You know, this works.. it really does. I'm a big advocate of letting it out. Of just having the tears flow out. There was this one time, one time... yeah. I was on the beach ya know it was that kind of day, none of us were working full time back then, and we could just go to the beach.. all my friends and I. And I'm one of those people who love swimming, like maybe some friends lay out a towel and start sun bathing, not me man. I wanna get in the water. But this time it hit me, it hit me hard and it hit me fast. I just kinda sat there, taking in the fresh air, trying my best to look serene. but i was really just staring out into the horizon, and there was like nothing in my field of vision. just a hazy blackness and all that noise building up in my head. and then she came along. She knows that this isn't 'me' you know? so she plops down behind me and puts her hand on mine, and she does that thing where you interlock fingers, I really like that. and bam it was like magic. through all the haze and noise I could see what was happening around me again, like her touch was radiating light. and she clasped my other hand like that. wrapped our arms around me and hugged me right from the back. and tears just streamed down my face. I finally managed to speak and it was "I'm gonna be okay" I'm not sure if I was asking or letting her know, but she took it from there. "you're gonna be okay." period. and we just kinda sat there for a bit. I was fine for the rest of the day after that... but that was a one time thing. ya know, we were never gonna make it that far. but even for a second, she helped me out. nowadays she's another voice the noise is good at mimicking. But I still think about that beach, and tear up... in a good way.