Change.

Making a big change in your life is like looking down over the edge of a cliff. A nice, safe cliff that hasn't even had the slightest sign of crumbling in years. It's a nice place, this cliff. The wind isn't bad, so you don't have to worry about getting blown off but once in a while. The ground is sturdy enough, and it's easy to be content here, and linger for a while.

But eventually, you look around and realize that, while it's safe, and comfortable, it's ever so cramped, and you only have two options to amend the situation; go back where you came, which had plenty of places that were nowhere near as sturdy as where you are now, and no certainty that anything behind you hasn't burned or crumbled.

Ahead of you, your other option? A blank void.

A pit. A hole. What's at the bottom? Milk and Honey? Lots of malicious ferrets with sword-shaped toothpicks ready to poke your everything out?

Something better? Something worse?

You know going back isn't really an option, but you dread the jump ahead. So you linger. Linger and wait until the sheer and utter stagnation of where you are is just too much to bear, so you decide to jump.

But still, you hesitate at that last moment..


In other news, I've applied for the Practical Nursing program at a local technical institute. I just today got everything required on my application completed (Deadline is the 1st of November.. just before my birthday!).

There are only 50 seats in the program, and they typically receive around 200 applicants per semester. I'm hopeful for acceptance on several points;

#1; 2 glowing recommendations from successful nurses already in the field
#2; At least one personal reference that graduated from the same program last year with top scores
#3; For those of you that may know what these mean, my scores on the COMPASS and NET Tests. (Compass being apparently like an entrance exam, NET being Nursing Entrance Test). To my understanding, on these I did very well. Better than anyone else I've talked to that's applying (In fact, they got wide-eyed when I mentioned my score on the math portion of the Compass), and on the NET test, I scored a good 20 points over the North American Average on everything that mattered, and was 4 points shy of their top-rank.

I'm certainly not trying to brag, but I think I've got a good shot at getting accepted. If I do, it will be a huge upheaval in the status-quo I've been used to for the past five years. It's a fast-track program that should have be licensed and working within a year, if I'm understanding it correctly, which means I'm about to be a VERY busy pengi.. with loans enough to get me through said year without having to work.

I'm tired of spinning my wheels in the mud. It was fun for a while, but now, I think it's time to take that jump.