I just read your two poems and they are really good, but at the same time really, really sad and tragic. If they are about yourself then could I recommend that you seek help? I know that to you I’m just some random person with no idea of what’s going on in your life, and yes I don’t, but depression is a terrible road to go down. Believe me I know.

You still have someone that loves you, he can help you through this. From what you’ve said you’re still special to him and he would do anything for you. Just tell him, he’ll help. Life is better than you think, you just need to break of your ‘cell’ as you put it. Hope things get better.

Thank you very much for your concern, but I don't plan to seek help in my future, my low points are what allow me to write the poems that I do, and the poems do wonders to help get me out of the low points, so really it works out both ways ^^.

Oh, alright. As long as things do get better for you. That's quite an unusual inspiration/ low point recovery method, but if it works for you go ahead. Stay safe!

Your poetry is epic!