I have a lot of demons to sort through. The main one is the voices in my mind that like to tell me lies.
The problem being, is sometimes...in the past at least, I had believed those voices.
Things are a little bit different these days.
Oh make no mistake, those voices are even Louder than before.
I have a lot at stake, and a lot of fear.
But it's worth it. And I will fight those voices every fucking day. Because, I'm starting to learn, to believe finally, that those voices are Wrong.
To those that know me, and to those that I love, and are so dear to me...please don't give up on me. I'm here, I'm fighting, and I love you with all of my being. I KNOW the voices speak lies. I Do believe You.

So..umm...yeah, here's the poem.

Voices (Lies)

What is it you see, when you look into my eyes.
Is it the acceptance I need, or the love I crave?
Every day you tell me
That I am so very brave.

(lies)

How can I see that as true,
when I'm so very scared of losing you?

Am I insane?
Am I lost?

I'd stop the voices in my brain,
at almost any cost.

Will you never leave me?

(They always do)

Do you need me?

(They never do.)

Will you love me?

(They will hurt you.)

I won't listen to the voices in my head,
I'll fight them all until I am dead.

I will believe the words you say

(lies)

I will hold onto hope every day.

(there is no hope)

The truth is in your eyes.
The truth is in your voice.

(Lies)

I don't have to listen..

I do have a choice.
I choose to believe you.

One day when you tell me,
how beautiful, brave, wonderful I am,

I will be able to smile, and perhaps even see
What it is, you love about me.

~fin