idk if thats a good idea since for me since if i became my character well um this chair is flammable :(

also its usually a good idea to try to be a usefulperson in some way or another before conducting plastic surgery on your self-image, you know so the leading question in your mind will be something like "how will this affect my job, my relations with friends, my future well-being" rather than "how will this affect the way i use that box of tissues on my desk"

but then i really have no idea wtf is going on here assuming this is some kind of assertion-of-inner-animal thing going on

and honestly its pretty weird that you have this much time/energy to spend thinking about it :/

So... on the one hand, you think I've spent an unnatural amount of time thinking about it, and on the other, you think it wouldn't have occurred to me yet to ponder how it could affect my life? And either way, I'm probably a useless person?

To understand what's going on here does require a certain amount of context about me and my work, and I could point you to that context and explain it so you get it, but I think what will suffice here is a hearty "It's not for you." Suffice it to say that the inner-animal symbolism is ancillary here.

Good luck resolving matters: I send well-wishing.


Also, dragon!muse is more-than-moderately adorable.

Definitely adorable. Then again, I'll admit that there's something heartwrmingly familiar and even a little attractive about this sort of bewilderment.

As for the way that touches the real world... well, I've always had this bizarre duality to my most personal characters, very much myself and yet with fantastic and subtle-but-surreal reality-warping abilities. My characters have changed as I have – or more perperly in front of my own changes. That's terrifying, even when the changes are only internal....

The art here is the same good quality as I've come to expect from you. What I really like about this is the thought you've put into it. There's so much philosophy that could be explored, whether it should or shouldn't, and being able to raise such questions is something that makes you much more than others, even when you feel much less.

Now if only I could believe that my own views are self-applicable, I'd probably feel less of a mess right now.

I love this piece, confusion and frustration. not to mention the variety of ways that your Muse says "Define You".... is that a command, an answer, a suggestion? It's a very good picture that's open to many interpretations, Not to mention that your character looks good as a hoss. Not to mention the whole character switcharoo... desires and feelings

And I know sorta the same thing (after having known keet and a certain bunny for a long time). There's a variety of reasons I don't go through with it, mainly that I'm comfortable being how I am right now, though outside pressures such as girlfriend, current state of medicine, as well as conservative work atmospheres have deterred me from exploring further.

As for form... eh, I bounced into the TF aspect of furry, and my form is always quixotic at best, at least RPing through different forms. Yeah, I have that sort of 'base' form, but moods and desires sway me from one species to the next, and I've still yet to reside in any one point of the gender "ride my see-saw," outside of reality.

Having stepped back for another look, I realize that the root of my situation is a lot simpler than it seems. The one solid answer that rings from me when I search deep within myself is <i>I am a shapeshifter.</i> And all this frustration with where I'm sorted in reality comes almost entirely from being the same thing for so long. (Not to mention the unnecessary sameness I maintain in other contexts, just to be polite I guess! Or to be recognized. I ought to trust that it's not such a bother for people who care to just keep track.) This dissolves the dilemma, because to be true to myself is to make no final choice. It closes certain paths to me, yes, and that is a shame, but maybe not as many as it would seem, and there is potential in illusion that I haven't even begun to explore.

Now we are so happy! We do the dance of Joy! (/balky)

Yeah, such is our lot, always flitting from form to form, not necessarily of our own will. it just changes based on how we feel like at that particular time. If that happens to be female... well.... there you go. If you're anything like me in this respect, you tend to want to stay that way for awhile to get the feel for how that state of mind is with that particular form, which is the fun part. And who knows, maybe someone will just happen to take the clay matter and smack it around into something terribly nifty.

And I agree with that sorta path in more IRL settings, I never know if i'll regret it (one way or another), seeing as things change. These things happen to me at odd times, and, although I know I'll feel this way again in the future, it could be a month from now, or a year and a half. In the meantime, there's always RP online where I can let my imagination just run wild, without boundry (one of the reasons why I can't really do 'graphical' chat programs, such as Second Life or furcadia).

Though, when it comes to IRL, I have found costuming as a fun hobby/outlet for such things. If you don't believe me, then just take a look at Kamber's costumes.

At least you happen to have a name that's indeterminate. I happen to have one of those names that's just an amalgamation of a variety of species... and heck if that's what I happen to be at any given time *thud*

I've never really kept a separate "character" myself. I've been gender and species dysphoric for as long as I can remember though. ^_^;;

If I became my 'fursona' or whatever you wish to call it, I would be both very happy and very unable to ever progress in education to get a job, or to get a job for that matter... I'd have to run away... but at least I'd be happy with what I was...

I think it's hawt. ^v^

Here's hoping you get lost in character for good long while!

Congratulations on a lovely alchemical wedding; I'm so glad I was invited.

Yeah. So when I got to the point where this change seemed like a good idea, I saw two possible futures stretching out ahead of me.

In one, I stayed a boy, and lived a depressing, grey, lonely life. And I saw… not so much suicide, as… a growing lack of caution that would come from just not caring any more. Maybe a long life anyway, but a hollow empty one.

In the other, I changed. And things were much more open. Maybe I'd get killed by some dude afraid for his manhood because he found me hot. Maybe nothing would really change and I'd still be gloomy and alone. Maybe I'd stay alone but actually like myself. And maybe, just maybe, I'd actually find someone to love who'd love me.

I made my choice. And that was just the start. I had to do a lot of psychic self-surgery over the six years (I think, I'd have to check) between then and now. It was often not easy. But it was worth it, and ultimately, I got lucky, and found someone worth all the effort.

So. Look in the crystal ball and turn your mind to the future. What do you see if you don't change? What do you see if you do? What's the worst in each, what's the best in each?

Flip a coin to decide. Do you want to turn it over?

i once imagined myself as a tiny cute faerie in a pink dress, being shrunk impossibly smaller and smaller by my captor and caretaker. one day not very long ago, that pink dress and a pair of kitty ears came into my possession, when i became the pet of a chaosmage who also has a transformation fetish. unfortunately, they had to distance theirself from me, but the cis-male illusion i've lived with for most of my life is dissolving as my identity as a gender fluid shapeshifter becomes more apparent. the things you draw, they don't just push buttons, they mash them like a toddler playing Street Fighter. in the immortal words of Jimmy Stewart, "itsh, uhh.. the shtuff that dreamsh ish made of"

Re-identifying yourself is such a difficult thing to do... And I admire you greatly for it B) <3