they enrolled what the drug was going to be marketed as. On the paperwork, it was only referred to as Obesity-Reductor-XYZ or some nonsense like that. But I did pay attention when they described what it was supposed to do. Very simply, it was a hormonal cocktail, it’s both a pill and a weekly injection, that’s designed to make our metabolisms mimic those of seals and sea lions. You may not have thought about it much, but both of those animals are extremely fat with the blubber they need, yet suffer no ill effects from it. Being 17, I only really thought that this drug would prevent me from developing diabetes and heart disease, but in reality, it didn’t really work that way at all.
Alissa Golshan:
Can you elaborate?
Patricia Whales:
Well, if you aren’t a diabetic, then your blood sugar should be below about 100 mg/dl of glucose. But I guarantee that if you took a blood sample from me right now, it’d be well over 500. I’ve had measurements of 900 and even 1200 mg/dl before! And my triglycerides are just as bad.
Alissa Golshan:
Does that mean you’re diabetic, then?
Patricia Whales:
...sort of. I am diabetic in the classical sense, but you see, seals and sea lions also have elevated levels of sugar and fats in their bloodstream. They regulate their fat stores differently than other mammals. What Seal Guard has done is allowed my body to imitate that of a seal, so, despite how much sugar and fat is in my bloodstream, it doesn’t hurt my organs, clog my arteries, or damage my nerves like with people who aren’t taking the hormones.
Alissa Golshan:
So what happens if you were to stop taking your hormones then?
Patricia Whales:
Oh my god, I don’t even want to think about it! (audible creaking from the couch) Well, let’s just say that one day I’d wake up all of a sudden with terminal stage diabetes and heart disease for a double whammy.
Alissa Golshan:
But Seal Guard has never been made commercially available and the company that patented it went out of business. How are you still getting the drugs you need?
Patricia Whales:
It is a real shame that that happened because this medicine has completely changed my life, for the better, I mean of course, and I wish more people had the opportunity to live the lifestyle they’d prefer. But as to how I obtain the hormones I still need, I’m sort of in a legacy status, and the company which bought out the one making Seal Guard is obligated to supply me with doses for as long as it’d deemed medically necessary. In a way, it is sort of in my best interests to keep my weight as high as possible just to make it clear that cutting me off would basically be a death sentence.
Alissa Golshan:
One of the reasons why Seal Guard was never brought to market was that clinical trials showed that the drugs caused the clinical trial participants to put on a substantial amount of weight. Was this your experience?
Patricia Whales:
Oh yeah. I’d never gained weight faster than the first year I started taking Seal Guard. It was wonderful and hard at the same time. In six months, I’d gained over 100 pounds and I needed a completely new wardrobe, though now things in my size were basically impossible to find unless I had them made for me on the internet or made them myself. It was during this time that I began to take my dress making hobby more seriously, but I’ll get into that more later. But in all the attacks on Seal Guard, nobody ever mentions that while it initially caused a lot of weight gain, after a while, it just sort of plateaus. Out of the ten of us, I think I gained the most weight, but I was feeding into it naturally, and I only wound up about 120 pounds heavier than when I started when those gains leveled off. But people will talk as if the drug causes people to keep gaining forever.
Alissa Golshan:
Well, you haven’t admitted to halting your weight gain, have you, Patricia?
Patricia Whales:
(blushing) Well, I… again, that’s a personal choice of mine, and let me tell you, Seal Guard has not helped me along one inch (sound of flesh clapping) since those initial gains leveled off. Of course, people will use my own weight against me when I argue that Seal Guard should be brought back for more trials. You can find people who are willing to live at 500+ pounds, they’re out there, and honestly, I think the world would benefit from having more of us around.
Alissa Golshan:
Would society benefit from having more super-morbidly obese people, do you think?
Patricia Whales:
Ah, don’t bring up that Alt-Right crap with me. I’ve heard that talking point more times than people have called me a fat pig or slut, can I say slut? Whatever. But you know, my belief is that we ought to be transitioning away from late-stage capitalism and the exploitative work culture in any case. I say, let the robots do all the work and take all the jobs! Let the rest of us have fun and those who still want to work will work.
Alissa Golshan:
I’m not sure that sounds like a sustainable society.
Patricia Whales:
You wouldn’t think from the sound of it, but that’s the beauty of technology. It gets to a point where you don’t really need people anymore. So, instead of forcing the majority of us to compete for the diminishing number of jobs left, we should instead dole out basic pay, yes, a basic wage, to everyone, even those of us who would prefer to sit on our gigantic asses each day. That will create the demand these mega-corps need anyways. They don’t act like it, but they still need us little people to keep buying their shit after all.
Alissa Golshan:
I want to move away from politics… but I do have to ask: are you on disability?
Patricia Whales:
I am. I’m on disability because I’m disabled obviously by any definition.
Alissa Golshan:
But this is a life choice you’ve made, and the way you describe your diet, if you were to eat a normal amount, the weight would drop off of you pretty fast, wouldn’t it?
Patricia Whales:
I didn’t set up the system we have, and obviously people like me weren’t what was strictly in mind when the law was made, but I technically fall into it, so, because there’s no basic wage yet, I’ll take what I can from the government. Not that $500 a month even covers the cost of skin care products I need, but every little bit helps when you’re an internet celebrity working for peanuts.
Alissa Golshan:
Fair enough. But now I would like to talk more about your daily life. What is it like being the heaviest online model in the world?
Patricia Whales:
Now you’re asking me some decent questions! First off, let me tell you that you have no idea what it is like weighing over 800 pounds unless you have been morbidly obese yourself. You’ve seen the scooter I rode in on, well, that’s not because of how lazy I am. I spend two or three hours every day working out, primarily toning my legs and back just so I can support this much weight and walk around as much as I still can.
Alissa Golshan:
About how far can you walk unassisted?
Patricia Whales:
Now, that sounds like something Maury would ask, and I turned down his show for exactly this reason. But I am really enthusiastic about being plus sized, even super sized, so I’ll answer anyways. I can still handle short distances pretty well. I’d be willing to say that I could walk the length of a football field, 100 yards, before I absolutely needed to sit on something. But again, I wouldn’t even be able to get out of this couch on my own if I didn’t spend so much time strength training my legs.
Alissa Golshan:
If your routine is so rigorous, you’d think you’d be able to walk more normally.
Patricia Whales:
Yeah, you’d think you’d be able to strap a 700 lb backpack to a body builder and still have them move around right? (uncomfortable silence) Well, it isn’t quite that easy. Now you really have to imagine the kind of weight I’m carrying around every day. Each time I stand up, I’m literally deadlifting 700 pounds; look at the size of these calves! Just moving around my house each day is a full body workout. But I actually don’t spend as much time on my feet in the house as I could. I have a rolling stool in my kitchen and lowered shelves for exactly this reason.
Alissa Golshan:
Why is that?
Patricia Whales:
Can’t you guess? No? Well, I guess you can say that the human body isn’t exactly designed to support more than 800 pounds. Every minute I spend on my feet is literally destroying the cartilage in my knees, ankles and lower back.
Alissa Golshan:
Are you saying that you have arthritis?
Patricia Whales:
No, I am not saying that. I don’t have it… yet. But realistically, I will probably have joint disease relatively early in my life, and I have no idea how I’ll be able to get a knee or a hip replacement being at my size. That is why I spent an hour exercising with resistance bands while sitting or lying down each morning and each night before bed and spend as little time actually on my feet as I can manage. Also, for me, a pool is an absolutely necessary piece of workout equipment.
Alissa Golshan:
What do you do in the pool?
Patricia Whales:
I have aquatic resistance weights made of styrofoam that I can wear on my ankles and hold in my hands. The pool is also the only place where I can do cardio.
Alissa Golshan:
Cardio? Isn’t that kind of exercise normally for losing weight?
Patricia Whales:
It is. But I feel better knowing that I give my heart at least a modest workout too now and again. I can always counterbalance it by eating more in the day anyways.
Alissa Golshan:
About your diet, how much do you typically eat in a day?
Patricia Whales:
(Grinning) Oh that, well, I’m not shy about it. Everyone knows what my diet is like. I’ll literally eat a dozen egg omelette, a pound of bacon, and a whole loaf of bread with three sticks of butter in one go. That’s not even out of the ordinary for me. How I’ve videotaped myself eating at meals, I try to do that every day.
Alissa Golshan:
Doesn’t that seem outrageous? How can one person eat so much?
Patricia Whales:
Again, it comes back to lifestyle and training. I’ve deliberately overeaten basically my entire life. My stomach has stretched out and I can literally chug an entire gallon of milk without breaking a sweat. My doctor says that my stomach is probably three and a half times the normal size. Of course, it is hard for me to eat much more than I am now. There aren’t enough hours in the day for one, and another thing is that when I’m really full, my stomach presses really hard into my diaphragm which makes it impossible for me to take deep breaths for an hour or more. I can’t eat like that right before I need to exercise, and I always exercise. I take my mobility very seriously even though there are thousands of guys out there who keep telling me to go full on immobile.
Alissa Golshan:
That much food though, doesn’t it seem wasteful?
Patricia Whales:
Wasteful?! Does it look like any of it has gone to waste? (belly shaking audibly) But more seriously, we’ve thrown out way more food in this country for that to be a serious criticism of me.
Alissa Golshan:
If you really do eat regularly the way you depict yourself in your videos, it’s surprising that you’re not even larger.
Patricia Whales:
It surprises myself too sometimes, especially on days when I don’t eat as much.
Alissa Golshan:
Why wouldn’t you eat as much on certain days?
Patricia Whales:
Because eating gets boring of course! That’s not to say I don’t love eating. Of course I love to eat, I’m practically a gormand, even though I hate cooking. But day in and day out, eating in all my spare hours gets dull. Hell, my jaw aches sometimes. My fans already know that I don’t drink very much water at all. I drink Ensure to try to get extra calories in, but the real reason I do that is so that I don’t have to spend more time eating than I really want to. It just gets to be a chore you know?
But really, the weirdest thing is just how much food a body this size needs to keep going, and it actually has nothing to do with Seal Guard. Believe it or not, I could eat a 4,000 Calorie (a day) diet and still lose weight, like a lot of weight. Have you ever eaten 4,000 Calories in a day, Alissa?
Alissa Golshan:
Maybe during Thanksgiving… (laughter)
Patricia Whales:
Well, I could eat a Thanksgiving dinner every day and still lose weight. It’s not that surprising really. I’m literally the size of several people over here, though the fat isn’t as metabolically active as say, my liver, each pound still needs a certain number of calories each day to keep living, and it all adds up I guess.
Alissa Golshan:
How many calories a day would you say you eat?
Patricia Whales:
You know, I’ve said the word “calorie” a lot just now, but I’m really not into counting them!
Alissa Golshan:
Could you give us a rough estimate?
Patricia Whales:
Maybe, but honestly, I think it varies a lot. Among everything I eat, calorie density matters a lot. I eat basically as much as I can comfortably every day, but not everything has the same nutritional value. Whenever I eat a salad -and I do eat salads!- that’s filling, and even with all the ranch, blue cheese and bacon I’ll put on it, it’s still thousands of calories less than if I’d eaten the same volume of, say, fried chicken wings.
But if I had to put a number on it, I’d say that I probably eat between 12,000 and 20,000 Calories each day, a lot of that being the Ensure I drink… (loud sipping from cup).
Alissa Golshan:
And what about your lifestyle, besides eating, that is. You’ve described spending a lot of time spent on taking care of your body.
Patricia Whales:
Girl, you are talking to probably the highest maintenance bitch on the planet! I don’t mean to be bitchy about it, but as you’ve probably guessed already, I take my health very seriously. And while I have Seal Guard to take care of my insides, I am left having to take care of the biggest organ in my body by myself.
Alissa Golshan:
And that is?
Patricia Whales:
My skin of course, as any 2nd grader can tell you, though I have far more of it than most women.
Alissa Golshan:
So you exfoliate?
Patricia Whales:
I do! Can’t you tell? And I do more than that, Honey. Now, do you mind if I lift up my blouse a little?
Alissa Golshan:
You’re not going to flash the audience, right?
Patricia Whales:
(snorting) Not that these fine people probably haven’t already seen everything I have to offer… but, ermph…! I just wanted to show you a little of this side of my tummy. You see those faint marks, like ridges going up and down?
Alissa Golshan:
I do see them, though they’re quite faint.
Patricia Whales:
Thank you for that, Honey, but these things are called stretch marks and I have a lot of them. They’re also basically impossible to get rid of, they’re actually scar tissue you know, from the collagen breaking down when the skin is stretched out too fast.
But believe it or not, almost all of my stretch marks are from the time after I started Seal Guard when I gained all that weight in six months. I’ve managed not to make any more since then.
Alissa Golshan:
How did you manage that?
Patricia Whales:
Well, first by trying basically every damn lotion, cream and oil you can think of first. Almost none of them actually do anything. I had to talk to a doctor to find out that really the only thing proven to work are products containing hyaluronic acid. I use that twice daily, and I think my old stretch marks have faded at least a little bit over the years. Of course, I also moisturize and exfoliate everything, boobs, belly, butt, thighs, everything just for good measure.
Alissa Golshan:
With that much skin, it seems like a lot of work.
Patricia Whales:
You have no idea. As well, because of the size of my arms and my body, I can’t even reach most of the regions of myself anymore, especially under my belly. That’s why for most of my adult life, I’ve tried to have some kind of live-in partner. Back when I only weighed 500 (lb), I only needed a little help with my back and sometimes my feet, but nowadays, I am really dependent on whoever’s around to do most of the work for me.
You see, urmph, this belly of mine really gives me the most problems. It weighs as much as two full grown men, and I can’t even lift it up by myself. You probably can’t imagine the sort of troubles I have with sweating, chafing, and dermatitis. I can get a yeast infection pretty much anywhere under here, and especially between the rolls on my inner thighs. But I learned early on that the key to preventing all sorts of skin infections is to keep everything nice and dry down there. That’s why I never apply cream to the underside of my belly or the insides of my thighs. I use medicated body powder and alcohol-based antiperspirant each day instead, twice or sometimes even three times a day if I need to! That all adds up to several containers of that stuff each week, actually. And I keep my house at 60 degrees or cooler year round to keep myself from sweating.
Alissa Golshan:
Oh, so that’s why you had us turn down the thermostat.
Patricia Whales:
I’m like a seal in more than just body fat percentage apparently.
Alissa Golshan:
So between the exercise, your diet, and daily hygiene, it sounds like you have a pretty full day.
Patricia Whales:
I never thought getting to be this big would be such a time sink, but there are certain realities even I have to face. But to be honest, I rather enjoy it all. I’m constantly reminded of just how big I am and my size itself bring joy into my life, even if it brings in certain inconveniences.
Alissa Golshan:
Like not being able to see your feet.
Patricia Whales:
(laughing) My feet! Alissa, I haven’t been able to tie my shoes since before I turned 20!
Alissa Golshan:
I suppose that’s why you prefer slip-ons… More seriously, though, does the fact that your lifestyle has made you permanently dependant on another human being ever troubled you?
Patricia Whales:
Ever? Well, of course it’s troubled me. I mean, not being able to take care of myself fully is practically the definition of trouble isn’t it? But I’ve organized my life so that it’s perfectly manageable. I haven’t had a time where there wasn’t someone to help me with basic functions now in many years.
Alissa Golshan:
Tell us about Lewis. Is he your current boyfriend?
Patricia Whales:
Live-in boyfriend.
Alissa Golshan:
Is there a difference?
Patricia Whales:
I’ve explained the distinction I make on my blog, but I’ll say it again now for everyone listening. Lewis lives with me, and yes, we’re having sex, we’re both grown adults after all, though Lewis actually doesn’t prefer vaginal penetration compared to other things we can do together, but we’re not romantically involved.
Alissa Golshan:
You’re very open about your sex life, Patricia, and, if you wouldn’t mind telling all of us. Lewis’s… erm, preference, is it at all due to your size?
Patricia Whales:
You’re asking me if I’m too fat to f*** normally, What? Did I get beeped on that one? Well, I can’t say that having this bean bag sitting on my crotch makes things any easier, certainly, and things get even more complicated once you get under there, but we can always get creative with positioning and a lot of pillows to make it work if we really want to. No, honestly Lewis has told me that he’s actually Bi and he’s less attracted to my gender than to just how fat I am in general. But I won’t describe now what we like to do together; you’ll just have to buy our DVD if you want to see for yourself.
Alissa Golshan:
In regards to your relationship, though, isn’t it awkward living together, having sex without a deep personal bond?
Patricia Whales:
Me and Lewis are friends, very good friends. I wouldn’t feel comfortable letting him touch my body if we didn’t have that bond. But, as I told him upfront when he was interested in, well, to put it crudely, being the next in line, that I was not interested in a romantic relationship.
I put it to him like this: You’re signing up for a second full time job, one where you’re not going to be paid and the work is sometimes dirty. But in exchange, you get to be around me, and you’ll get side benefits, time permitting.
Alissa Golshan:
It sounds like a lopsided deal to me.
Patricia Whales:
I never claimed it was fair, but there are a lot of guys who will go for it regardless… I’m a rare commodity!
Alissa Golshan:
Aren’t you objectifying yourself, though?
Patricia Whales:
I’m protecting myself is what I’m doing! Look, if you’ve ever been in love, you know how it is. I’ve seen girls get these doe eyes and follow their men around like puppies, sacrificing everything to be a part of their lives rather than living their own. I might be physically dependant on a man, or woman, I don’t really care in that regard, but so many women out there are emotionally dependent on their men. I just… can’t let myself become dependant both ways. That’s why I keep my partners at arm’s length.
Alissa Golshan:
That seems cold though. Haven’t you ever wanted to find love?
Patricia Whales:
Heh, maybe in a novel. But really, I haven’t really felt the need in my life. I think I might be too self-absorbed, to be perfectly honest. And it’s alright for a woman to be a little self-absorbed, but my lifestyle takes so much of my time anyways, it’s hard to imagine finding space for another person.
Add to that the plain fact that it’s so much riskier for me than other people. What if I find someone I love, but they either can’t or won’t take care of me the way that I need. So many feeders out there yell at me to finally climb over that 1,000 pound hill, but almost none of them understand what being my size really means. I’ve had men invite me to dinner at lavish restaurants who’s booths are too small for me and who’s chairs I would break in a millisecond. They get annoyed at the fact that I use a scooter, and some even want me to walk around in heels, HEELS!
No, my life, health, and comfort are too important to me to risk depending on the wrong person, even if they mean well, who can’t understand my personal needs. And, of course, everything I’ve described to you tonight gets a little bit harder to manage with each pound I put on.
Alissa Golshan:
So do you plan on gratifying your fans and gaining to one thousand? You say on your blog that you are still actively gaining.
Patricia Whales:
Ah, now that’s the question isn’t it? Do I want to basically be the heaviest woman alive in addition to being the fattest celebrity ever? Of course, I’d need to gain several hundred pounds more to break the records, but all of those people were stuck in bed and leading terrible lives. There was no balance there at all.
As to gaining, though, It’s something I think about a lot, and at the same time, try not to think about at all. If I wanted to cut back on my diet, I could easily as I mentioned. There have been times where I’ve picked up a new book or traveled and I will wind up losing five, ten, even fifteen pounds all at once just because I haven’t eaten and drank like I normally do. But I do eat more than I would to just be comfortable. A lot of the time, I’m just horny, I really do like to eat when I’m horny, but a bigger part of it is knowing that it’s these extra snacks, the extra bits I can shove down my throat even when I’m not hungry at all, when it’s actually hurting a little to keep eating, that are the surplus that I need to put on a few more extra pounds.
As you know, I’ve gained slowly and steadily since my early twenties. I’ve never once had a growth spurt since I started Seal Guard. It’s really helped me acclimate to the differences in weight over time. You look at me and you see someone who is collosolly obese, bigger than you could ever imagine yourself being, but to me, it just feels… normal… most of the time. There are moments when I am reminded how huge I am, and I cherish them.
Alissa Golshan:
Can you describe one of these moments?
Patricia Whales:
Well very recently, I’ve gotten so that when I am bending forward to get up, like from a couch just like this one, my lower tummy will brush the ground. I really love that feeling and it reminds me of just how big my gut is.
Alissa Golshan:
That seems like a hard thing to forget.
Patricia Whales:
You might think so, but it really isn’t. I avoid manual labor like the plague, so I don’t even bump into as many things as you might expect were I up on my feet doing stuff more. I actually consider myself rather graceful, considering my size, and my tiny center of mass.
I’m just… really used to having all of this fat around me. It’s part of me, literally, and most of the time it just sits there anyways. So, it’s easy to stop thinking about it and just take for granted the amount of space I take up in a room. Like, I can’t even imagine how it’d be like to be as small as you, Alissa. You look like you might just fall between the cushions of the chair you’re sitting on!
Alissa Golshan:
Um… I’m not sure what to say to that, honestly. But you never really answered my question about gaining more.
Patricia Whales:
Maybe it’s because I don’t really have a clear answer myself. Well, I suppose I can let you in on a little secret I’ve been sitting on. The day I looked at my scale and saw that I was over 700 pounds was a total life changer for me.
The feelings I’d been having, I’d had all through the time I spent gaining from 600 (lb), but it was at that moment, looking at those meaningless numbers, that it really crystalized everything for me. I was absolutely enormous, epically fat, a colossal woman. I was already everything that I had wanted to be my entire life. And you know, from that day forward, I haven’t felt any special urge at all to gain anymore.
Alissa Golshan:
That’s rather shocking to hear. You’ve put on more than a hundred pounds since then.
Patricia Whales:
A hundred and forty-seven to be exact, but you could have known that by looking at my web blog.
Alissa Golshan:
So you’ve put on the weight of an entire extra full grown woman despite having felt fulfilled at 700 pounds… Why would you do that?
Patricia Whales:
(shrugging) Because I could, Alissa. Now, listen to me, because I think the audience has been getting a very bad picture of me so far. When an athlete finally manages to win their local district, city, or state championship, the goal that they have been working towards for their entire life so far, how many of them do you think stop there? I make the athlete comparison here deliberately because honestly, if you ask me, I am kind of athlete. It took a lot of work to get this big and it takes a lot of work to maintain it. A body like this doesn’t just happen! People have gotten to be over a thousand pounds before, largely due to neglect by society, and maybe mental issues as well, but no one I know of has ever crafted a perfect obese body like I have.
I treat my body like a temple, or as some have said, like a massive, grand cathedral, fussing over every square inch, every pound of me all the time. So that is why, when I looked in the mirror and finally saw the woman I had always wanted to be, I felt in my heart, as well as my knees and lower back, that I could go further, I could be even more. I didn’t do it because I felt I had to, out of some lack or inferiority complex that would never be satisfied no matter how big I got. I took it as a challenge. I wanted to see how big I could get while maintaining a relatively healthy and normal lifestyle. And so far, I still feel good. I haven’t sacrificed anything so far that I felt had any real value, not when I could push the boundaries of my beauty just a bit further.
Alissa Golshan:
So the numbers, they don’t matter to you? And you don’t feel that you may be taking your life in your hands in the pursuit of beauty?
Patricia Whales:
I’d hardly be the first to die for the sake of beauty, Honey, but I think I’m wiser than most. I see a doctor once a month for a full physical. It’s taken him nearly ten years, but he’s finally starting to make sense of my bloodwork, which, according to his books should be killing me but obviously isn’t. So, even though I’m the last person I know of still taking Seal Guard, and no one really knows what its long term effects might be or even if it can continue helping me as I put on even more weight -by body fat percentage, I’m even fatter than most seals and sea lions, I’ll have you know- I feel comfortable going forward still. I know I can put the brakes on it all really easily after all, and it’d take almost no effort on my part to drop a hundred pounds or more.
As for the numbers, of course, it’s important to keep track. This morning, I weighed eight-hundred and forty-seven point two pounds. Sometimes, I don’t look quite so massive in my pictures, and other times much more so, so I get why the guys want my numbers as well as my bust, waist and upper arm measurements.
But for me, it’s all just an experience. I stopped dwelling on my weight in pounds as soon as I breached 700 (lb). It’s all just been… extra for me, a pleasant awareness of the growing weight of my body and a constant challenge to me intellectually as I just try to keep things in order and little things, like brushing my hair, gets harder to do. Next time you brush, try strapping thirty pound weights to your arms and see how long you last! It’s a thrill, of course, getting closer and closer to full dependance, and even immobility. It turns me on, but in the same way a fantasy does, because, you know, most people who like girls as big as I am have to settle for mere fantasies still.
I’ll know when I have to stop when it gets to be too hard or impossible to do the things I like to do. Only then will my weight stop being a source of joy in my life. Of course, it still probably comes back around to just how much weight my knees and lower back can support!
Alissa Golshan:
You know Patricia, I think I have really learned a lot from you in our time together. You’ve explained an outlook on life that I think is mature and full-grown in spite of your critics. I thank you very much and while I have not even gotten into the matter of your clothing design or adult filmography, or how you manage to support yourself financially, I am afraid those questions will have to wait for another time.
Patricia Whales:
I honestly don’t mind having a part two of this interview, Alissa, even though you asked me a lot of pointed questions. I want people to know more about me and understand me. It’s really hard, you know, having people look at you and think they know everything there is to know about you. In my case, that’s pretty much a fat pig who’s a drain on society. It’s very demeaning when you break down all the comments I get daily.
Alissa Golshan:
That’s why we’ve disabled comments on this interview, unfortunately. But you have your supporters as well, Patricia, and not just the men who admire your unique brand of beauty.
Patricia Whales:
I know. It’s them who keeps me going to a large degree.
Alissa Golshan:
Thank you for joining us, and please let me know if you need some help you up.
Patricia Whales:
I can still manage it, thank you, Alissa!
...Here, Lewis, just give me your hand for a second… ermph! Thank you dear-
This is a bit of an experimental piece, a written interview in the format of a news expose. Not a whole lot of my usual detail work in describing fat stuff, but I wanted to take the time to flesh out the mind and life of someone I might consider an ideal feedee. Maybe I'll write more about the character later =P
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Self proclaimed “fat-sionista” Patricia Whales, aka “Goddess Parfait,” sat down with Voz reporter Alissa Golshan for a first time, exclusive interview concerning her rise to fame as the world’s most recognizable super-sized woman and what her day to day life is like.
A virtual unknown in 2014, Patricia has starred in a few pornographic films, but eventually made a transition away with a surprise breakthrough into largely self-promoted online modeling. At first, her fame seemed to grow in direct proportion to her own waistline, but once the novelty of seeing someone who weighed in excess of 500 pounds strut about unashamed by her size had worn off, it turned out that Patricia had a lot to say to her fans. Always a proponent of size acceptance, Patricia is now held in high esteem among the LGBTQ community for her ideals of tolerance and acceptance -- though her status remains somewhat controversial even among the normally tolerant LGBTQ community.
While other female actors of size have been seen in the past (Chrissy Metz springs to mind), Patricia Whales has always been rather exceptional due to her sheer size and the fact that she has always been unrepentant of it, going so far to say that she enjoys actively gaining weight and has no intention of ever losing any of it. To critics, she has said that this is largely a lifestyle choice on her part, however, she has a hidden ace up her sleeve when answering those who question if she is setting a proper role model for younger fans. Patricia, since age 18, has been enrolled in a clinical trial for a hormonal therapy, the name of which has changed several times over the years but was originally labeled Seal-Guard, designed to combat negative health effects of obesity. Patricia has said that she is perfectly healthy despite her weight now having eclipsed 800 pounds and having lived with super-morbid obesity for her entire adult life.
Our conversation below has been edited for clarity and length.
Alissa Golshan:
How are you doing, Patricia, may I call you that? The trip here wasn’t too difficult for you was it?
Patricia Whales:
(chuckling) Of course you can call me Patricia. And if you’re asking me about the trip from the lobby to this couch, then no, your people have been very sweet and considerate of my needs. But as you can surely guess, traveling in general at my size is a giant pain in the ass. That’s why I’m very much a homebody as far as most celebrities go.
Alissa Golshan:
Could you tell us a little about that?
Patricia Whales:
Well, embarrassing as it is, I’ve gotten too big to fly. It’s not because I can’t fit in a whole row of seats though, I wouldn’t mind buying three tickets, but I can’t really fit through the plane door very easily now and the airline companies have told me that’s a liability in the event of an accident. I can’t really blame them for that, I suppose. Instead, I chartered a bus and came here the old fashioned way.
Alissa Golshan:
Of course, we didn’t make you take the stairs up to our studio today.
Patricia Whales:
Cheeky. Well, if stairs were the only option, we really would be doing this down in the lobby. But your elevator has a 4,000 lb weight limit, so I have more than enough headroom there… for now.
Alissa Golshan:
(laughing) Well, would you mind telling us a little about yourself? What initially attracted you to the… ahem, plus-sized lifestyle, and when did you decide to start gaining?
Patricia Whales:
Well, if you want my whole life’s story, this is going to be a pretty boring interview. I was born and raised in Saugatuck, Michigan, and for as long as I can remember, I wanted to be big, like really big. When I was six, my family took me to some kind of old fashioned carnival-type thing. I can’t remember anything about it now, but they had a fat lady there and we never even went in to see her, but the way she was drawn on the advertisements outside had me totally fixated. I wanted to look just like her, and the feeling never went away even though I eventually got much bigger than even the old illustration depicted.
I grew up fat, not because of “bad” genes. Despite living in the midwest, none of my family has ever had issues with their weight. But I constantly sabotaged my mother and father’s efforts to trim me down. I wanted to put on weight so bad, even before I hit puberty, but the feeling only intensified in my teenage years. So, by the time of my high school prom, I was the only girl there who weighed over 300 pounds, and believe me when I say that my classmates made sure I would not forget that little fact.
Alissa Golshan:
What did they do?
Patricia Whales:
I’d rather not dredge up the details. Size acceptance is something I’ve struggled with for my entire life, and I still get a lot of hate coming my way for simply living how I want to live even today.
Alissa Golshan:
I am sure that there are a lot of people out there who can relate to what you went through. Could you tell us about the clinical trial?
Patricia Whales:
Sure. You see, I as I started getting really big in my late teens, like to the point where I would stand out in crowds, I did worry more and more about my health. I thought about getting diabetes, which runs in both sides of my family, or dying of a heart attack before I was 40. I thought that my desires, which I’d still shared with no one, would have to stay secret forever because I didn’t want to damage my health so much that I’d die young. As a result, my weight bounced around a lot in my mid teens as I went on diets, would lose weight, get depressed, and actually try to get back the lost weight.
But I did have the internet, and health and obesity were terms that I would literally search the news about every few weeks or months. They actually started the clinical trial when I was 17, and I had to wait eight months before I would legally be able to apply.
Alissa Golshan:
But what made you interested in it, what stood out to you, as a teenage girl at the time?
Patricia Whales:
To be honest, the thing that interested me the most was that they were looking for people who weighed over 400 pounds. I’d never seen anything at all where weighing 400 (lb) was a requirement. I was 17 and weighed 385 lbs at the time, and I think I would have taken virtually any excuse at all to finally climb over the 400 pound threshold for the first time. But the clinical trial said explicitly that they were attempting to mitigate some of the health effects associated with obesity, and that was also the number one thing that I had been worrying about at the time, so it was a big no brainer for me, despite how weird it sounds for a teenager to be looking to join a clinical trial.
Alissa Golshan:
Did you tell your parents?
Patricia Whales:
Hell no! (laughing) Oh, they would have never understood. They barely understand me now, though at least my mother has stopped asking me to “cut back” to 500 pounds, which, by the way, is the heaviest my doctor has said they’d take me in for weight loss surgery. No, I did it all behind their backs, which was easier said than done when I was living under my folks’ roof and needed to take the bus a lot because it was already getting kind of awkward for me to drive with my size.
Alissa Golshan:
So you faced pressure from your family to lose weight?
Patricia Whales:
Yup. Pretty much everyday. I guarantee you that if I were a dude, they would not have cared as much because I knew some football players who were chunky as hell in high school, granted, not even any of them weighed 400 (lb). But I was a girl, and my mother would tell me that no man would marry a… a cow like I was getting to be. Well, she would often say things like if I didn’t stop, I’d look like a cow, or I was swelling up to the size of a house, but I knew that what she meant was that I was those things already.
They had interventions for me. One time, my dad told me that we would both be fasting and drinking nothing but orange juice for the next five days so we could both lose a little weight. My mother would give me the stink eye whenever I ate anything at the dinner table, and I could never get seconds; I had to steal the leftovers out of the fridge after dinner or else go to a friend’s house for a second dinner in order to get enough food sometimes, not that I ever had many friends, but I did have a few. It usually didn’t hurt to have the fattest girl in school next to you to make you look skinnier, and even back then, I got some interest from a few of the guys. I got to be well endowed pretty early on, and that got me a lot of attraction even when the other girls were still developing their busts.
Alissa Golshan:
And did you like the male attraction? Did some of the boys like that you were so big?
Patricia Whales:
I’m not sure whether they did or not, or if they knew themselves or not. It was a small town, and the percentage of guys who really do like big women tends to be fairly low, less than a third, I’d wager. What I think is that I had the biggest tits and the biggest ass in school and the boys with their little boners they couldn’t control saw that and simply couldn’t help themselves…
(long pause)
But you know, I am grateful for the attention, looking back, though my heart was broken more than once. I learned a lot about how guys behave when they are attracted to someone, what they are and aren’t willing to do, and also the difference between when a boy is really interested or just horny. Of course, some men are slicker than others and play their cards closer to their chests. I’ve been fortunate not to have to deal with many romances like that. Most of the men who are interested in what I have to offer are very straightforward about their desires, as am I.
Alissa Golshan:
I’d like to touch more on that later, but for now, could you tell us about what happened once you signed up for the clinical trial?
Patricia Whales:
Okay, well, the drug was called Seal-Guard at the time, but I didn’t know that at all. They didn’t tell me or the nine other people they enrolled what the drug was going to be marketed as. On the paperwork, it was only referred to as Obesity-Reductor-XYZ or some nonsense like that. But I did pay attention when they described what it was supposed to do. Very simply, it was a hormonal cocktail, it’s both a pill and a weekly injection, that’s designed to make our metabolisms mimic those of seals and sea lions. You may not have thought about it much, but both of those animals are extremely fat with the blubber they need, yet suffer no ill effects from it. Being 17, I only really thought that this drug would prevent me from developing diabetes and heart disease, but in reality, it didn’t really work that way at all.
Alissa Golshan:
Can you elaborate?
Patricia Whales:
Well, if you aren’t a diabetic, then your blood sugar should be below about 100 mg/dl of glucose. But I guarantee that if you took a blood sample from me right now, it’d be well over 500. I’ve had measurements of 900 and even 1200 mg/dl before! And my triglycerides are just as bad.
Alissa Golshan:
Does that mean you’re diabetic, then?
Patricia Whales:
...sort of. I am diabetic in the classical sense, but you see, seals and sea lions also have elevated levels of sugar and fats in their bloodstream. They regulate their fat stores differently than other mammals. What Seal Guard has done is allowed my body to imitate that of a seal, so, despite how much sugar and fat is in my bloodstream, it doesn’t hurt my organs, clog my arteries, or damage my nerves like with people who aren’t taking the hormones.
Alissa Golshan:
So what happens if you were to stop taking your hormones then?
Patricia Whales:
Oh my god, I don’t even want to think about it! (audible creaking from the couch) Well, let’s just say that one day I’d wake up all of a sudden with terminal stage diabetes and heart disease for a double whammy.
Alissa Golshan:
But Seal Guard has never been made commercially available and the company that patented it went out of business. How are you still getting the drugs you need?
Patricia Whales:
It is a real shame that that happened because this medicine has completely changed my life, for the better, I mean of course, and I wish more people had the opportunity to live the lifestyle they’d prefer. But as to how I obtain the hormones I still need, I’m sort of in a legacy status, and the company which bought out the one making Seal Guard is obligated to supply me with doses for as long as it’d deemed medically necessary. In a way, it is sort of in my best interests to keep my weight as high as possible just to make it clear that cutting me off would basically be a death sentence.
Alissa Golshan:
One of the reasons why Seal Guard was never brought to market was that clinical trials showed that the drugs caused the clinical trial participants to put on a substantial amount of weight. Was this your experience?
Patricia Whales:
Oh yeah. I’d never gained weight faster than the first year I started taking Seal Guard. It was wonderful and hard at the same time. In six months, I’d gained over 100 pounds and I needed a completely new wardrobe, though now things in my size were basically impossible to find unless I had them made for me on the internet or made them myself. It was during this time that I began to take my dress making hobby more seriously, but I’ll get into that more later. But in all the attacks on Seal Guard, nobody ever mentions that while it initially caused a lot of weight gain, after a while, it just sort of plateaus. Out of the ten of us, I think I gained the most weight, but I was feeding into it naturally, and I only wound up about 120 pounds heavier than when I started when those gains leveled off. But people will talk as if the drug causes people to keep gaining forever.
Alissa Golshan:
Well, you haven’t admitted to halting your weight gain, have you, Patricia?
Patricia Whales:
(blushing) Well, I… again, that’s a personal choice of mine, and let me tell you, Seal Guard has not helped me along one inch (sound of flesh clapping) since those initial gains leveled off. Of course, people will use my own weight against me when I argue that Seal Guard should be brought back for more trials. You can find people who are willing to live at 500+ pounds, they’re out there, and honestly, I think the world would benefit from having more of us around.
Alissa Golshan:
Would society benefit from having more super-morbidly obese people, do you think?
Patricia Whales:
Ah, don’t bring up that Alt-Right crap with me. I’ve heard that talking point more times than people have called me a fat pig or slut, can I say slut? Whatever. But you know, my belief is that we ought to be transitioning away from late-stage capitalism and the exploitative work culture in any case. I say, let the robots do all the work and take all the jobs! Let the rest of us have fun and those who still want to work will work.
Alissa Golshan:
I’m not sure that sounds like a sustainable society.
Patricia Whales:
You wouldn’t think from the sound of it, but that’s the beauty of technology. It gets to a point where you don’t really need people anymore. So, instead of forcing the majority of us to compete for the diminishing number of jobs left, we should instead dole out basic pay, yes, a basic wage, to everyone, even those of us who would prefer to sit on our gigantic asses each day. That will create the demand these mega-corps need anyways. They don’t act like it, but they still need us little people to keep buying their shit after all.
Alissa Golshan:
I want to move away from politics… but I do have to ask: are you on disability?
Patricia Whales:
I am. I’m on disability because I’m disabled obviously by any definition.
Alissa Golshan:
But this is a life choice you’ve made, and the way you describe your diet, if you were to eat a normal amount, the weight would drop off of you pretty fast, wouldn’t it?
Patricia Whales:
I didn’t set up the system we have, and obviously people like me weren’t what was strictly in mind when the law was made, but I technically fall into it, so, because there’s no basic wage yet, I’ll take what I can from the government. Not that $500 a month even covers the cost of skin care products I need, but every little bit helps when you’re an internet celebrity working for peanuts.
Alissa Golshan:
Fair enough. But now I would like to talk more about your daily life. What is it like being the heaviest online model in the world?
Patricia Whales:
Now you’re asking me some decent questions! First off, let me tell you that you have no idea what it is like weighing over 800 pounds unless you have been morbidly obese yourself. You’ve seen the scooter I rode in on, well, that’s not because of how lazy I am. I spend two or three hours every day working out, primarily toning my legs and back just so I can support this much weight and walk around as much as I still can.
Alissa Golshan:
About how far can you walk unassisted?
Patricia Whales:
Now, that sounds like something Maury would ask, and I turned down his show for exactly this reason. But I am really enthusiastic about being plus sized, even super sized, so I’ll answer anyways. I can still handle short distances pretty well. I’d be willing to say that I could walk the length of a football field, 100 yards, before I absolutely needed to sit on something. But again, I wouldn’t even be able to get out of this couch on my own if I didn’t spend so much time strength training my legs.
Alissa Golshan:
If your routine is so rigorous, you’d think you’d be able to walk more normally.
Patricia Whales:
Yeah, you’d think you’d be able to strap a 700 lb backpack to a body builder and still have them move around right? (uncomfortable silence) Well, it isn’t quite that easy. Now you really have to imagine the kind of weight I’m carrying around every day. Each time I stand up, I’m literally deadlifting 700 pounds; look at the size of these calves! Just moving around my house each day is a full body workout. But I actually don’t spend as much time on my feet in the house as I could. I have a rolling stool in my kitchen and lowered shelves for exactly this reason.
Alissa Golshan:
Why is that?
Patricia Whales:
Can’t you guess? No? Well, I guess you can say that the human body isn’t exactly designed to support more than 800 pounds. Every minute I spend on my feet is literally destroying the cartilage in my knees, ankles and lower back.
Alissa Golshan:
Are you saying that you have arthritis?
Patricia Whales:
No, I am not saying that. I don’t have it… yet. But realistically, I will probably have joint disease relatively early in my life, and I have no idea how I’ll be able to get a knee or a hip replacement being at my size. That is why I spent an hour exercising with resistance bands while sitting or lying down each morning and each night before bed and spend as little time actually on my feet as I can manage. Also, for me, a pool is an absolutely necessary piece of workout equipment.
Alissa Golshan:
What do you do in the pool?
Patricia Whales:
I have aquatic resistance weights made of styrofoam that I can wear on my ankles and hold in my hands. The pool is also the only place where I can do cardio.
Alissa Golshan:
Cardio? Isn’t that kind of exercise normally for losing weight?
Patricia Whales:
It is. But I feel better knowing that I give my heart at least a modest workout too now and again. I can always counterbalance it by eating more in the day anyways.
Alissa Golshan:
About your diet, how much do you typically eat in a day?
Patricia Whales:
(Grinning) Oh that, well, I’m not shy about it. Everyone knows what my diet is like. I’ll literally eat a dozen egg omelette, a pound of bacon, and a whole loaf of bread with three sticks of butter in one go. That’s not even out of the ordinary for me. How I’ve videotaped myself eating at meals, I try to do that every day.
Alissa Golshan:
Doesn’t that seem outrageous? How can one person eat so much?
Patricia Whales:
Again, it comes back to lifestyle and training. I’ve deliberately overeaten basically my entire life. My stomach has stretched out and I can literally chug an entire gallon of milk without breaking a sweat. My doctor says that my stomach is probably three and a half times the normal size. Of course, it is hard for me to eat much more than I am now. There aren’t enough hours in the day for one, and another thing is that when I’m really full, my stomach presses really hard into my diaphragm which makes it impossible for me to take deep breaths for an hour or more. I can’t eat like that right before I need to exercise, and I always exercise. I take my mobility very seriously even though there are thousands of guys out there who keep telling me to go full on immobile.
Alissa Golshan:
That much food though, doesn’t it seem wasteful?
Patricia Whales:
Wasteful?! Does it look like any of it has gone to waste? (belly shaking audibly) But more seriously, we’ve thrown out way more food in this country for that to be a serious criticism of me.
Alissa Golshan:
If you really do eat regularly the way you depict yourself in your videos, it’s surprising that you’re not even larger.
Patricia Whales:
It surprises myself too sometimes, especially on days when I don’t eat as much.
Alissa Golshan:
Why wouldn’t you eat as much on certain days?
Patricia Whales:
Because eating gets boring of course! That’s not to say I don’t love eating. Of course I love to eat, I’m practically a gormand, even though I hate cooking. But day in and day out, eating in all my spare hours gets dull. Hell, my jaw aches sometimes. My fans already know that I don’t drink very much water at all. I drink Ensure to try to get extra calories in, but the real reason I do that is so that I don’t have to spend more time eating than I really want to. It just gets to be a chore you know?
But really, the weirdest thing is just how much food a body this size needs to keep going, and it actually has nothing to do with Seal Guard. Believe it or not, I could eat a 4,000 Calorie (a day) diet and still lose weight, like a lot of weight. Have you ever eaten 4,000 Calories in a day, Alissa?
Alissa Golshan:
Maybe during Thanksgiving… (laughter)
Patricia Whales:
Well, I could eat a Thanksgiving dinner every day and still lose weight. It’s not that surprising really. I’m literally the size of several people over here, though the fat isn’t as metabolically active as say, my liver, each pound still needs a certain number of calories each day to keep living, and it all adds up I guess.
Alissa Golshan:
How many calories a day would you say you eat?
Patricia Whales:
You know, I’ve said the word “calorie” a lot just now, but I’m really not into counting them!
Alissa Golshan:
Could you give us a rough estimate?
Patricia Whales:
Maybe, but honestly, I think it varies a lot. Among everything I eat, calorie density matters a lot. I eat basically as much as I can comfortably every day, but not everything has the same nutritional value. Whenever I eat a salad -and I do eat salads!- that’s filling, and even with all the ranch, blue cheese and bacon I’ll put on it, it’s still thousands of calories less than if I’d eaten the same volume of, say, fried chicken wings.
But if I had to put a number on it, I’d say that I probably eat between 12,000 and 20,000 Calories each day, a lot of that being the Ensure I drink… (loud sipping from cup).
Alissa Golshan:
And what about your lifestyle, besides eating, that is. You’ve described spending a lot of time spent on taking care of your body.
Patricia Whales:
Girl, you are talking to probably the highest maintenance bitch on the planet! I don’t mean to be bitchy about it, but as you’ve probably guessed already, I take my health very seriously. And while I have Seal Guard to take care of my insides, I am left having to take care of the biggest organ in my body by myself.
Alissa Golshan:
And that is?
Patricia Whales:
My skin of course, as any 2nd grader can tell you, though I have far more of it than most women.
Alissa Golshan:
So you exfoliate?
Patricia Whales:
I do! Can’t you tell? And I do more than that, Honey. Now, do you mind if I lift up my blouse a little?
Alissa Golshan:
You’re not going to flash the audience, right?
Patricia Whales:
(snorting) Not that these fine people probably haven’t already seen everything I have to offer… but, ermph…! I just wanted to show you a little of this side of my tummy. You see those faint marks, like ridges going up and down?
Alissa Golshan:
I do see them, though they’re quite faint.
Patricia Whales:
Thank you for that, Honey, but these things are called stretch marks and I have a lot of them. They’re also basically impossible to get rid of, they’re actually scar tissue you know, from the collagen breaking down when the skin is stretched out too fast.
But believe it or not, almost all of my stretch marks are from the time after I started Seal Guard when I gained all that weight in six months. I’ve managed not to make any more since then.
Alissa Golshan:
How did you manage that?
Patricia Whales:
Well, first by trying basically every damn lotion, cream and oil you can think of first. Almost none of them actually do anything. I had to talk to a doctor to find out that really the only thing proven to work are products containing hyaluronic acid. I use that twice daily, and I think my old stretch marks have faded at least a little bit over the years. Of course, I also moisturize and exfoliate everything, boobs, belly, butt, thighs, everything just for good measure.
Alissa Golshan:
With that much skin, it seems like a lot of work.
Patricia Whales:
You have no idea. As well, because of the size of my arms and my body, I can’t even reach most of the regions of myself anymore, especially under my belly. That’s why for most of my adult life, I’ve tried to have some kind of live-in partner. Back when I only weighed 500 (lb), I only needed a little help with my back and sometimes my feet, but nowadays, I am really dependent on whoever’s around to do most of the work for me.
You see, urmph, this belly of mine really gives me the most problems. It weighs as much as two full grown men, and I can’t even lift it up by myself. You probably can’t imagine the sort of troubles I have with sweating, chafing, and dermatitis. I can get a yeast infection pretty much anywhere under here, and especially between the rolls on my inner thighs. But I learned early on that the key to preventing all sorts of skin infections is to keep everything nice and dry down there. That’s why I never apply cream to the underside of my belly or the insides of my thighs. I use medicated body powder and alcohol-based antiperspirant each day instead, twice or sometimes even three times a day if I need to! That all adds up to several containers of that stuff each week, actually. And I keep my house at 60 degrees or cooler year round to keep myself from sweating.
Alissa Golshan:
Oh, so that’s why you had us turn down the thermostat.
Patricia Whales:
I’m like a seal in more than just body fat percentage apparently.
Alissa Golshan:
So between the exercise, your diet, and daily hygiene, it sounds like you have a pretty full day.
Patricia Whales:
I never thought getting to be this big would be such a time sink, but there are certain realities even I have to face. But to be honest, I rather enjoy it all. I’m constantly reminded of just how big I am and my size itself bring joy into my life, even if it brings in certain inconveniences.
Alissa Golshan:
Like not being able to see your feet.
Patricia Whales:
(laughing) My feet! Alissa, I haven’t been able to tie my shoes since before I turned 20!
Alissa Golshan:
I suppose that’s why you prefer slip-ons… More seriously, though, does the fact that your lifestyle has made you permanently dependant on another human being ever troubled you?
Patricia Whales:
Ever? Well, of course it’s troubled me. I mean, not being able to take care of myself fully is practically the definition of trouble isn’t it? But I’ve organized my life so that it’s perfectly manageable. I haven’t had a time where there wasn’t someone to help me with basic functions now in many years.
Alissa Golshan:
Tell us about Lewis. Is he your current boyfriend?
Patricia Whales:
Live-in boyfriend.
Alissa Golshan:
Is there a difference?
Patricia Whales:
I’ve explained the distinction I make on my blog, but I’ll say it again now for everyone listening. Lewis lives with me, and yes, we’re having sex, we’re both grown adults after all, though Lewis actually doesn’t prefer vaginal penetration compared to other things we can do together, but we’re not romantically involved.
Alissa Golshan:
You’re very open about your sex life, Patricia, and, if you wouldn’t mind telling all of us. Lewis’s… erm, preference, is it at all due to your size?
Patricia Whales:
You’re asking me if I’m too fat to f*** normally, What? Did I get beeped on that one? Well, I can’t say that having this bean bag sitting on my crotch makes things any easier, certainly, and things get even more complicated once you get under there, but we can always get creative with positioning and a lot of pillows to make it work if we really want to. No, honestly Lewis has told me that he’s actually Bi and he’s less attracted to my gender than to just how fat I am in general. But I won’t describe now what we like to do together; you’ll just have to buy our DVD if you want to see for yourself.
Alissa Golshan:
In regards to your relationship, though, isn’t it awkward living together, having sex without a deep personal bond?
Patricia Whales:
Me and Lewis are friends, very good friends. I wouldn’t feel comfortable letting him touch my body if we didn’t have that bond. But, as I told him upfront when he was interested in, well, to put it crudely, being the next in line, that I was not interested in a romantic relationship.
I put it to him like this: You’re signing up for a second full time job, one where you’re not going to be paid and the work is sometimes dirty. But in exchange, you get to be around me, and you’ll get side benefits, time permitting.
Alissa Golshan:
It sounds like a lopsided deal to me.
Patricia Whales:
I never claimed it was fair, but there are a lot of guys who will go for it regardless… I’m a rare commodity!
Alissa Golshan:
Aren’t you objectifying yourself, though?
Patricia Whales:
I’m protecting myself is what I’m doing! Look, if you’ve ever been in love, you know how it is. I’ve seen girls get these doe eyes and follow their men around like puppies, sacrificing everything to be a part of their lives rather than living their own. I might be physically dependant on a man, or woman, I don’t really care in that regard, but so many women out there are emotionally dependent on their men. I just… can’t let myself become dependant both ways. That’s why I keep my partners at arm’s length.
Alissa Golshan:
That seems cold though. Haven’t you ever wanted to find love?
Patricia Whales:
Heh, maybe in a novel. But really, I haven’t really felt the need in my life. I think I might be too self-absorbed, to be perfectly honest. And it’s alright for a woman to be a little self-absorbed, but my lifestyle takes so much of my time anyways, it’s hard to imagine finding space for another person.
Add to that the plain fact that it’s so much riskier for me than other people. What if I find someone I love, but they either can’t or won’t take care of me the way that I need. So many feeders out there yell at me to finally climb over that 1,000 pound hill, but almost none of them understand what being my size really means. I’ve had men invite me to dinner at lavish restaurants who’s booths are too small for me and who’s chairs I would break in a millisecond. They get annoyed at the fact that I use a scooter, and some even want me to walk around in heels, HEELS!
No, my life, health, and comfort are too important to me to risk depending on the wrong person, even if they mean well, who can’t understand my personal needs. And, of course, everything I’ve described to you tonight gets a little bit harder to manage with each pound I put on.
Alissa Golshan:
So do you plan on gratifying your fans and gaining to one thousand? You say on your blog that you are still actively gaining.
Patricia Whales:
Ah, now that’s the question isn’t it? Do I want to basically be the heaviest woman alive in addition to being the fattest celebrity ever? Of course, I’d need to gain several hundred pounds more to break the records, but all of those people were stuck in bed and leading terrible lives. There was no balance there at all.
As to gaining, though, It’s something I think about a lot, and at the same time, try not to think about at all. If I wanted to cut back on my diet, I could easily as I mentioned. There have been times where I’ve picked up a new book or traveled and I will wind up losing five, ten, even fifteen pounds all at once just because I haven’t eaten and drank like I normally do. But I do eat more than I would to just be comfortable. A lot of the time, I’m just horny, I really do like to eat when I’m horny, but a bigger part of it is knowing that it’s these extra snacks, the extra bits I can shove down my throat even when I’m not hungry at all, when it’s actually hurting a little to keep eating, that are the surplus that I need to put on a few more extra pounds.
As you know, I’ve gained slowly and steadily since my early twenties. I’ve never once had a growth spurt since I started Seal Guard. It’s really helped me acclimate to the differences in weight over time. You look at me and you see someone who is collosolly obese, bigger than you could ever imagine yourself being, but to me, it just feels… normal… most of the time. There are moments when I am reminded how huge I am, and I cherish them.
Alissa Golshan:
Can you describe one of these moments?
Patricia Whales:
Well very recently, I’ve gotten so that when I am bending forward to get up, like from a couch just like this one, my lower tummy will brush the ground. I really love that feeling and it reminds me of just how big my gut is.
Alissa Golshan:
That seems like a hard thing to forget.
Patricia Whales:
You might think so, but it really isn’t. I avoid manual labor like the plague, so I don’t even bump into as many things as you might expect were I up on my feet doing stuff more. I actually consider myself rather graceful, considering my size, and my tiny center of mass.
I’m just… really used to having all of this fat around me. It’s part of me, literally, and most of the time it just sits there anyways. So, it’s easy to stop thinking about it and just take for granted the amount of space I take up in a room. Like, I can’t even imagine how it’d be like to be as small as you, Alissa. You look like you might just fall between the cushions of the chair you’re sitting on!
Alissa Golshan:
Um… I’m not sure what to say to that, honestly. But you never really answered my question about gaining more.
Patricia Whales:
Maybe it’s because I don’t really have a clear answer myself. Well, I suppose I can let you in on a little secret I’ve been sitting on. The day I looked at my scale and saw that I was over 700 pounds was a total life changer for me.
The feelings I’d been having, I’d had all through the time I spent gaining from 600 (lb), but it was at that moment, looking at those meaningless numbers, that it really crystalized everything for me. I was absolutely enormous, epically fat, a colossal woman. I was already everything that I had wanted to be my entire life. And you know, from that day forward, I haven’t felt any special urge at all to gain anymore.
Alissa Golshan:
That’s rather shocking to hear. You’ve put on more than a hundred pounds since then.
Patricia Whales:
A hundred and forty-seven to be exact, but you could have known that by looking at my web blog.
Alissa Golshan:
So you’ve put on the weight of an entire extra full grown woman despite having felt fulfilled at 700 pounds… Why would you do that?
Patricia Whales:
(shrugging) Because I could, Alissa. Now, listen to me, because I think the audience has been getting a very bad picture of me so far. When an athlete finally manages to win their local district, city, or state championship, the goal that they have been working towards for their entire life so far, how many of them do you think stop there? I make the athlete comparison here deliberately because honestly, if you ask me, I am kind of athlete. It took a lot of work to get this big and it takes a lot of work to maintain it. A body like this doesn’t just happen! People have gotten to be over a thousand pounds before, largely due to neglect by society, and maybe mental issues as well, but no one I know of has ever crafted a perfect obese body like I have.
I treat my body like a temple, or as some have said, like a massive, grand cathedral, fussing over every square inch, every pound of me all the time. So that is why, when I looked in the mirror and finally saw the woman I had always wanted to be, I felt in my heart, as well as my knees and lower back, that I could go further, I could be even more. I didn’t do it because I felt I had to, out of some lack or inferiority complex that would never be satisfied no matter how big I got. I took it as a challenge. I wanted to see how big I could get while maintaining a relatively healthy and normal lifestyle. And so far, I still feel good. I haven’t sacrificed anything so far that I felt had any real value, not when I could push the boundaries of my beauty just a bit further.
Alissa Golshan:
So the numbers, they don’t matter to you? And you don’t feel that you may be taking your life in your hands in the pursuit of beauty?
Patricia Whales:
I’d hardly be the first to die for the sake of beauty, Honey, but I think I’m wiser than most. I see a doctor once a month for a full physical. It’s taken him nearly ten years, but he’s finally starting to make sense of my bloodwork, which, according to his books should be killing me but obviously isn’t. So, even though I’m the last person I know of still taking Seal Guard, and no one really knows what its long term effects might be or even if it can continue helping me as I put on even more weight -by body fat percentage, I’m even fatter than most seals and sea lions, I’ll have you know- I feel comfortable going forward still. I know I can put the brakes on it all really easily after all, and it’d take almost no effort on my part to drop a hundred pounds or more.
As for the numbers, of course, it’s important to keep track. This morning, I weighed eight-hundred and forty-seven point two pounds. Sometimes, I don’t look quite so massive in my pictures, and other times much more so, so I get why the guys want my numbers as well as my bust, waist and upper arm measurements.
But for me, it’s all just an experience. I stopped dwelling on my weight in pounds as soon as I breached 700 (lb). It’s all just been… extra for me, a pleasant awareness of the growing weight of my body and a constant challenge to me intellectually as I just try to keep things in order and little things, like brushing my hair, gets harder to do. Next time you brush, try strapping thirty pound weights to your arms and see how long you last! It’s a thrill, of course, getting closer and closer to full dependance, and even immobility. It turns me on, but in the same way a fantasy does, because, you know, most people who like girls as big as I am have to settle for mere fantasies still.
I’ll know when I have to stop when it gets to be too hard or impossible to do the things I like to do. Only then will my weight stop being a source of joy in my life. Of course, it still probably comes back around to just how much weight my knees and lower back can support!
Alissa Golshan:
You know Patricia, I think I have really learned a lot from you in our time together. You’ve explained an outlook on life that I think is mature and full-grown in spite of your critics. I thank you very much and while I have not even gotten into the matter of your clothing design or adult filmography, or how you manage to support yourself financially, I am afraid those questions will have to wait for another time.
Patricia Whales:
I honestly don’t mind having a part two of this interview, Alissa, even though you asked me a lot of pointed questions. I want people to know more about me and understand me. It’s really hard, you know, having people look at you and think they know everything there is to know about you. In my case, that’s pretty much a fat pig who’s a drain on society. It’s very demeaning when you break down all the comments I get daily.
Alissa Golshan:
That’s why we’ve disabled comments on this interview, unfortunately. But you have your supporters as well, Patricia, and not just the men who admire your unique brand of beauty.
Patricia Whales:
I know. It’s them who keeps me going to a large degree.
Alissa Golshan:
Thank you for joining us, and please let me know if you need some help you up.
Patricia Whales:
I can still manage it, thank you, Alissa!
...Here, Lewis, just give me your hand for a second… ermph! Thank you dear-
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