It is a really hard work trying to draw myself exactly how i am in real life.. but i always trying my best, besides... it is more easy to draw a beautyful girl than an ugly one, and that's a fact so nwn'

When normal people usually try to show the world their best look, i'm just trying to show my real being, without filters, without lies. It is not like i'm so proud of my look, but it is all that i have and all that i am, so.. I prefer to be considered ugly than try to change myself just because... some people makes me do it. But, what can i do in a world that the only matters is how beauty or sexy you can be?. I think some people needs to realize that everyone is going to get older.. and that beauty probably will not stand the same always.. but who cares about the thoughts of a fatass ugly woman..

The worst part of this is that i still remembering when i was trying to be more sincere of how i draw myself, so i tried to make me look more realistic and some people just said "Why are you making her uglier?" so i answer.. "It is not a character, i'm drawing myself and this is more like how i really am.. so thanks for the kind words".. those words are still burning inside me nowdays. And all the bad gazes i get from people in the streets.. *sigh* well, noone said that life is easy, isn't it?

So if you reached this part (and doesn't got bored yet..) i have something more to say. All of this idea of drawing myself the way i really am, it haves a reason. If people always says than i'm that ugly.. i wanted to know what i have on me that i should be ashamed. So i started to draw myself to analise my look and.. to live myself all those adventures that i want to live and feel. You can say that this is all a psychology homework for me, to value me more than anyone ever does. Digimon world, Biker Mice world, Gargoyles world... and my own worlds! and that was awesome.

Despite those people, despite that how they will always treat me.. i made it, i'm completing my goal and i'm creating so many stories and worlds just for me, and for those kind people that really wanted to know about this girl.

So really thank you, if you made it to here and really readed all that description, it means a lot to me. And really thank you for the nicest person i ever meet, my boyfriend He is the only one that can say to me "¡HERMOSA!" or "You're BEAUTIFUL" and really make me blush x///DDD He always concern about how i feel, and he always do his best to make me smile everyday. I love you Neo-sama my love and thank you so much for be at my side always :'/////)

~Just some thoughts of an ugly girl ;)