So I sorta doodled this a week or so ago and posted this to my twitter recently with a fairly vague description. to put it simply I've been having some deep introspection about myself over the past couple years or so and have been too afrade to actually be open about it to anyone. after about a week of what I saw on twitter and some talks with some close friends I think I should just be open about it from now on. I can't say when actions in the "real world" might reflect this but I feel more determined then ever now that I should get it actually started. I don't know where this will actually take me and I don't know how it'll go down with my family whom I haven't told any of this to for specific reasons, but yeah. I just feel I need to address this even if I have no clue where to actually start considering my broke ass. I just hate pretending I'm ok when I haven't been for almost my whole life and I want to be open about it for a change.

Sorry for the swamp of feels but I just feel I need to let it out instead of hiding behind my fear of the outside world an what they will do with me...