There have been so many factors on my slow upload count this past year. It's not that I haven't been uploading here, I just HAVEN'T been drawing. And this has absolutely killed me, as art to me is everything. But there are so many factors holding me back and they make me just want to stop drawing altogether.

Lack of confidence is probably my biggest. I constantly fear of using the same angles, same colors, characters, concepts etc etc and I feel like I am unable to escape the confines of what my brain consistently puts to the screen through my pen.

I joined this site because of a good friend I had at the time who really inspired me to draw and get my furry characters out there. I've lost contact with him over the years and my motivation kind of dwindled with losing him.

And lastly is my own mental health. I have no car, a job where I work from home in a small studio apartment. I constantly feel trapped, depressed, anxious and yet get frustrated by my own lack of effort to escape routine. This is probably why I fear routine in my artwork, I don't want it to reflect what's going on in my own head and life.

Sorry I just had to vent. I don't feel much better, but drawing this raw frustration did help a little.

Thanks for reading if you scrolled all the way through this. I do appreciate it.