Sorry for the lack of posts recently. I've been struggling to find motivation and overcome my feelings of rejection towards my own art.

If anyone's still reading, After quite some time I figured out that my lack of desire (or rather, the repulsion I felt towards it) came from the fact that I hated my own work. Anything I could possibly produce fell into this category of "not good enough", so making any artwork would not only be unproductive, but also humiliating.

On top of that, I also figured that I was trying to get so much into the technical aspect of drawing that I forgot about the basic emotions involved in the whole process. This also led me to stop getting inspired by works that I used to admire, and so, I began to lose this feeling of awe, creativity and desire that I used to get by looking at art.

I don't know if these feelings of not being able to enjoy come from some sort of depression or if it's something that's bound to my personality, but for the time being, I figured I should try to get inspired once again, to swallow my expectations of myself and to try to get into the vibe once again. That being said, I hope you like this painting, because I must admit that I kind of like it when I squint my eyes.

<3