Ah, i know similar problem with money subject. Almost too well, that i kind of have gotten myself into the rebellion warriors soul be within about paying for something, i have no idea where the money really goes, meaning that i am not really taking exactly care of myself, but rather trust what am told of about things. Such problem is on many others too, bluntly put.
Still, i haven't yet payed my own rent, for the money income system of Finland, where i live, is kind of distorted, making even more less sense, and the politics keeps making it harder here, but still, would love to send in your way as much money, as i can offer, but as well as in possible ways, pay it whole.
Soon, though, am moving away, into cheaper apartment, and my incomes should show up soon. This means, by all means, as probability to be able to pay you, is near march. Hopefully, no longer is needed to be waited.