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I am not going to lie. Right now, I am terrified. I can’t tell if I am being brave, or stupid, but I am about to face the thing that I have been avoiding all these years. I am about to bring some perspective on my life that I’ve been hiding because it really, really hurts. But I need to show you the wound, if I am to heal it. I am aware some of you will try to stitch me up, and others will aggravate it. But this isn’t about me. This is about the whole thing. But I have to start with the basics: these are my reasons, not my excuses.
All I ever wanted to do was help and love people, but instead I have allowed myself to become corrupted by jealousy, anger, and malicious action throughout my life. I do believe this to be natural, we do all tend to get angry at injustices, but I have felt immense and terrible guilt to the point of not allowing myself to get angry at all. I want to elaborate on the choices I’ve made in my life and address the damage I may have done to others, be it stranger or friend, and the immense damage done to me as a result of my silence and mental and emotional suppression of these issues.
I have to bring these things out of the murk because I truly do believe that I am here for a reason. I’ve been through hell and back, but I am still standing and strong. Since the day I was conceived it’s been a real battle! I’m not trying to make anyone pity me, or feel bad for me. I want people to remember that you can survive the worst trials of life, that you shouldn’t let the world beat you down, and you should fight to the death for what you believe in.
I’ve been a shitty person on multiple occasions in varying degrees throughout my life. A lot of this is lashing out because I didn’t have mom around and my dad was quite the disciplinarian. I didn’t have a lot of love growing up, and it wasn’t anyone’s fault. My mom was a drug addict and my dad loved me enough not to give up on me, but he had his own issues. My dad is in his 60’s and he’s a war veteran, and has had an extremely hard life from day one. My father was very militaristic and as such I had an extremely strict lifestyle growing up. The parent who loved me and was supposed to protect me was also the parent I was scared of on a daily basis. I was lucky that my dad did explain & apologized why he punished me, but as I grew older and it didn’t stop I started to grow resentful towards my dad. I wasn’t allowed to fight back, rather I wasn’t stupid enough to fight a man more than twice my weight. I moved out at 17.
Since then, I’ve been a legal adult and felt a sense of maturity beyond my peers because I knew how to use any means necessary to escape a shitty situation. However, this lead me to believing my whole identity is being a strong person. I didn’t allow myself to feel angry, contemptuous, jealous. I only allowed myself to feel love for people after a few bouts of immature maliciousness that made me feel weak and barbaric. I completely plugged my emotional vents by the time I was 20, and some of you will be familiar with the coping tactic of self-harm to ‘punish oneself for being a bad person’. This is when I got seriously addicted to drugs because I felt absolutely inadequate and undeserving of all the blessings in my life.
I found Adderall when I was 19, in the winter of 2011/2012. I loved drawing a lot and I was starting to become a new upcoming artist in the furry community, and I was pretty high on the rush of all this new attention and support. Adderall helped me produce the work that people loved and kept me focused on doing that. I had no idea that the maliciousness I had renounced was about to strike in the form of bitter karma. I was just having a really good time making people happy with my artwork and finally getting the support I needed to finally flourish in life. I only used drugs as a tool to get my work done and enjoy my craft because sitting still is hard for an ADHD child. I had no intention of abusing something that granted me such tranquility of mind. Well, it was a good 3 months while it lasted…
Karma readied it’s rifle, took aim, and fired a poison iron bullet at my heart. It would take me two more years of Adderall-fueled frenzy to finally collapse (2012-2014), and another two years of what I can only describe as a trap house horror show (2014-2016) to finally begin to address the self-made curse that was killing me from the inside out. I hated myself, and I had to figure out how to fix that or I was going to die.
The first thing the evil/poison did to me was rob me of my trust for people. Suddenly, I didn’t feel like I deserved friends, so I shut out all of my close friends. Then I started to distract myself with work, and the drugs helped distract me from the pain in my heart. I would drink, smoke, sex, and party the night away when I wasn’t dead-eyed staring at canvas after canvas on 120mg of Adderall. I hated myself and lost my purpose in life. How could I help people if they hated me? I beat myself up to hell and back over this. I knew in my heart it wasn’t my fault, but when your favorite artists who once supported you begin to shun you over smear campaigns and lies, it seriously wounds your ego, especially when you’re still young and based your worth on who liked you. I realize now in my experience that these things do not matter, but at the time, between the addiction, naivety of youth and depression, it began to break my heart.
Then it just didn’t stop. My silence caused people to create their own speculations about me and I was terribly bullied and gossiped about, and being a popular artist didn’t help either, your whole life seems to become a drama that belongs to other people. As a kid I just wanted people to be strong enough to overcome the heaviness of life, it was my dream to help people in a mass way while also helping them on a personal level. Art was the medium I chose to address my dream to the world. When people started attacking my art, they struck at my soft underbelly and shot venom into my heart. It would be years before I would learn how to heal myself with this venom.
Eventually, I finally surrendered to the beatings dealt to me upon myself and the world, and chaos began to really take a firm grip on my life. I dated people I hated, I did drugs I never thought I would touch, and I was treated with such disrespect that I completely lost my self-worth. I was seeking validation from people who were as broken as I was, so I spent two years in a trap house. For those unfamiliar with the term, it means a place where drugs are pretty much given freely in order to entice you to buy more. I chose to date the drug dealer of the trap house. What happened during this time I do not wish to disclose — just know that this was two years of Hell. The Devil inside of me had finally pulled me down, and I was caught in the fires of its punishment.
This period of my life ended December 5th, 2016, when things finally reached a fevered pitch and I had to make a choice, so I called my father and he picked me up from this situation. I stayed with him for about a month, before he said hurtful things towards me. I also reached out to a best friend around this time, and they had no idea what to do with me. I just needed a friend to let me vent my frustrations of the tortures I had been through, and I scared them away. I scared friend after friend away. I was a wicked, hurt, snarling animal mistrusting the people I desperately needed to help me. I should have gone to rehab, perhaps then I would have had more love and support, but pride kept that idea completely out of my mind.
In the end, if things worked out, it was because there was a person who sent me enough to pay the first half of what I needed to get a small apartment, and when I thanked them, they sent me enough for me to afford it in whole. I couldn’t believe it. Someone out there believed in me, and as far as I know, they had no idea what I had been through. That unconditional trust, love, and belief in me caused me to come back to life, if just a little bit, but it was a first step. I was with my best friend at the time, and I was so shocked and excited, and I happily told them, and they just weren’t happy for me. They seemed jealous. My own best friend. That hurt a lot — they were there for me at face value, but held my spirit at arm’s length — much like how I am treated online. Perhaps they thought I was just another drug addict, that I could make my own money, or that they deserved it more than I did, I’ll never know. All I know is they didn’t believe in me as much as a stranger on the internet did. I would face many more heartbreaks like this over the course of my healing and realization, but this first one left me confused. Obviously, I was too happy and always will be too happy that person did such an altruistic thing at such a significant moment in my life. That kinda of stuff makes me believe that there’s something greater than all of us looking out for us. Sometimes it speaks in whispers, and other times it roars, as in this moment. I will NEVER forget this. I still have the studio apartment I got from this person’s kindness. LOL I’m crying right now!! dgjdgslhkdfh it’s just. Unreal.
The same people who bullied me into believing I was such a bad person that I destroyed myself for years over their lies are the SAME people who brought me to this place of chronic contentment — the people who aggravated my mental illnesses are also the people who alleviate it. I have thought long about why the handful of abusive instances hurt more than the OCEANS of praise, love and support people have given me over the years, and it because of this:
It is easier to remember a stabbing than it is to remember a hug.
The stab (abuse) can become infected if not treated properly with the correct love and attention, and you can be reminded of if through the pain, and eventually through the psychological scar it leaves on your being. If you touch it often (that is, talk in excess about your pain) or open it up to look at it or show it to people, that will never allow it to heal. You should only open up your wound to people you trust to heal you if you feel it isn’t healing properly. Abuse is real and the damage it can inflict on our psyches is lethal. Ignoring the wound of psychological abuse and expecting it to heal without infection is also not wise. To heal, one must show the wound to the right people, and for the right reasons. Ignorance is the route I took with my stabbings. Like a wounded animal, I shut out all of my friends and found a dark hole in which to curl up and die; little did I know that the universe had other plans for me. My Heart is what has me completely disemboweled in front of you all here, because I believe in the Good of my Heart and I trust it to bring me to all the beautiful and wild places that modern man has forgotten.
I am today — December 5th, 2018 — two years clean of hard drugs. I only smoke marijuana now, and stopped drinking September 1st, 2018. I quit smoking cigarettes sometime before that. I am taking Zoloft for my depression/anxiety and Strattera for my ADD/ADHD. I have established a routine in my daily life that is helping me stay grounded, I’ve started working out, and just generally being a good person to me. I can’t help others if I can’t help myself, right? This next year will be all about healing.
I want you to know that I am truly sorry for the way I have acted towards people who only wanted to help me, that I have been a lowly person towards those who have only wanted to show me praise and love, to those who have welcomed me into their home only to discover what a monster I can truly be. I did not know how to handle all this attention with any sort of grace, because I have always been the underdog in real life — I chased the acceptance and validation of my peers in my youth. Now that I am older, and hopefully a little wiser, my value is no longer tethered to the praise of others:
Beauty does not need attention. Beauty just is. If a flower gets attention, that is no fault of the flower.
With all the love and light in my little heart,
Summer
All I ever wanted to do was help and love people, but instead I have allowed myself to become corrupted by jealousy, anger, and malicious action throughout my life. I do believe this to be natural, we do all tend to get angry at injustices, but I have felt immense and terrible guilt to the point of not allowing myself to get angry at all. I want to elaborate on the choices I’ve made in my life and address the damage I may have done to others, be it stranger or friend, and the immense damage done to me as a result of my silence and mental and emotional suppression of these issues.
I have to bring these things out of the murk because I truly do believe that I am here for a reason. I’ve been through hell and back, but I am still standing and strong. Since the day I was conceived it’s been a real battle! I’m not trying to make anyone pity me, or feel bad for me. I want people to remember that you can survive the worst trials of life, that you shouldn’t let the world beat you down, and you should fight to the death for what you believe in.
I’ve been a shitty person on multiple occasions in varying degrees throughout my life. A lot of this is lashing out because I didn’t have mom around and my dad was quite the disciplinarian. I didn’t have a lot of love growing up, and it wasn’t anyone’s fault. My mom was a drug addict and my dad loved me enough not to give up on me, but he had his own issues. My dad is in his 60’s and he’s a war veteran, and has had an extremely hard life from day one. My father was very militaristic and as such I had an extremely strict lifestyle growing up. The parent who loved me and was supposed to protect me was also the parent I was scared of on a daily basis. I was lucky that my dad did explain & apologized why he punished me, but as I grew older and it didn’t stop I started to grow resentful towards my dad. I wasn’t allowed to fight back, rather I wasn’t stupid enough to fight a man more than twice my weight. I moved out at 17.
Since then, I’ve been a legal adult and felt a sense of maturity beyond my peers because I knew how to use any means necessary to escape a shitty situation. However, this lead me to believing my whole identity is being a strong person. I didn’t allow myself to feel angry, contemptuous, jealous. I only allowed myself to feel love for people after a few bouts of immature maliciousness that made me feel weak and barbaric. I completely plugged my emotional vents by the time I was 20, and some of you will be familiar with the coping tactic of self-harm to ‘punish oneself for being a bad person’. This is when I got seriously addicted to drugs because I felt absolutely inadequate and undeserving of all the blessings in my life.
I found Adderall when I was 19, in the winter of 2011/2012. I loved drawing a lot and I was starting to become a new upcoming artist in the furry community, and I was pretty high on the rush of all this new attention and support. Adderall helped me produce the work that people loved and kept me focused on doing that. I had no idea that the maliciousness I had renounced was about to strike in the form of bitter karma. I was just having a really good time making people happy with my artwork and finally getting the support I needed to finally flourish in life. I only used drugs as a tool to get my work done and enjoy my craft because sitting still is hard for an ADHD child. I had no intention of abusing something that granted me such tranquility of mind. Well, it was a good 3 months while it lasted…
Karma readied it’s rifle, took aim, and fired a poison iron bullet at my heart. It would take me two more years of Adderall-fueled frenzy to finally collapse (2012-2014), and another two years of what I can only describe as a trap house horror show (2014-2016) to finally begin to address the self-made curse that was killing me from the inside out. I hated myself, and I had to figure out how to fix that or I was going to die.
The first thing the evil/poison did to me was rob me of my trust for people. Suddenly, I didn’t feel like I deserved friends, so I shut out all of my close friends. Then I started to distract myself with work, and the drugs helped distract me from the pain in my heart. I would drink, smoke, sex, and party the night away when I wasn’t dead-eyed staring at canvas after canvas on 120mg of Adderall. I hated myself and lost my purpose in life. How could I help people if they hated me? I beat myself up to hell and back over this. I knew in my heart it wasn’t my fault, but when your favorite artists who once supported you begin to shun you over smear campaigns and lies, it seriously wounds your ego, especially when you’re still young and based your worth on who liked you. I realize now in my experience that these things do not matter, but at the time, between the addiction, naivety of youth and depression, it began to break my heart.
Then it just didn’t stop. My silence caused people to create their own speculations about me and I was terribly bullied and gossiped about, and being a popular artist didn’t help either, your whole life seems to become a drama that belongs to other people. As a kid I just wanted people to be strong enough to overcome the heaviness of life, it was my dream to help people in a mass way while also helping them on a personal level. Art was the medium I chose to address my dream to the world. When people started attacking my art, they struck at my soft underbelly and shot venom into my heart. It would be years before I would learn how to heal myself with this venom.
Eventually, I finally surrendered to the beatings dealt to me upon myself and the world, and chaos began to really take a firm grip on my life. I dated people I hated, I did drugs I never thought I would touch, and I was treated with such disrespect that I completely lost my self-worth. I was seeking validation from people who were as broken as I was, so I spent two years in a trap house. For those unfamiliar with the term, it means a place where drugs are pretty much given freely in order to entice you to buy more. I chose to date the drug dealer of the trap house. What happened during this time I do not wish to disclose — just know that this was two years of Hell. The Devil inside of me had finally pulled me down, and I was caught in the fires of its punishment.
This period of my life ended December 5th, 2016, when things finally reached a fevered pitch and I had to make a choice, so I called my father and he picked me up from this situation. I stayed with him for about a month, before he said hurtful things towards me. I also reached out to a best friend around this time, and they had no idea what to do with me. I just needed a friend to let me vent my frustrations of the tortures I had been through, and I scared them away. I scared friend after friend away. I was a wicked, hurt, snarling animal mistrusting the people I desperately needed to help me. I should have gone to rehab, perhaps then I would have had more love and support, but pride kept that idea completely out of my mind.
In the end, if things worked out, it was because there was a person who sent me enough to pay the first half of what I needed to get a small apartment, and when I thanked them, they sent me enough for me to afford it in whole. I couldn’t believe it. Someone out there believed in me, and as far as I know, they had no idea what I had been through. That unconditional trust, love, and belief in me caused me to come back to life, if just a little bit, but it was a first step. I was with my best friend at the time, and I was so shocked and excited, and I happily told them, and they just weren’t happy for me. They seemed jealous. My own best friend. That hurt a lot — they were there for me at face value, but held my spirit at arm’s length — much like how I am treated online. Perhaps they thought I was just another drug addict, that I could make my own money, or that they deserved it more than I did, I’ll never know. All I know is they didn’t believe in me as much as a stranger on the internet did. I would face many more heartbreaks like this over the course of my healing and realization, but this first one left me confused. Obviously, I was too happy and always will be too happy that person did such an altruistic thing at such a significant moment in my life. That kinda of stuff makes me believe that there’s something greater than all of us looking out for us. Sometimes it speaks in whispers, and other times it roars, as in this moment. I will NEVER forget this. I still have the studio apartment I got from this person’s kindness. LOL I’m crying right now!! dgjdgslhkdfh it’s just. Unreal.
The same people who bullied me into believing I was such a bad person that I destroyed myself for years over their lies are the SAME people who brought me to this place of chronic contentment — the people who aggravated my mental illnesses are also the people who alleviate it. I have thought long about why the handful of abusive instances hurt more than the OCEANS of praise, love and support people have given me over the years, and it because of this:
It is easier to remember a stabbing than it is to remember a hug.
The stab (abuse) can become infected if not treated properly with the correct love and attention, and you can be reminded of if through the pain, and eventually through the psychological scar it leaves on your being. If you touch it often (that is, talk in excess about your pain) or open it up to look at it or show it to people, that will never allow it to heal. You should only open up your wound to people you trust to heal you if you feel it isn’t healing properly. Abuse is real and the damage it can inflict on our psyches is lethal. Ignoring the wound of psychological abuse and expecting it to heal without infection is also not wise. To heal, one must show the wound to the right people, and for the right reasons. Ignorance is the route I took with my stabbings. Like a wounded animal, I shut out all of my friends and found a dark hole in which to curl up and die; little did I know that the universe had other plans for me. My Heart is what has me completely disemboweled in front of you all here, because I believe in the Good of my Heart and I trust it to bring me to all the beautiful and wild places that modern man has forgotten.
I am today — December 5th, 2018 — two years clean of hard drugs. I only smoke marijuana now, and stopped drinking September 1st, 2018. I quit smoking cigarettes sometime before that. I am taking Zoloft for my depression/anxiety and Strattera for my ADD/ADHD. I have established a routine in my daily life that is helping me stay grounded, I’ve started working out, and just generally being a good person to me. I can’t help others if I can’t help myself, right? This next year will be all about healing.
I want you to know that I am truly sorry for the way I have acted towards people who only wanted to help me, that I have been a lowly person towards those who have only wanted to show me praise and love, to those who have welcomed me into their home only to discover what a monster I can truly be. I did not know how to handle all this attention with any sort of grace, because I have always been the underdog in real life — I chased the acceptance and validation of my peers in my youth. Now that I am older, and hopefully a little wiser, my value is no longer tethered to the praise of others:
Beauty does not need attention. Beauty just is. If a flower gets attention, that is no fault of the flower.
With all the love and light in my little heart,
Summer
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I have always believed in you. Even in the very beginning, when you assumed wrong about the internet and pushed me away... I've forgiven that long ago, and I've believed in you ever since. If there's one thing I'll never forget, it's this.
Wow, I can't say that I've known you for years or even known you at all, but after reading this I feel the need to tell you that you have done something amazing by overcoming your past struggles.
I think we, as humans, often lose ourselves in our own problems and self-pity (I know I do) and we may forget the bigger picture: that everybody around us struggles as well. We're not alone. By looking at others, helping them when possible, we can see that everything can be overcome with time. You just opened my eyes to that again. Thank you :)
I think we, as humans, often lose ourselves in our own problems and self-pity (I know I do) and we may forget the bigger picture: that everybody around us struggles as well. We're not alone. By looking at others, helping them when possible, we can see that everything can be overcome with time. You just opened my eyes to that again. Thank you :)
This is so inspiring! <3 You've been through so much and only come out a better person; no matter how much bad you think you've done, it's never as bad as it seems. You've brought good things to a lot of people's lives; let the stranger's act of kindness constantly remind you of that!! You're doing amazingg <3
well you're not helping the situation acting like a douche after 2 years of her being away. Do you know how much progress can be made in that time. and maybe if you actually read it hole, she isnt blaming any one but herself and the lack of support she had from so called friends and as someone that went through the same shit, i know the struggle i abused marijuana for a good year, hoping it would keep me happy but in the end i stared at a knife for 10 minutes wondering how i should go out.
and you wanna talk popufur's that are bad just look in a fucking mirror you and your lover. you're both money hungry, douche bags that need to constantly be in the spot light.
and you wanna talk popufur's that are bad just look in a fucking mirror you and your lover. you're both money hungry, douche bags that need to constantly be in the spot light.
The battle is real. Your circumstances and emotions to follow are all valid. You have come so far and will continue to tread this thing we call "life."
I'm so proud of you! I imagine more than just I are proud of you!
It takes a helping hand to clear the way. I was in an abusive relationship for years and one year ago I was planning my escape. My amazing boyfriend now is the one that granted refuge, love, and care. He lived on the East coast - while I resided in Wisconsin. He helped me get lawyers, Uhauls, afford food, provide comforting words, and find refuge in a domestic violence shelter. I remained in the shelter for several months until he graduated as a mechanical engineer - and then he landed a job here, with me... and now we're here together and rebuilding where we left off.
In the process of me getting out and then staying in the shelter, there had been a number of people that helped in one way or another. Those people are precious beings to this earth and I will always be grateful.
I imagine the same gratitude is found within you for the ones who helped pick you up and believed that you would mend the wounds.
I can say again with certainty, I am proud of you and so are others. To overcome such hardship that consumed you and now be stepping back into a place of stability. It's a worthwhile thought and it feels wholesome.
It was interesting that you posted this today. While I haven't had any personal interactions with you, for about the last week or two you and your artwork had been strong on my mind. I wish I knew what it was; maybe a sense of intuition that something profound was happening, but I didn't know until just now.
I'm so happy for you!
~ Together we fortify ~
I'm so proud of you! I imagine more than just I are proud of you!
It takes a helping hand to clear the way. I was in an abusive relationship for years and one year ago I was planning my escape. My amazing boyfriend now is the one that granted refuge, love, and care. He lived on the East coast - while I resided in Wisconsin. He helped me get lawyers, Uhauls, afford food, provide comforting words, and find refuge in a domestic violence shelter. I remained in the shelter for several months until he graduated as a mechanical engineer - and then he landed a job here, with me... and now we're here together and rebuilding where we left off.
In the process of me getting out and then staying in the shelter, there had been a number of people that helped in one way or another. Those people are precious beings to this earth and I will always be grateful.
I imagine the same gratitude is found within you for the ones who helped pick you up and believed that you would mend the wounds.
I can say again with certainty, I am proud of you and so are others. To overcome such hardship that consumed you and now be stepping back into a place of stability. It's a worthwhile thought and it feels wholesome.
It was interesting that you posted this today. While I haven't had any personal interactions with you, for about the last week or two you and your artwork had been strong on my mind. I wish I knew what it was; maybe a sense of intuition that something profound was happening, but I didn't know until just now.
I'm so happy for you!
~ Together we fortify ~
fkjdgkjadhjkasf thank you. just. thank you. aaaaaa. I'm sorry that you went through that abusive relationship but I'm glad to see you are happy now and in a better place than where you were. That shit changes you if you truly learn from it, you don't take smack from no one!!! When you look the Devil in the eye and you say No and crawl out of hell and back to happiness there is a new fire that burns in our hearts; the fire of heaven. dshksahfkjhadgs sorry got poetic hahaha!
I am so grateful, I'm glad you recognze that, I appreciate your words so much, thank you so much for saying them. <3 please lead on the kingdom of your soul with your iron heart!
I am so grateful, I'm glad you recognze that, I appreciate your words so much, thank you so much for saying them. <3 please lead on the kingdom of your soul with your iron heart!
You're so welcome ^_^
As for me, there's no need to be sorry. It does change us, but when we can learn from heartache and distress, it strengthens us and our future. You're correct in that we won't take shit from anyone forthcoming. I'm thankful I had gone through that stuff. I remember thinking after my first shower in the shelter, "It sucks it worked out like this, but things can only get better from here." Sorta how people will say that when you're at rock bottom the only way is up? It's no joke. It can be a cheesy and overused phrase, but the legitimacy behind it provides merit.
Stay strong, keep up the good fight, and fortify.
If you're ever up for chatting via PM or email, facebook, etc. I'm game. It sounds like we have a fair bit to bounce back on. If not, I totally understand since you have a large amount of people that are also supportive for you and it may be quite overwhelming.
It was just so strange that, like I mentioned previously, that I had been thinking about you (Falvie) the last couple weeks specifically after not hearing from you for quite a long while. I believe in spirit guides and guardian angels and I feel that that was who was indicating to me about you. Either way, I am relieved to hear that you are back and doing better in your personal life. The smaller inconveniences that come along with life will be easier to glide through after such hardship.
~ Together we fortify ~
As for me, there's no need to be sorry. It does change us, but when we can learn from heartache and distress, it strengthens us and our future. You're correct in that we won't take shit from anyone forthcoming. I'm thankful I had gone through that stuff. I remember thinking after my first shower in the shelter, "It sucks it worked out like this, but things can only get better from here." Sorta how people will say that when you're at rock bottom the only way is up? It's no joke. It can be a cheesy and overused phrase, but the legitimacy behind it provides merit.
Stay strong, keep up the good fight, and fortify.
If you're ever up for chatting via PM or email, facebook, etc. I'm game. It sounds like we have a fair bit to bounce back on. If not, I totally understand since you have a large amount of people that are also supportive for you and it may be quite overwhelming.
It was just so strange that, like I mentioned previously, that I had been thinking about you (Falvie) the last couple weeks specifically after not hearing from you for quite a long while. I believe in spirit guides and guardian angels and I feel that that was who was indicating to me about you. Either way, I am relieved to hear that you are back and doing better in your personal life. The smaller inconveniences that come along with life will be easier to glide through after such hardship.
~ Together we fortify ~
Ever since I watched your art a few years ago when I entered the fandom, it was some of the most crisp and natural work I've seen from an artist; almost right out of nature. But what has gripped me more so has been the vibe and motivating messages you have given out every now and then. It's almost Bob Ross-esque (yes, I'm fine putting that term in it :3) of how motivating and inspirational you tell folks to push forward and spread love to one another as human beings, showing the best qualities to furs that can treat others equally. Combined with your art that promotes a feeling of serenity and tranquility in ways, it's a very powerful message if you ask me. The road you have traveled may have indeed been brutal, but these events have ultimately lead you to not only be molded into the individual you are today, but also have spread lasting messages that hopefully inspired many to become a better individual themselves. I wish you all the best in your further endevours Summer in further shaping a better future for yourself; you've had quite the tale to look back on for a life you lived and deserve a bright future as well like any other individual in the world :D
SDAKGNDJHDJASFS OKAY this is a nice comment but i think u might laugh. I thought "crisp" was "crap" and i was like SO TAKEN ABACK LIKE. YOU LEAD ME ON GOOD THERE FOR A SEC PAL LMAO ok ok hahaha;;;
AAAAAAAA your words. are so uplifting. thank you. I'm going to have to print some of these comments out cause damn they give me life. everyone should have a collection of their favorite comments to read back on cause aaaaaa fdsdlshd THANK YOOOOU just a..jhjjh aaaaa trying not to explode but. is not working. very well. <33333333
AAAAAAAA your words. are so uplifting. thank you. I'm going to have to print some of these comments out cause damn they give me life. everyone should have a collection of their favorite comments to read back on cause aaaaaa fdsdlshd THANK YOOOOU just a..jhjjh aaaaa trying not to explode but. is not working. very well. <33333333
Hah you flatter me xD Just remember this:
“It matters not how slowly you go, but so long as you don’t stop. Believe in yourself to create your own destiny without fear of failure. You’ve trials to come that you will no doubt face, but I’m confident you can preserve so long as the drive burns in your soul. It’s as Kamina once said: ‘Believe in the me that believes in you’ :3” Your art gave me some inspiration in its peace and laughter moments, the least I can do is return the favor with these simple words
“It matters not how slowly you go, but so long as you don’t stop. Believe in yourself to create your own destiny without fear of failure. You’ve trials to come that you will no doubt face, but I’m confident you can preserve so long as the drive burns in your soul. It’s as Kamina once said: ‘Believe in the me that believes in you’ :3” Your art gave me some inspiration in its peace and laughter moments, the least I can do is return the favor with these simple words
-gives you a big hug- I’m so extremely sorry that you went through so much. You’re definitely someone I consider as a friend. I’m so extremely happy that a wonderful person helped you when you needed it the most. YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION to me and I’m very sure others as well.
I’m always rooting for you. Congrats on being clean of hard drugs for two years as well as quitting drinking and smoking.
You did such a spectacular job on this. I’ve definitely missed you and seeing your wonderful art on here.
Best wishes buddy.
I’m always rooting for you. Congrats on being clean of hard drugs for two years as well as quitting drinking and smoking.
You did such a spectacular job on this. I’ve definitely missed you and seeing your wonderful art on here.
Best wishes buddy.
this honest to god is something I fear happening lately. im really messed up myself. I always thought you would have a reason behind everything. seeing now that you're catching up and doing better is a really good thing. I have seen people say horrible things and people trying to drag down your art saying that it is good but you never complete and horrible things like that. I have always assumed you were trying to better your life. no one gets that busy and off their art without either a good reason or otherwise. you have always said you felt bad for not completing art and I knew it was true. honestly, im glad you're coming out. you're being open I hope people understand and take this in and truly learn that you're getting better and that you are getting there! keep it up! your amazing you truely are keep fighting this battle it may be an uphill battle but your winning<3
Thank you, so so so so so SOOOO much!!! AUGH i wish I could hug you right now! you're too kind for still believing in me.
i'll tell you a secret though, what these slanderers don't know is that i was unbanned once all my commissions were completed in 2015, and since have never gotten paid upfront for work, so whatever incompleteness they're talking about is WAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY in the past n they're going off aaancient defamatory search results X'D GET WITH THE TIMES, HATERS!!!!!! IT'S ALMOST 2019!!!!! geeze step up ur game, this is getting old. i'm getting second hand embarrassment from them.
thanks for hearin me out toots, keep being you!!!
i'll tell you a secret though, what these slanderers don't know is that i was unbanned once all my commissions were completed in 2015, and since have never gotten paid upfront for work, so whatever incompleteness they're talking about is WAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY in the past n they're going off aaancient defamatory search results X'D GET WITH THE TIMES, HATERS!!!!!! IT'S ALMOST 2019!!!!! geeze step up ur game, this is getting old. i'm getting second hand embarrassment from them.
thanks for hearin me out toots, keep being you!!!
You replied to my comment holy heck:0 did like the person I most look up to as an artist just do this heckin wow.
And those people can go shove it up there ass! I dident know any of that. I've seen so much rumored shit on Facebook and other places I tried to avoid it knowing it was well them trying to push drama. I am glad you are above them. Keep fighting and doing what you do best <3 your amazing and one of the people I truly wish I could get to know! These people are foolish and your so much better and those who truly want to know the real side of things will shine through. Those who don't will just seek drama and eventually be proven to be wrong and deceitfull and untrue. Keep doing you your doing great!
And those people can go shove it up there ass! I dident know any of that. I've seen so much rumored shit on Facebook and other places I tried to avoid it knowing it was well them trying to push drama. I am glad you are above them. Keep fighting and doing what you do best <3 your amazing and one of the people I truly wish I could get to know! These people are foolish and your so much better and those who truly want to know the real side of things will shine through. Those who don't will just seek drama and eventually be proven to be wrong and deceitfull and untrue. Keep doing you your doing great!
You've cried this wolf tale too many times. People don't forget, no matter how many layers you add to your bloated sob story.
Have some accountability for your actions for once, grow up and get control of your life. There is no excuse to complain when you do the same thing every single time. If you want your life to be less toxic, start with yourself. Clean your room.
Have some accountability for your actions for once, grow up and get control of your life. There is no excuse to complain when you do the same thing every single time. If you want your life to be less toxic, start with yourself. Clean your room.
take some of your own advice and stop being such a massive chode to people.
this is the kinda shit i see from you constantly you're kinda part of an ongoing problem, instead of being a condescending prick why dont you try being kind and helpful, if your capable of it! if not then shut up.
this is the kinda shit i see from you constantly you're kinda part of an ongoing problem, instead of being a condescending prick why dont you try being kind and helpful, if your capable of it! if not then shut up.
This is exactly why I am no longer friends with you; I survived a suicide attempt and am aiming to share my story to help others and you cannot help but act out in jealousy and spite; completely dismissing my annual celebration of personal victory as some imagined plight. How have you come to such a disgusting person? Are you even human any more or has your fame-induced pigheadedness finally stripped all integrity from you?
As for no longer being your "friend"; you and your partner removed me from twitter because of my "depressed drunken posts" instead of asking if I needed help or talking to me. You disrespected me as your friend in doing so because you proved that my illness is not something you want to deal with, which seems to be a recurring theme with you two. After all I have been through I have the self-respect to refuse to be friends with bad people -- there are too many toxic people like you in the world. I hope someday you mature enough to be happy for other people and share in their joy and learn to let go when others get sick of your attitude and inevitably leave you. I understand that you're hurt, but your actions proved to me how much I meant to you, and it was vastly disproportionate to the regards I held you in.
When you decide to become a good person again, and start to take an active effort in cleaning up the horrible reputation you and your partner have made for yourselves, then we can talk. I refuse to associate with racists and bigots anyways, so until then, maybe try to be a better person instead of digging yourself into a deeper hole?
I am going to block you from here on forth, when you're ready to change and become a cure instead of a disease, you know where you can reach me. Until then, try to learn what it truly means to be happy.
As for no longer being your "friend"; you and your partner removed me from twitter because of my "depressed drunken posts" instead of asking if I needed help or talking to me. You disrespected me as your friend in doing so because you proved that my illness is not something you want to deal with, which seems to be a recurring theme with you two. After all I have been through I have the self-respect to refuse to be friends with bad people -- there are too many toxic people like you in the world. I hope someday you mature enough to be happy for other people and share in their joy and learn to let go when others get sick of your attitude and inevitably leave you. I understand that you're hurt, but your actions proved to me how much I meant to you, and it was vastly disproportionate to the regards I held you in.
When you decide to become a good person again, and start to take an active effort in cleaning up the horrible reputation you and your partner have made for yourselves, then we can talk. I refuse to associate with racists and bigots anyways, so until then, maybe try to be a better person instead of digging yourself into a deeper hole?
I am going to block you from here on forth, when you're ready to change and become a cure instead of a disease, you know where you can reach me. Until then, try to learn what it truly means to be happy.
I'm sorry that this person was so nasty to you. I know it took a lot to tell us whats been going on; as for "repeating the same story" this is the first time i've heard any of this????? you generally just mention depression or something like that without going into much detail, and that was more than enough of a reason for me.
Unfortunately people like them seem to be in abundance. When i lost my sister and my stepdad, my 'friend' accused me of lying for attention too. I wish I would have handled it as elegantly as you just did and I'm so proud of you for overcoming what you've been through.
I've been inspired by you since i joined the fandom (2012) and I hope that your future is exciting and bright
Unfortunately people like them seem to be in abundance. When i lost my sister and my stepdad, my 'friend' accused me of lying for attention too. I wish I would have handled it as elegantly as you just did and I'm so proud of you for overcoming what you've been through.
I've been inspired by you since i joined the fandom (2012) and I hope that your future is exciting and bright
Jason might wanna start with his boo if he's gonna step up on the "do better, be better" soapbox.
Absolutely no room to be wagging a finger at anyone after the shit I've seen from them.
Please don't pay comments like his any mind. It's easy for people to leave you to rot and then preach to you about your spiral.
You don't need that, you don't need them. Surround yourself with understanding and positivity as you continue to heal.
Absolutely no room to be wagging a finger at anyone after the shit I've seen from them.
Please don't pay comments like his any mind. It's easy for people to leave you to rot and then preach to you about your spiral.
You don't need that, you don't need them. Surround yourself with understanding and positivity as you continue to heal.
This is why people don't like Jasonafex. It just seems like he and his partner are getting worse and worse as time goes on. Completely garbage, narcissistic human beings. He really needs to learn to clean his own room before demanding it from others.
It's great that you're doing so much better in your life now. Try not to let sleezebags bring you down.
It's great that you're doing so much better in your life now. Try not to let sleezebags bring you down.
I pity you. It's really pathetic how blinded you are by your own ego.
But one of the good things about humans is that we can grow and change. This is something you should seriously consider. Positive things will take you so much farther than negative.
But you are young. There is still a chance.
But one of the good things about humans is that we can grow and change. This is something you should seriously consider. Positive things will take you so much farther than negative.
But you are young. There is still a chance.
We are all humans with feelings. What you went through is a shocker and that you are definitely inspiring to me and many others. So I understand this.. Because throughout this journey, there are many things that is changing. So You’re not the only one. So I thank you for the smiles you bring with your art and I wish you great luck on your recovery.
some people have had it far worse and I just count my blessings that I came out of it okay! I hope I can help people overcome their struggle since life is full of suffering and all that buddha stuff lol <333
Please take care, and thank you so much for your kind words of inspiration! <3 your love is gonna show through my art, just you wait and see >:3
Please take care, and thank you so much for your kind words of inspiration! <3 your love is gonna show through my art, just you wait and see >:3
as some one that found you on DA back when you went by atomic-fish-bowl i believe? i was always blown away at your art, you inspired me to keep at it for a long time. im slightly better then i was back then, but any ways. i knew you went through a lot but never knew the extent, im glad you've finally started getting your life back in order, im still in the process of figuring out my life honestly.. .-. its gotten to the point where im just experimenting with what ever field of work interests me. also weed and soon ima try DMT >-> cross my fingers it goes well. anyways im glad to finally see some art from you again. and i hope you have an amazing return <3
sdjagjklda that is so long agao!!! YOU'RE A VETERNA HAHAHA! thank you for your kind words, and good luck in your adventures in finding yourself! just do what makes you happy, don't make it too complicated, and you'll get there. :) <3 I believe in you, thank you so much for sticking up for me too! It means a lot to me that people care enough to speak up :3!!!!
I'm so proud of you for overcoming such hardships! We'll always be here supporting you no matter what, and I hope things only get better for you from here on out. I know its hard to talk about everything, and your very brave for doing so. Keep fighting- and don't be afraid to let yourself feel and vent!
Congratulations on two years clean and several months sober!
Lots of love, i'm so proud of you!
Congratulations on two years clean and several months sober!
Lots of love, i'm so proud of you!
Yesss! exactly. Feelings are there for a reason, and whats an artist but an intensely emotional and beautiful critter.... we just can't be tainted by the evils in the world. they aren't our fault. even the prettiest flower gets stepped on! NO ONE IS SAFE we just have to do our best to be as beautiful as we can be in life while we can no matter what happens. <3 Thank you for reminding me that it's okay to feel I'm crying, god, aaaa!!!! AAAAAA FDKAJGKJDGA HAHAHA aaa tears ; ;
Well, shit... Thanks for making me cry... That's quite the story... I'm sure you've heard everything people can say on this topic by now... So just... Stay safe... And we're all happy to see you again... There are terrible people out there... It is hard finding the right ones sometimes... But it seems you're back on your feet so hopefully, we can all make sure you don't get knocked down again ^_^
Yesss, thank you so much! like i said, it's easier to obsess over the pain than it is to obsess over all the love and support people try to show you ; ; it's sad but it's just the nature of things!!! AND DON'T WORRY I'M CRYING TOO HAHAH i'm just. so happy that my imagination is not as bad as i thought it was :'3
You dont need any type of supplements to be able to see the good in things úwù. We just have to hope that were looking towards those good things and avoiding the bad at all costs.. lifes too short to do it any other way... if you ever nees to msg me or talj my Tele is on my profile. I can chat. Listen. Whatever you need. <3
Wow that's quite the journey. It has been tough, but you have conquered it, and now you can look at life in ways few others could see through. All the petty drama have become moot and you have found yourself, you at your own center of happiness.
You don't have to necessarily refuse or avoid praises, but now you're whole regardless. We're all happy to help however we can, and I'm sure most of the people here would love to offer support so don't let the negative and the shallow distract you. If there's a single community that's full of people willing to offers support, this is probably it. We've all done terrible stuff before, but to face it and overcome it is definitely the right way to go imo. (Yes I barely know you outside your art, but I'm definitely very happy for you and wish you the best in the bright future.)
You don't have to necessarily refuse or avoid praises, but now you're whole regardless. We're all happy to help however we can, and I'm sure most of the people here would love to offer support so don't let the negative and the shallow distract you. If there's a single community that's full of people willing to offers support, this is probably it. We've all done terrible stuff before, but to face it and overcome it is definitely the right way to go imo. (Yes I barely know you outside your art, but I'm definitely very happy for you and wish you the best in the bright future.)
And I wish a bright future to you as well, compassion seems to require bravery in this day and age and I'm glad that this community can feel safe enough to show compassion to the most hurt of people, even through all the terrible things we do when we lash out in pain. Godspeed and bless, thank you! <333
Hey! This is great! I'm glad you could make sense of yourself. Your final comments- about finding someone you can trust to speak to about your pain - are something I have also realised myself. If you'd like some acompaniment in your journey towards understanding yourself more, I'd like to recommend you try to find a psychologist that you can trust. That's been helping me a while. It's a slow heal, I'm sure you know, but it's very much worth it
Little note: Don't stick with one you don't trust, it really doesn't help that much. Just keep looking, and you'll find someone to aid you for the long haul.
Little note: Don't stick with one you don't trust, it really doesn't help that much. Just keep looking, and you'll find someone to aid you for the long haul.
Hello, thank you so much for your wonderful comment! ;;!!!
I am so so so happy you understand and have been seeking the correct help for yourself. I agree with your advice, and am looking for a specialized psychiatrist for my issues, but in the meantime, awareness, patience and time are just fine as healers <3
Bless ya and I wish the best for you!
I am so so so happy you understand and have been seeking the correct help for yourself. I agree with your advice, and am looking for a specialized psychiatrist for my issues, but in the meantime, awareness, patience and time are just fine as healers <3
Bless ya and I wish the best for you!
Damn Falvie, it's been a long, long time since I've seen you around here. I am a long, long time lurker and you're one of the reasons why I became such a big fan of antrhropomorphic art in the first place, and I want to thank you for that. I'm so glad you're ok now and sober. Had no idea it's been that rough for you, I'm so sorry to know you went through all that. On that note, It's really awesome to see that you can talk about this situation; this shows that you're healing and getting over all the terrible things that happened to you over the past few years. This is very good!
I know it's not much more than words on a screen from some random stranger, but just know that you have support from me, and I'm sure many others around here. If there's anything I can do to help, even something as small as a friend to talk to about things, feel free to send a note or something.
Stay strong, and hope to see you around! 😁
I know it's not much more than words on a screen from some random stranger, but just know that you have support from me, and I'm sure many others around here. If there's anything I can do to help, even something as small as a friend to talk to about things, feel free to send a note or something.
Stay strong, and hope to see you around! 😁
Aww, dude, thank you so much, all these heartfelt messages have me moved.... so moved. intensely. These aren't words from a stranger, they're words from a person with a heart and soul who has felt pain and happiness just like everyone else, we are all so special, and the fact that you came out of the shadows after loving my work for so long, are we really strangers? :)
I am so so so. GDDAMN. MOVED? THERE ARE NO WORDS. Thank you. I hope I can meet you at a convention someday.... you had me at stoic ;3
I am so so so. GDDAMN. MOVED? THERE ARE NO WORDS. Thank you. I hope I can meet you at a convention someday.... you had me at stoic ;3
You're very welcome Falvie! You really deserve all the love and praise that you are being given! Over the years, your art has helped move and cheer up -- (maybe a better way to put it is provide an escape) for many people; you being back honestly can be viewed in the same light as hearing a favorite song on the radio that hasn't been heard in years; one that has the ability to take you back to memories long gone past.
What you just said means a whole lot to me, thank you so much for the kind words. It's really nice seeing you around again. 🧡
I would love to meet you at a convention some day. It would make me very happy to get to chat with you. You're beyond awesome Falvie.
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What you just said means a whole lot to me, thank you so much for the kind words. It's really nice seeing you around again. 🧡
I would love to meet you at a convention some day. It would make me very happy to get to chat with you. You're beyond awesome Falvie.
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Too already said more than I would seeing as anytime I ever really seemed to be paying attention it was always drama and for once drama with reason (furries and drama....usually not justified).
You see all your problems, and you've fought through them. Still a battle to be fought, perhaps many.
Just do as your saying and prove to the people and the world that you are who you want to be/are who you are, and that the stuff that's happened that's hurt many a lot or others who well, tbh, have been ripped off or waited years for stuff from you which certainly didn't make them happy-is over and done with.
Everything will not be perfect. It's ok to misstep.
Show the world everything your capable of in the way that you've wanted too and be as ready to also take responsibility for the stain in the reputation that exists. And then you can thrive.
You see all your problems, and you've fought through them. Still a battle to be fought, perhaps many.
Just do as your saying and prove to the people and the world that you are who you want to be/are who you are, and that the stuff that's happened that's hurt many a lot or others who well, tbh, have been ripped off or waited years for stuff from you which certainly didn't make them happy-is over and done with.
Everything will not be perfect. It's ok to misstep.
Show the world everything your capable of in the way that you've wanted too and be as ready to also take responsibility for the stain in the reputation that exists. And then you can thrive.
*sits silently, talking in what I just read* Wow.... I never knew about any of this. We only interacted a little bit here (FA) when you were looking for a place to live.
Words only tell so much. I can't even begin to try to picture what it was like, beyond what you wrote here. Yet, you fought through it, grim as it was and, most importantly, you won that fight. That's all that matters. That and the healing that is happening as a result. I am proud of you none the less.
*nods and smiles*
Words only tell so much. I can't even begin to try to picture what it was like, beyond what you wrote here. Yet, you fought through it, grim as it was and, most importantly, you won that fight. That's all that matters. That and the healing that is happening as a result. I am proud of you none the less.
*nods and smiles*
Its good to hear that you are no longer on hard drugs, let's hope you manage to get away from them completely.
After this wall of text its clear that you needed to vent and its a good step to realize what you have done to your surroundings while being at a breakdown. Good luck with apologising to the people you hurt in this phase. Not all friends have to be lost, but try to imagine how they felt when you where lashing out or bothering then with your addiction, else it might be hard to know if there is a chance to get along again or if they have been real friends to begin with.
I think you should try to think about the things you are greatfull for / want to improve on a daily / weekly basis, instead of bottling your feelings up for such a long time.
After this wall of text its clear that you needed to vent and its a good step to realize what you have done to your surroundings while being at a breakdown. Good luck with apologising to the people you hurt in this phase. Not all friends have to be lost, but try to imagine how they felt when you where lashing out or bothering then with your addiction, else it might be hard to know if there is a chance to get along again or if they have been real friends to begin with.
I think you should try to think about the things you are greatfull for / want to improve on a daily / weekly basis, instead of bottling your feelings up for such a long time.
I've missed you, Falvie!! I'm about halfway through the same path. I made the decision to get clean this past weekend. You ARE strong, but don't forget that it's okay to be weak sometimes, too. You're more than welcome to message me if you need anything. I love you so much <3
(I still aim to one day pay you to finish that gift you gave me a while back <3 )
(I still aim to one day pay you to finish that gift you gave me a while back <3 )
I am so very glad to hear things are going so well with you now. I look forward to seeing where you go from here on and doing what is good for you.
I also must thank you. Though we have never talked before I find what you have shared here to be the very thing I needed to see. I have some things I need to turn around myself, things I need to do to make things move in a much better direction than they are heading. So I thank you for sharing this part of your life with all of us~
I also must thank you. Though we have never talked before I find what you have shared here to be the very thing I needed to see. I have some things I need to turn around myself, things I need to do to make things move in a much better direction than they are heading. So I thank you for sharing this part of your life with all of us~
If you want some more happiness in life, spread your happiness out far and wide, cast it over as many things as you're willing to invest in, but don't pour your self into them for they will eventually disappoint you.
Rather keep the investments light, If art is your medium of choice, there's metal working, wood working, pottery, baking/cooking and craft work instead of just drawing. (also they are very useful skills too) It's to help find a "release valve" after all that feeling welling up.
Rather keep the investments light, If art is your medium of choice, there's metal working, wood working, pottery, baking/cooking and craft work instead of just drawing. (also they are very useful skills too) It's to help find a "release valve" after all that feeling welling up.
I did feel a little hurt that you completely disappeared on me all of a sudden - I worried I had done something wrong and it was hard to take in. I tried reaching out and I wasn't getting a response. I appreciate what you've said here and I understand it could be just a part of trusting people and this paranoia that developed. I hope in time you begin to contact those who really cared/still care for you, not just because you're a popular artist like most people tend to be around for. You gotta remind folks, you gotta be sincere <3
I'm probably not the greatest person because there are many times I see long posts like this and immediately turn away because I'm sure the person is too big, too popular, and too busy for anything I see to even be noticed.
I don't know if it's because I was a big fan of your or because you were a big inspiration to my own art for a time but, I decided to stop everything I was doing to read about your life. To try to get an idea of what you have been through.
I can't relate on any of this. I've had my own bullies and I've been plenty alienated by my peers and my communities alike but my torture generally came from strangers, not my friends and family. I really feel for your situation and believe no one should feel the things you felt.
I am happy to have read that your situation has improved. It warms my heart that a stranger was willing to part with their own money to give you the chance at a better life.
You clearly have plenty more to read above me and I'd be happy if you made it far enough to see my message.
I just want to say, thank you. Not for spilling your heart to us. I have no right to thank you for something like that, as welcome as it was. That was a move best for your own growth and I do hope you feel better that you had the courage to share it,
No, I want to thank you for the years prior and, hopefully, the years to come. Your art brought much happiness to both me and my mate. We have both commissioned you at least once and don't regret it in the slightest. Being such a great artist and inspiration to me has forever left you a place in heart for the things I love.
I can't say much for you as a person because I don't know you. I only know of you. Given the chance, I'd love to talk to you. I'd love to experience the kind of person you are but I won't get my hopes up.
Anywho, geez, comment getting kind long.
Just know that I wish you the best. I wish you happiness and success in your life. You have my full support. Stay strong and I'll always be willing to listen if you ever need a page to drop a rant on.
Taxtic out!
I don't know if it's because I was a big fan of your or because you were a big inspiration to my own art for a time but, I decided to stop everything I was doing to read about your life. To try to get an idea of what you have been through.
I can't relate on any of this. I've had my own bullies and I've been plenty alienated by my peers and my communities alike but my torture generally came from strangers, not my friends and family. I really feel for your situation and believe no one should feel the things you felt.
I am happy to have read that your situation has improved. It warms my heart that a stranger was willing to part with their own money to give you the chance at a better life.
You clearly have plenty more to read above me and I'd be happy if you made it far enough to see my message.
I just want to say, thank you. Not for spilling your heart to us. I have no right to thank you for something like that, as welcome as it was. That was a move best for your own growth and I do hope you feel better that you had the courage to share it,
No, I want to thank you for the years prior and, hopefully, the years to come. Your art brought much happiness to both me and my mate. We have both commissioned you at least once and don't regret it in the slightest. Being such a great artist and inspiration to me has forever left you a place in heart for the things I love.
I can't say much for you as a person because I don't know you. I only know of you. Given the chance, I'd love to talk to you. I'd love to experience the kind of person you are but I won't get my hopes up.
Anywho, geez, comment getting kind long.
Just know that I wish you the best. I wish you happiness and success in your life. You have my full support. Stay strong and I'll always be willing to listen if you ever need a page to drop a rant on.
Taxtic out!
First I just want to say that I am really really happy that you're now clean and clear of hard drugs and that you're in a much better place to heal and grow from now on. That's really good and I so hope you can keep on going to become the person you want to be, and know you can be.
I heard a lot of drama about you over the years, a lot of bad stuff. That you'd grown nasty and cruel and someone to avoid. That really hit me, because all I could remember of you (I sort of fell out of touch with the fandom for some years) was your art and the fact that you gave me, a random fan, a gift for my birthday.
Like... I've never forgotten that you designed and drew me a Fionbri. I had told you that I was so excited to be able to snag and afford a commission from you from luck and because I'd gotten birthday money. You wished me a happy birthday and told me to consider it a gift. And that you, that Falvie, has always been the one I have known and remembered.
I hope you can be and feel like that Falvie again, or better. And I truly believe you can.
( Old old art on my old account that I drew because I was so touched and excited by your kindness https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6396077/ )
I heard a lot of drama about you over the years, a lot of bad stuff. That you'd grown nasty and cruel and someone to avoid. That really hit me, because all I could remember of you (I sort of fell out of touch with the fandom for some years) was your art and the fact that you gave me, a random fan, a gift for my birthday.
Like... I've never forgotten that you designed and drew me a Fionbri. I had told you that I was so excited to be able to snag and afford a commission from you from luck and because I'd gotten birthday money. You wished me a happy birthday and told me to consider it a gift. And that you, that Falvie, has always been the one I have known and remembered.
I hope you can be and feel like that Falvie again, or better. And I truly believe you can.
( Old old art on my old account that I drew because I was so touched and excited by your kindness https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6396077/ )
This absolutely broke my heart, I am so, so sorry you had to go through this. I can't imagine how terribly you must have suffered, addiction is a horrible thing. But, I am so incredibly happy for you now that you're on the road to recovery and that you've been clean for so long! I truly wish you luck in your journey and I hope that things only get better for you in the years to come. We love you so much. <3
You have my respect. Everyone can fall, for various reason, but it takes a lot to pull yourself up again - even with the help of others it's not easy.
And talking about all of this so publicly is a big step, as well.
I admit that I have no idea how you were, how you acted or anything. But I definitly wish you the best with everything. There will be some stepbacks, but this will not revert everything you achieved.
Your light might flciker, but it will keep growing, I'm sure of it. And it will become a shining beacon for others.
And talking about all of this so publicly is a big step, as well.
I admit that I have no idea how you were, how you acted or anything. But I definitly wish you the best with everything. There will be some stepbacks, but this will not revert everything you achieved.
Your light might flciker, but it will keep growing, I'm sure of it. And it will become a shining beacon for others.
OH wow girl.. This was honestly so deep and I can put myself into this situation so much.. I always wondered where you went and was always worried about you but I'm really really glad you're doing better and that you're on the right way on the path of your life now! All you can do now is grow, and you'll do that as well<3 Really sucks what you've been through but as the cliché says "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" And I do believe in that!
ALSO Love this piece of artwork as well and I hope to continue see your lovely and inspiring work once again <3
ALSO Love this piece of artwork as well and I hope to continue see your lovely and inspiring work once again <3
Thank you for sharing your story with us. ♥
This is such great news and I'm so happy you're recovering from everything, truly.
You've been a huge inspiration to me since 2008 and your work has continued to amaze me with each passing year.
I still remember my middle school self in 08' looking through your dA gallery, wishing I could draw as good as you!
(Fax and Grimmin will always have a special place in my heart ♥ It's so nostalgic for me seeing those two ;u;)
Thank you for being such a huge inspiration to me and to many others all these years.
I wish you all the best. ♥
This is such great news and I'm so happy you're recovering from everything, truly.
You've been a huge inspiration to me since 2008 and your work has continued to amaze me with each passing year.
I still remember my middle school self in 08' looking through your dA gallery, wishing I could draw as good as you!
(Fax and Grimmin will always have a special place in my heart ♥ It's so nostalgic for me seeing those two ;u;)
Thank you for being such a huge inspiration to me and to many others all these years.
I wish you all the best. ♥
I used to think that drugs would solve my problems with depression and hatred for the whole world. But my fear of them was paramount and I didn't try them. I really hope I won't try. I just tried to fight depression on my own. it is difficult.
I'm a kind person who likes to help others. but I myself am afraid of the streets and strangers. I'm not comfortable being there. All that suits me is to sit at home and try to make money at home.
I'm lucky that I have found a person with whom I can live and who can support me. I could not live with my family. I was uncomfortable. Constant demands and accusations constantly put pressure on me. I couldn't even hide in my room- it was useless.
I had attempted suicide, but I had already gotten rid of such thoughts since I really nearly died. The first of January of this year I had strong attacks and I was taken away in an ambulance. In March, I had an operation to remove the gallbladder. After that, I try to be better.
BTW I hope you are all right now, and you feel better.
I wish you good luck. the most important thing is to believe in yourself. And don't lose confidence in people. There are really good people in the world who can support you 🍉🍉🍉
I'm a kind person who likes to help others. but I myself am afraid of the streets and strangers. I'm not comfortable being there. All that suits me is to sit at home and try to make money at home.
I'm lucky that I have found a person with whom I can live and who can support me. I could not live with my family. I was uncomfortable. Constant demands and accusations constantly put pressure on me. I couldn't even hide in my room- it was useless.
I had attempted suicide, but I had already gotten rid of such thoughts since I really nearly died. The first of January of this year I had strong attacks and I was taken away in an ambulance. In March, I had an operation to remove the gallbladder. After that, I try to be better.
BTW I hope you are all right now, and you feel better.
I wish you good luck. the most important thing is to believe in yourself. And don't lose confidence in people. There are really good people in the world who can support you 🍉🍉🍉
I joined FA 8 years ago because of your beautiful art and spirit. I've never had a doubt in you, because you're strong and full of love. And now, I'm a part of furry community because of you, FALVIE YOU BEAUTIFUL YOU. You've never failed to show us the LOVE.
Your struggles weren't fair but you keep coming back for us, because you still believe in the love of this world and the world loves you, Falvie. You've never left this loving world, so I'm not gonna say welcome back - because this is WHERE you belong, dear Falvie. Forget about the past, shall we? Let us focus on the present and how you're loved and cared by so many people.
Wish you all the best!
Love,
Wohoo
Your struggles weren't fair but you keep coming back for us, because you still believe in the love of this world and the world loves you, Falvie. You've never left this loving world, so I'm not gonna say welcome back - because this is WHERE you belong, dear Falvie. Forget about the past, shall we? Let us focus on the present and how you're loved and cared by so many people.
Wish you all the best!
Love,
Wohoo
Glad to have you back and to see you setting yourself straight.
Like I said on Twitter, I've been around since you first started, I really enjoyed seeing your art, but I never knew what was going on in the background. It kinda comes as a shock knowing that while I was looking at your pretty art, you were going through such deep shit... it leaves me with a feeling I cannot describe...
Like I said on Twitter, I've been around since you first started, I really enjoyed seeing your art, but I never knew what was going on in the background. It kinda comes as a shock knowing that while I was looking at your pretty art, you were going through such deep shit... it leaves me with a feeling I cannot describe...
I won't say much, because everyone did that already, but I am sincerely happy for you and wish you all the best!
I am very thankfull, that you have shared your story with us. It can be truly inspirational and help many others too. I am glad, that you are standing on the ground now and I wish you to become who you want to be
I am very thankfull, that you have shared your story with us. It can be truly inspirational and help many others too. I am glad, that you are standing on the ground now and I wish you to become who you want to be
I'm so happy to see that you're doing so well. I've been a watcher of yours for about 8 years now, and your art is what inspired me to get into this wonderful fandom. <3 I wish only the absolute best for you and that you continue to flourish because you deserve it. (Also don't listen to those two jerks, they're just jealous of how amazingly you're doing and will forever be stuck as jealous and toxic assholes.)
Keep up the awesome work, Falvie! You're doing great. c: here's to another 2 years, and the years following after that!
Keep up the awesome work, Falvie! You're doing great. c: here's to another 2 years, and the years following after that!
I can't find the words to describe my absolute admiration and awe at this post- you are so strong, and I hope you are so proud of yourself for how far you've come.
I wanna throw this thought out here because I was thinking it the entire time I was reading the post- you would be a fantastic Peer Support Specialist. A PSS is someone with lived experience with mental health disorders and/or substance abuse that has since recovered and uses their recovery story and experiences to hep people who are in situations that the peer can relate to. It's a very rewarding job for both the peer and the recipients of the peer's services.
I dunno if you're looking for a job now or if you would like a job in the future, but I wanted to let you know about Peer Support because this may be a job where you could really shine.
Take care and stay strong you are amazing!
I wanna throw this thought out here because I was thinking it the entire time I was reading the post- you would be a fantastic Peer Support Specialist. A PSS is someone with lived experience with mental health disorders and/or substance abuse that has since recovered and uses their recovery story and experiences to hep people who are in situations that the peer can relate to. It's a very rewarding job for both the peer and the recipients of the peer's services.
I dunno if you're looking for a job now or if you would like a job in the future, but I wanted to let you know about Peer Support because this may be a job where you could really shine.
Take care and stay strong you are amazing!
Thank you for sharing your story, and inspiring tons of people to stay strong and make good choices.
We're all so immensely proud of you and how far you've come-- you're doing great. <33
Wishing you all the best, much love to you!!
--This piece is also so gorgeous. I'm getting the vibe that the third eye is meant to symbolize how you opened your mind and soul to a serious change to better yourself, at least that's how i interpreted it!! It's truly beautiful, either way~
We're all so immensely proud of you and how far you've come-- you're doing great. <33
Wishing you all the best, much love to you!!
--This piece is also so gorgeous. I'm getting the vibe that the third eye is meant to symbolize how you opened your mind and soul to a serious change to better yourself, at least that's how i interpreted it!! It's truly beautiful, either way~
Thank you for your words.
I feel trapped in a hole lately. to see that somebody feels something similar in some things, has gone through worse and yet has not given up gives me hope.
I think I took something for me from your words. Thank you and I wish you all the best. <3
I feel trapped in a hole lately. to see that somebody feels something similar in some things, has gone through worse and yet has not given up gives me hope.
I think I took something for me from your words. Thank you and I wish you all the best. <3
God, I don't even have the words. Your art has always been so beautiful and idyllic- so pure and happy, I would have never guess it would have been so rough for you on the other side. I know you're not doing this for sympathy- but I'm sorry things had gone so south for you, and I'm so immensely glad you were able to pull yourself out of that. If it were me, I'm not so sure I would have made it to the other side, if I'm honest.
However you choose to move forward here, you've obviously got our support. Wherever that path leads for you, I hope you have a nicer time getting there.
Best wishes from NM ^^
However you choose to move forward here, you've obviously got our support. Wherever that path leads for you, I hope you have a nicer time getting there.
Best wishes from NM ^^
I noted you, but I kinda assume you don't check those so thought I would repost it here as well in hopes of you seeing!
Hey, I've been a follower of your art for a long time now, your style is incredibly inspirational to me, I saw your most recent post and took the time to read it. Honestly, I relate a lot to your story and it's very touching to me. Like you, this past 3 years has been incredibly... eventful, for me. I came from an incredibly toxic household, mostly mental and emotional abuse but also some physical and sexual abuse as well, and I was honestly a broken human who saw no future for myself and was probably going to end up committing suicide, until, like you, the kindness of one person brought me back to life. This person, now my boyfriend of 3 years, saved me from the toxic household that wouldve eventually killed me. Now, like you, I'm focusing on healing my inner self and overcoming doubts and fears that have been embedded in my mind throughout my life so far. I really loved the art piece you posted with your story, the third eye was a beautiful touch, I could really feel the energy you put into it and resonate a lot with it. I don't know if you'll read this, but I'm so proud of you and so happy for you as well! I, like you, am well aware of this greater force that watches over us all. I always love hearing miracle stories like yours, and I wish you a smooth healing process! I know you're not comfortable publicly sharing places that you're active, but if possible, I would love to be given the chance to follow you there (assuming I have an account on given place) because your story and art and truly a huge motivation to me to keep bettering myself and healing more and more every day! You are truly an inspiration <3
Hey, I've been a follower of your art for a long time now, your style is incredibly inspirational to me, I saw your most recent post and took the time to read it. Honestly, I relate a lot to your story and it's very touching to me. Like you, this past 3 years has been incredibly... eventful, for me. I came from an incredibly toxic household, mostly mental and emotional abuse but also some physical and sexual abuse as well, and I was honestly a broken human who saw no future for myself and was probably going to end up committing suicide, until, like you, the kindness of one person brought me back to life. This person, now my boyfriend of 3 years, saved me from the toxic household that wouldve eventually killed me. Now, like you, I'm focusing on healing my inner self and overcoming doubts and fears that have been embedded in my mind throughout my life so far. I really loved the art piece you posted with your story, the third eye was a beautiful touch, I could really feel the energy you put into it and resonate a lot with it. I don't know if you'll read this, but I'm so proud of you and so happy for you as well! I, like you, am well aware of this greater force that watches over us all. I always love hearing miracle stories like yours, and I wish you a smooth healing process! I know you're not comfortable publicly sharing places that you're active, but if possible, I would love to be given the chance to follow you there (assuming I have an account on given place) because your story and art and truly a huge motivation to me to keep bettering myself and healing more and more every day! You are truly an inspiration <3
Oh my god I love seeing how happy you are in the comments.
As somebody who's been on the other end of giving somebody a bunch of money at a critical juncture, I can tell you that it's my favorite thing I've ever used money for. It's so cool to hear that somebody else did that for you! :3 That makes me very happy with humanity.
If you ever become super stable enough to do it without hurting yourself you should totally pass on the gesture to somebody else. Just purely to be a hero.
But awwww, right now I'm just super happy that you're doing so well.
As somebody who's been on the other end of giving somebody a bunch of money at a critical juncture, I can tell you that it's my favorite thing I've ever used money for. It's so cool to hear that somebody else did that for you! :3 That makes me very happy with humanity.
If you ever become super stable enough to do it without hurting yourself you should totally pass on the gesture to somebody else. Just purely to be a hero.
But awwww, right now I'm just super happy that you're doing so well.
Man, when I finished reading this the first thing that came into my head was "I should and check how my brother is doing again"
He's been through his own mini hell, not anywhere near as bad as yours... But I do fear he could go down that sort of route if he lost his current support structures. And he has certainly given them some wear and tear.
Haha. Now, if I think he's super cool for having made it through what he has and to have won such amazing life lessons, I think you're pretty dang cool too.
I mean, by that metric I'd have to call you cooler than my brother. ;3 But nah, he get's to win for no justified reason. Just because he's my brother. x3
He's been through his own mini hell, not anywhere near as bad as yours... But I do fear he could go down that sort of route if he lost his current support structures. And he has certainly given them some wear and tear.
Haha. Now, if I think he's super cool for having made it through what he has and to have won such amazing life lessons, I think you're pretty dang cool too.
I mean, by that metric I'd have to call you cooler than my brother. ;3 But nah, he get's to win for no justified reason. Just because he's my brother. x3
As a prideful person myself, I jus' wanna say it takes a lot of strength to admit to all of this. Not to mention to actually survive through it all. I hope this helps to heal those scars of yours a bit more and, though it's just from another stranger, if there's anyway I can help going forward lemme know.
I find it interesting, I started my original FA around the time you did yours. I admired and have been inspired by your skill for years. I feel like I've learned so much about you and your inner machinations, and goddamn I'm proud to see that you're working to improve yourself such as I am. I too hope I can make a positive impact on others in due time. I have faith that things will get better for you in the coming year. c:
I am so proud of you!! Congrats on two years, and I sincerely hope things for you keep going up. Unfortunately (or perhaps fortunately), going through hard times can really show you who your true friends are. Hopefully you can distance yourself from the negative people in your life so that you're surrounded by nothing but support. I wish you the best!!
Glad you've healed enough to share your inspiring story! And a huge congrats on two years of being clean of hard drugs. Keep walking your path to contentment and peace!
I've known your work for years, but it's very humbling to see such struggles for the person behind the awesome creations. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us!
I've known your work for years, but it's very humbling to see such struggles for the person behind the awesome creations. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us!
i came to the fandom around 2011 because of your art i was taken away from it in 2013 (i... was a really dumb kid) for five years or so and am only just now coming back here
the stuff i went through is nothing i cant imagine how hard this all was for you i dunno really what to say about it i am quite bad at this as i have always been im glad your getting better and i hope all goes well for you
the stuff i went through is nothing i cant imagine how hard this all was for you i dunno really what to say about it i am quite bad at this as i have always been im glad your getting better and i hope all goes well for you
I just want to apologize for being a bit "prickly" at you a couple-3 years ago.. You have always had the skill and talent. We are just two different people. I read your chronicle of events, and a lot of "odd events" now make a lot more sense. You still do amazing work, Especially the one above. Good luck with your recovery.
I've been holding off on responding for two days because there's so many things I want to say, and have been grappling with how to say all of it, but in truth it would just be overcomplication of something that can be expressed in way, way less.
I was worried about you. I'm glad you're okay, and I hope things keep getting better.
I was worried about you. I'm glad you're okay, and I hope things keep getting better.
"My silence caused people to create their own speculations about me and I was terribly bullied and gossiped about, and being a popular artist didn’t help either, your whole life seems to become a drama that belongs to other people. As a kid I just wanted people to be strong enough to overcome the heaviness of life, it was my dream to help people in a mass way while also helping them on a personal level. Art was the medium I chose to address my dream to the world. When people started attacking my art, they struck at my soft underbelly and shot venom into my heart. "
Wow, can't believe people did that. Why would anyone do that? There is absolutely no reason to do any of this. /O\
Must have been the most demanding people in existence. Want art Y from person X like their daily newspaper. -_-
Anyway, wish you a lot of power to fight all thes negative demons! Hit them with the largest brush you find if necessary, that's what they are also made for! Art always wins! x3
And looking around for a professional helping hand for you psyche is something definitely recommend! Know some people who got successful help through them. (An advice I should follow myself a bit... <_<)
Wow, can't believe people did that. Why would anyone do that? There is absolutely no reason to do any of this. /O\
Must have been the most demanding people in existence. Want art Y from person X like their daily newspaper. -_-
Anyway, wish you a lot of power to fight all thes negative demons! Hit them with the largest brush you find if necessary, that's what they are also made for! Art always wins! x3
And looking around for a professional helping hand for you psyche is something definitely recommend! Know some people who got successful help through them. (An advice I should follow myself a bit... <_<)
I am the type of person who doesn't respect people by how popular or good at something they are. Because in most cases a lot of people up on top are full of themselves. I respect people based on how they treat others and most importantly: taking responsibility for their own actions. Nobody is perfect after all. I've met some really scummy popular people and you've never struck me as one of them.
I know what it's like growing up in a volatile environment. It really isn't easy to deal with and I'm still suffering the effects of low self esteem to this day. Luckily I never abused substances but I did trust the wrong people and it hurts but it's best to just walk away from people who do nothing but weigh you down. It's better to have a few great friends than many shitty ones in my opinion.
Unfortunately due to my upbringing I got into a very abusive relationship which scarred me a great deal. Then not too long after that my dad committed suicide. Just as he was actually trying to be a better person. Just when I and my family needed him most. I felt terrible because three to four days before he died I would not let him see my last drawing because I was upset at him for some silly reason and ever since I've struggled to keep drawing. He was my biggest fan. Sometimes seeing your art inspires me to draw a little. I'm not sure why. But thank you anyway.
It's not easy managing life after any sort of tragedy but you have so much to live for. Always remember that.
I know what it's like growing up in a volatile environment. It really isn't easy to deal with and I'm still suffering the effects of low self esteem to this day. Luckily I never abused substances but I did trust the wrong people and it hurts but it's best to just walk away from people who do nothing but weigh you down. It's better to have a few great friends than many shitty ones in my opinion.
Unfortunately due to my upbringing I got into a very abusive relationship which scarred me a great deal. Then not too long after that my dad committed suicide. Just as he was actually trying to be a better person. Just when I and my family needed him most. I felt terrible because three to four days before he died I would not let him see my last drawing because I was upset at him for some silly reason and ever since I've struggled to keep drawing. He was my biggest fan. Sometimes seeing your art inspires me to draw a little. I'm not sure why. But thank you anyway.
It's not easy managing life after any sort of tragedy but you have so much to live for. Always remember that.
I'm really new to the fandom, but I know you've inspired a lot of people during your time from what I've heard. Glad you're back, and it's good to know a bit about you. Albeit not the best, but it's these actions that make you strong. Glad you were brave enough to share this, as I couldn't imagine wanting to say it more than once.
You have inspired a lot of people and you have inspired me to always be a positive person and be the best I can be, the few people like you have changed my life, never stop improving yourself and learn from your mistakes. No one is perfect but you can damn well try anyway!
If everyone made only the best/ideal decisions and their lives unfolded 'perfectly', then they'd all learn the exact same lessons and have nothing to offer or to help one another grow. Nobody would face the darkness, and the world would be an echo chamber of ignorance. Just never regret the past, as it's akin to regretting your present self. The only truly regretful thing would be not gleaning wisdom from it. Own your actions, and flourish; without pride, shame or ego.
Trust yourself, build a support network... and don't be a cunt.(edit:likethesefuckingtypos) XD That's the best any of us can do really!
Stay healthy~
>>"when things finally reached a fevered pitch"
rofl trust me to think of Pokemon Colosseum in the midst of reading a sombre delineation.
Trust yourself, build a support network... and don't be a cunt.(edit:likethesefuckingtypos) XD That's the best any of us can do really!
Stay healthy~
>>"when things finally reached a fevered pitch"
rofl trust me to think of Pokemon Colosseum in the midst of reading a sombre delineation.
You're the best, Falvie. I remember talking to you back in the up-and-coming days. You gave me such sweet feedback on some stuff I did, and it stayed with me through the years in every form of art I did. You left an impact on me, and as someone who struggled with an oxy addiction for a while, I understand the grip that it has on your life. I'm so proud of you for turning it around. It's hard getting clean, and even harder staying that way.
You're a wonderful, beautiful, talented soul who has been there for a lot of people, and you will have so many people in your corner when you're down. If you ever need someone to vent to, or just wanna say hello, I'll always be around -- I understand the struggles that comes with addiction and I know it's harder doing it alone. You're strong as heck and I see huge things for you in the future. Keep up the positivity and don't let anyone get you down. My husband and I are rooting for you!
You're a wonderful, beautiful, talented soul who has been there for a lot of people, and you will have so many people in your corner when you're down. If you ever need someone to vent to, or just wanna say hello, I'll always be around -- I understand the struggles that comes with addiction and I know it's harder doing it alone. You're strong as heck and I see huge things for you in the future. Keep up the positivity and don't let anyone get you down. My husband and I are rooting for you!
I was under my depression for about 4 years now, still using medicines.
In my opinion, You are very strong, at less much stronger than I did.
Some time, life is mess up. And it's already very brave to face it.
Many emotions are reasonable existing, really don't needs to feel guilty about it. Even though live with them were hard sometime.
I believe you will win this war about life.
Good luck with everything and things will be better.
Expecting seeing more of your artworks.
In my opinion, You are very strong, at less much stronger than I did.
Some time, life is mess up. And it's already very brave to face it.
Many emotions are reasonable existing, really don't needs to feel guilty about it. Even though live with them were hard sometime.
I believe you will win this war about life.
Good luck with everything and things will be better.
Expecting seeing more of your artworks.
I'm glad you're a little more whole now. Keep it up.
I take an Adderal-equivalent for my own attention problems (going on..gosh, eight years now), and even at a sixth of the dose, I've had some very negative moments. It's like it takes whatever you were feeling when you took it and cranks it up to 11.
How does Strattera compare to it?
I take an Adderal-equivalent for my own attention problems (going on..gosh, eight years now), and even at a sixth of the dose, I've had some very negative moments. It's like it takes whatever you were feeling when you took it and cranks it up to 11.
How does Strattera compare to it?
It's fantastic to hear you've clawed your way to the surface again ((though sad that you ever had to to begin with; no one deserves to struggle like this). A friend helped me financially in a similar way to what happened to you. The amount of love in my heart for that person for being so kind to be over the years and going that far as to help me pay for my place... is immense.
It just goes to show that there really are good, kind people out there who want to see you thrive, and having a support system of some sort is invaluable in times as hard as these. I've looked up to your work for a long time now and I'm happy to hear that you're taking good care of yourself after all the turmoil! You deserve to feel something resembling content, and without the grip of the more intense substances from before tied directly to that content feeling.
This might be weird because I don't know you personally, but it's still true that I'm proud of you, and seeing you not merely surviving but starting to thrive is adding fuel to my personal burning desire to find my way out of my own maze. It's amazing that you found it in you to be honest and emotional around your community. Basically, I admire the hell out of you for your honesty and bravery; thank you for sharing it with us. <3
It just goes to show that there really are good, kind people out there who want to see you thrive, and having a support system of some sort is invaluable in times as hard as these. I've looked up to your work for a long time now and I'm happy to hear that you're taking good care of yourself after all the turmoil! You deserve to feel something resembling content, and without the grip of the more intense substances from before tied directly to that content feeling.
This might be weird because I don't know you personally, but it's still true that I'm proud of you, and seeing you not merely surviving but starting to thrive is adding fuel to my personal burning desire to find my way out of my own maze. It's amazing that you found it in you to be honest and emotional around your community. Basically, I admire the hell out of you for your honesty and bravery; thank you for sharing it with us. <3
I know you probably won't get to reply, and that's totally okay. But I want you to know that I've been a long time fan of you. I worried when you disappeared and hoped that you were okay and would one day return. I am very sorry to hear about what you've been through, and I can relate to a lot of it on a personal level. I struggled with drugs in my late teens and early twenties and fell into a really deep hole. I've been clean for several years now, myself, but I remember pushing everyone away and not knowing if you'd make it until tomorrow.
I am ecstatic to see your return. You've always been a massive inspiration to me, and I can't wait to see your shine return to this community. Just know that, for every bit of hate you receive, there will be a hundred more pieces of love. We are all here supporting you on your continued journey to recovery and re-establishing yourself. You got this!
I am ecstatic to see your return. You've always been a massive inspiration to me, and I can't wait to see your shine return to this community. Just know that, for every bit of hate you receive, there will be a hundred more pieces of love. We are all here supporting you on your continued journey to recovery and re-establishing yourself. You got this!
I've always loved your art. I too have struggled with Adderall addiction in the past and it was literally 3 months of awesomeness then it went downhill. I was taking about the same amount you did daily. In the end it hindered my productivity worse than before I started it. Now I don't even draw anymore.. I just binge drink frequently and let my talent waste away.
But, I'm really glad you've overcome your hardships.. it's definitely not easy. I wish you luck and nothing but happiness from here forward. <3 You can do it!
But, I'm really glad you've overcome your hardships.. it's definitely not easy. I wish you luck and nothing but happiness from here forward. <3 You can do it!
I have a lot of respect for you. How you got through this and quit the drugs and the drinking.
I hope from now on you'll be able to shut out the toxicity out of your life, and start a path of healing.
Even though you don't know me, I'll be rooting for you from the sidelines <3
I hope from now on you'll be able to shut out the toxicity out of your life, and start a path of healing.
Even though you don't know me, I'll be rooting for you from the sidelines <3
Good job lady!! That is hella impressive and you should be proud!
I am an alcoholic and a Rx drug addict. Adderall and alcohol were always my drugs of choice. I used them to cope with severe depression and crippling anxiety. I used then simultaniously, and often times mixed them. I attempted suicide more than once. It was a horrible time in my life, and I did things I never dreamed I would ever even attempt. I used a program of recover after I lost everything, and today I am 9 years sober.
Just be careful with Marijuana use. While I believe that it is a significantly better option than alcohol and hard drugs, any mind-altering substance has the possibility to trigger a craving for something harder (at least in my experience). It may not be the same case for you, but just be cautious. I am extremely happy to hear that the weed helps you to stay away from significantly more harmful, harder things.
Keep at it. Remember, there’s a healthy lifestyle out there for all addicts and alcoholics to stay sober, it’s just a matter of what works for you. Keep it up, and never be afraid to ask for help if you are struggling <3
I am an alcoholic and a Rx drug addict. Adderall and alcohol were always my drugs of choice. I used them to cope with severe depression and crippling anxiety. I used then simultaniously, and often times mixed them. I attempted suicide more than once. It was a horrible time in my life, and I did things I never dreamed I would ever even attempt. I used a program of recover after I lost everything, and today I am 9 years sober.
Just be careful with Marijuana use. While I believe that it is a significantly better option than alcohol and hard drugs, any mind-altering substance has the possibility to trigger a craving for something harder (at least in my experience). It may not be the same case for you, but just be cautious. I am extremely happy to hear that the weed helps you to stay away from significantly more harmful, harder things.
Keep at it. Remember, there’s a healthy lifestyle out there for all addicts and alcoholics to stay sober, it’s just a matter of what works for you. Keep it up, and never be afraid to ask for help if you are struggling <3
I happy to hear you are pulling though that and doing better addiction is hard to beat and if your beating it then I admire that. I have always loved your art its beautiful, I discovered your art early on in my time in the fandom. I highly admire your skills you are gifted a amazing artist I'm happy for you if you have overcome what is holding you back good job Falvie
Thank you for the sharing the time of your day to tell us your story.
At the end of the day there is always the future of tomorrow to look forward to.
There is always going to be tough times we all will get through in our lives. I'm just glad you got through most of yours already!
Keep hanging on, we believe in you.
At the end of the day there is always the future of tomorrow to look forward to.
There is always going to be tough times we all will get through in our lives. I'm just glad you got through most of yours already!
Keep hanging on, we believe in you.
All I ever saw was the art. It was of high quality, and the people in it looked happy, so, you assume the person drawing it is happy? I had no idea this was going on.
When you post art, it is going to be criticised, the better it is, the more critics. (Low-end kid drawings get not attention, but when something is actually good enough to be noticed? Hate.) Never tie your deepest identity to that. If it's on the internet it might as well be drawn on the sidewalk, it's in a place where people will step on it.
Good to hear things are looking up!
When you post art, it is going to be criticised, the better it is, the more critics. (Low-end kid drawings get not attention, but when something is actually good enough to be noticed? Hate.) Never tie your deepest identity to that. If it's on the internet it might as well be drawn on the sidewalk, it's in a place where people will step on it.
Good to hear things are looking up!
I've heard some negative things about you here and there, but who am I to believe it and judge you by those things when I've never seen any of it, or experienced it for myself? We all have issues, we all make mistakes, none of us are perfect and never will be. We can only strive to be the best person that we can be, and I commend you for coming this far. I have my fair share of personal issues myself, but I want 2019 to be a good year for me, I want to learn to love myself and feel happier in general. Wishing you the best, may the universe provide you with all the positive energy that you need.
some of this stuff is sadly relatable, but on that note I just want to honestly say I'm REALLY freaking proud of you! getting clean and fixing a life with a crumbling foundation is.... not easy (big understatement lol), especially when there's a war zone behind your eyes that's been there for as long as you can remember :'(
just reading this made me feel so happy for you. I'm glad that you can finally see that you do deserve your friends and all of the kindness that people offer to you, but most importantly that you deserve your own love too.
just reading this made me feel so happy for you. I'm glad that you can finally see that you do deserve your friends and all of the kindness that people offer to you, but most importantly that you deserve your own love too.
Wow. This is very moving and so well said.
It's very brave of you to bare yourself like this and to be so honest and clear about where you have been and where you might hope to go. As you said, the negative things are very powerful. It's a consequence of the way our brains are wired that the negative has a much stronger impact than the positive, and we always need to remind ourselves of that.
Good for you for being able to find the strength and perspective to get beyond your physical and psychological self abuse. For one reason or another many never emerge from the downside of that arc in life.
And dammit, bless those people who have more faith in our humanity when we need it than we do ourselves. We delude ourselves if we think we really do anything alone. We are truly but small parts of a larger organism, and caring for all the other parts of it is really caring for ourselves.
I don't know you but from your art, but your story here makes me feel better about the chances of my overcoming some of my own darker aspects...
One of the best things about humans is that we can grow and change. If we are honest with ourselves, we are all weak and broken. May we all find the redemption we need.
Blessings, and best of luck as you continue your journey. Be good to yourself...! ♡
It's very brave of you to bare yourself like this and to be so honest and clear about where you have been and where you might hope to go. As you said, the negative things are very powerful. It's a consequence of the way our brains are wired that the negative has a much stronger impact than the positive, and we always need to remind ourselves of that.
Good for you for being able to find the strength and perspective to get beyond your physical and psychological self abuse. For one reason or another many never emerge from the downside of that arc in life.
And dammit, bless those people who have more faith in our humanity when we need it than we do ourselves. We delude ourselves if we think we really do anything alone. We are truly but small parts of a larger organism, and caring for all the other parts of it is really caring for ourselves.
I don't know you but from your art, but your story here makes me feel better about the chances of my overcoming some of my own darker aspects...
One of the best things about humans is that we can grow and change. If we are honest with ourselves, we are all weak and broken. May we all find the redemption we need.
Blessings, and best of luck as you continue your journey. Be good to yourself...! ♡
i am SO proud of you Summer. i DOnt know you but youve alwasy been an inspiration to me, and even as a eprson not oly art wise.
you ARE stronga and you ARE the beautiful flower that grew through this whole ordeal
people odnt udnerstand how much it can mean to jsut have a fiedn to liste, to take it all in and understand. give a hug if needed. i am SO proud of the person you are, and even if it sounds bad, the person you were.
Because that påerson didnt give up, it kept fighting and dealt with all the shitty stuff to the best of your abilities.
Getting clean and geting your life sorted is such a big step only good things can await.
and honeslty i know how hard it is to keep up the facade of being happy and wantng to help your loved ones.
you are doing wonders and finding redemption.
even if im a complete stranger know me, just as all of your supporters are here for you if yuou ever neeed anythign. You seem super sweet and your hole story really hit me.
im so proud of who youre becoming, and that you're still around.
Thank you for being strong, and thank you for being able to let your wall down and share this.
I love ya man take care <3
you ARE stronga and you ARE the beautiful flower that grew through this whole ordeal
people odnt udnerstand how much it can mean to jsut have a fiedn to liste, to take it all in and understand. give a hug if needed. i am SO proud of the person you are, and even if it sounds bad, the person you were.
Because that påerson didnt give up, it kept fighting and dealt with all the shitty stuff to the best of your abilities.
Getting clean and geting your life sorted is such a big step only good things can await.
and honeslty i know how hard it is to keep up the facade of being happy and wantng to help your loved ones.
you are doing wonders and finding redemption.
even if im a complete stranger know me, just as all of your supporters are here for you if yuou ever neeed anythign. You seem super sweet and your hole story really hit me.
im so proud of who youre becoming, and that you're still around.
Thank you for being strong, and thank you for being able to let your wall down and share this.
I love ya man take care <3
This truly is so motivational. Sounds weird cause I never was at that kind of point in life - and tbh I'm glad :/
Though I find it inspirational and motivational reading this. Somewhere in the middle it became shocking and then it became inspirational. You saw the ugliest things, felt the worst feelings and now you're here.
You. Are. Here.
Falvie you're awesome.
I don't wanna imagine how terrible it must be to share all this with completely strange people. You must had goosebumps when you typed it.
You're such a strong person - and now an even more inspiring person for me.
Not only cause I admire your art and probably always will :P
*hugs*
Though I find it inspirational and motivational reading this. Somewhere in the middle it became shocking and then it became inspirational. You saw the ugliest things, felt the worst feelings and now you're here.
You. Are. Here.
Falvie you're awesome.
I don't wanna imagine how terrible it must be to share all this with completely strange people. You must had goosebumps when you typed it.
You're such a strong person - and now an even more inspiring person for me.
Not only cause I admire your art and probably always will :P
*hugs*
I remember your artwork from the late 2000s. I remember the cute little platypus character that you used to have, and the adorable little griffin character as well (a long time ago, I know)! I've always looked up to you and your art. I'm so glad that you're in a better place now, and that you're healing and taking care of yourself. Your health comes first! I'm so happy to hear of your recovery, also! Keep going! You've got this! ^_^
FALVIE/SUMMER YOU ARE AMAZINAG THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR STORY I'm fucking literally soobbing rn ;w; i feel so similar to you, like an abused, aggressive animal just learning to be empathetic, kind, patient, and give what i can until i can give more, and not my entire worth.......
I just wanna tell yiou my story; I've followed you for all those years, and you SUPER inspired me!!! i saw someone who's spirit resonated in me; a warrior trying to be more than just their battles. and i also had a terrible abusive childhood, with a drug addict mom and a dad who looked away when she took her rage out on me. she was poisonous and authoritarian, i took the physical/mental abuse and internalized it, thinmk,ing i really WASNT worth anything. i didnt fight back till my 18th birthday, when i was kicked out. thats when my trap years started. erally bad times, and i did things i shouldnt have and hurt people bc i didnt know better. ive always seen you as someone like, me, someone bright and wanting good and i worried for YEARS when you were in the trap house period!!!! and just in general. i have the tendency to be drowning, hurting, yet when i finally get a breath over the waves i just yell 'IM FINE IM STRONG I HAVE TO BE STRONG JUST BE GOOD TO EACH OTHER PLEASE" tghen go back under. the feeling of refusing help bc you didnt know your 'wound' was infected, didnt know wwho to trust, just knew how to FIGHT and RUN and dream and draw. I spent a year straight drunk before, when i was 20. i did the same thing....... the people who i dated treated me like shit, or like a dumb toy or plaything. when i said no it was taken as, a suggestion.... but now I'm 25 and i have been sober for months, and trying to stay that way. Life is so much better and the people in it trust, respect, love, and BELEIVE in me. its great. now that im healing it feels good to stop dreaming.... and start chasing those dreams!!!!!! AND IT FEELS SO GOOD TO SEE YOU CHASING YOUR DREAMS ITS SO AMAZING DUDE!!!! <3 <3 <3 so inspiring, and i know im not alone, and yiou arent alone. we are all in this bish TOHGETHER!!!!!!! BUT 420 IS FOREVER that shit can make anxiety just float away x3 LOLFGJKDGLHSJDKFSGHJFDS
I just wanna tell yiou my story; I've followed you for all those years, and you SUPER inspired me!!! i saw someone who's spirit resonated in me; a warrior trying to be more than just their battles. and i also had a terrible abusive childhood, with a drug addict mom and a dad who looked away when she took her rage out on me. she was poisonous and authoritarian, i took the physical/mental abuse and internalized it, thinmk,ing i really WASNT worth anything. i didnt fight back till my 18th birthday, when i was kicked out. thats when my trap years started. erally bad times, and i did things i shouldnt have and hurt people bc i didnt know better. ive always seen you as someone like, me, someone bright and wanting good and i worried for YEARS when you were in the trap house period!!!! and just in general. i have the tendency to be drowning, hurting, yet when i finally get a breath over the waves i just yell 'IM FINE IM STRONG I HAVE TO BE STRONG JUST BE GOOD TO EACH OTHER PLEASE" tghen go back under. the feeling of refusing help bc you didnt know your 'wound' was infected, didnt know wwho to trust, just knew how to FIGHT and RUN and dream and draw. I spent a year straight drunk before, when i was 20. i did the same thing....... the people who i dated treated me like shit, or like a dumb toy or plaything. when i said no it was taken as, a suggestion.... but now I'm 25 and i have been sober for months, and trying to stay that way. Life is so much better and the people in it trust, respect, love, and BELEIVE in me. its great. now that im healing it feels good to stop dreaming.... and start chasing those dreams!!!!!! AND IT FEELS SO GOOD TO SEE YOU CHASING YOUR DREAMS ITS SO AMAZING DUDE!!!! <3 <3 <3 so inspiring, and i know im not alone, and yiou arent alone. we are all in this bish TOHGETHER!!!!!!! BUT 420 IS FOREVER that shit can make anxiety just float away x3 LOLFGJKDGLHSJDKFSGHJFDS
IM STILL CRYING I WAS LITEARALLY A TEEN GOING THRU THE SAME SHIT SEEING UR ART AND JOURNALS AND THOUGHTS ON STUFF ON DA/OEKAKI/FA and just seeing someone else, someone good, who was fighting, despite it, no matter what crazy shit happens. i just want you to know youre seriously amazing, and im really glad to see you on the other side <3
If there are mistakes in the text, then please forgive me not an Anglican. I wanted to say that you are a very strong person because not all of them get out of it. Drugs are a strong addiction my friend committed suicide when he could not resist. But you are truly a strong person and stay like that. I can’t provide material support, but if I need advice, I can give it as I did through it myself. Just don’t hesitate to express your emotions in art, it really helps to draw not only what you see, but what you feel even if it is complete nonsense. I hope you will recover soon and you will be fine in the future. Not when you don’t wait
I've seen this just now.
I can understand a lot of what you went through, but by no means all. I grew up in poverty, with an alcoholic father, and constantly being bullied and abused due to my failure to fit in socially, thanks to having slight autism. I had suicidal thoughts around just 12, I did self harm, I had several mental breakdowns, and so on. At least I didn't do drugs because my alcoholic father was a prime example of where that leads.
Probably the lowest point was when a classmate tried to push me out of a 3rd story window, in school and I barely escaped, but when I told the teachers nobody would believe me.
My entire life I just wanted to be a good person, do what's right and help those who need it. Yet I was met with constant hate and abuse for no good reason, and constantly told what worthless piece of shit I am. And then because of this, ever since I have a strong, instinctive, almost paranoid urge to prove everyone that I'm worthy and not a bad person, even though inside I know the truth. Every time I feel that I'm misunderstood or misrepresented, or that people judge me unjustly I go into a panic spiral of trying to explain myself, which only makes everything worse, and usually ends in everyone thinking that I'm just refusing to listen to them and want to be right no matter what, and this spirals down until I completely break down.
Last times this happened I went into a mind state where I stopped feeling anything. No any emotions, good or bad at all, just emptiness. I didn't even feel cold, warm or pain. I'm not proud of this, but I've turned to self-harm, something I haven't done in a long time, just to make myself feel again. I never ever want to be in that place again.
But I'm better now, because over the years I have made friends who were able and willing to see through my issues and see the good in me. And they would give me tons of feedback and advice in how to deal with these issues. And most importantly, they would forgive, even if at times I made them really angry and annoyed, and hurt them without meaning to. And I have also had cases when strangers have helped me unconditionally. many years ago one such person made it possible for me to make one of my biggest dreams true: travel to Tibet and cross the Himalayas on foot, an experience that has changed me forever.
And the point is, that both you and me have recognized the destructive patterns in ourselves, and started working on dealing with them. Our wounds will take a long time to heal fully - maybe an entire lifetime. But what matters is that we know the truth: That deep inside we just wanted to be good people and do good things. And we need to embrace this, and keep fighting on. We both believe that we can make the World better with art - that's my whole reason to make art in the first place, trying to make a living with it is only for practical reasons, it was never the real goal.
Facing your inner demons takes courage, and so does coming forward and admit to people that you screwed up and you are sorry. There are good people out there who believe in us and so we must believe in ourselves too. And I believe in you too. So just keep up trying your best to be a good person. And I'll do the same.
I can understand a lot of what you went through, but by no means all. I grew up in poverty, with an alcoholic father, and constantly being bullied and abused due to my failure to fit in socially, thanks to having slight autism. I had suicidal thoughts around just 12, I did self harm, I had several mental breakdowns, and so on. At least I didn't do drugs because my alcoholic father was a prime example of where that leads.
Probably the lowest point was when a classmate tried to push me out of a 3rd story window, in school and I barely escaped, but when I told the teachers nobody would believe me.
My entire life I just wanted to be a good person, do what's right and help those who need it. Yet I was met with constant hate and abuse for no good reason, and constantly told what worthless piece of shit I am. And then because of this, ever since I have a strong, instinctive, almost paranoid urge to prove everyone that I'm worthy and not a bad person, even though inside I know the truth. Every time I feel that I'm misunderstood or misrepresented, or that people judge me unjustly I go into a panic spiral of trying to explain myself, which only makes everything worse, and usually ends in everyone thinking that I'm just refusing to listen to them and want to be right no matter what, and this spirals down until I completely break down.
Last times this happened I went into a mind state where I stopped feeling anything. No any emotions, good or bad at all, just emptiness. I didn't even feel cold, warm or pain. I'm not proud of this, but I've turned to self-harm, something I haven't done in a long time, just to make myself feel again. I never ever want to be in that place again.
But I'm better now, because over the years I have made friends who were able and willing to see through my issues and see the good in me. And they would give me tons of feedback and advice in how to deal with these issues. And most importantly, they would forgive, even if at times I made them really angry and annoyed, and hurt them without meaning to. And I have also had cases when strangers have helped me unconditionally. many years ago one such person made it possible for me to make one of my biggest dreams true: travel to Tibet and cross the Himalayas on foot, an experience that has changed me forever.
And the point is, that both you and me have recognized the destructive patterns in ourselves, and started working on dealing with them. Our wounds will take a long time to heal fully - maybe an entire lifetime. But what matters is that we know the truth: That deep inside we just wanted to be good people and do good things. And we need to embrace this, and keep fighting on. We both believe that we can make the World better with art - that's my whole reason to make art in the first place, trying to make a living with it is only for practical reasons, it was never the real goal.
Facing your inner demons takes courage, and so does coming forward and admit to people that you screwed up and you are sorry. There are good people out there who believe in us and so we must believe in ourselves too. And I believe in you too. So just keep up trying your best to be a good person. And I'll do the same.
I only got to see this now, but to be able to truly reveal a wound to the world is the very first step into being able to pick yourself up and move forward. You have been both an inspiration and an insight into the artists world for me ever since I seen your artwork for the first time. I thought that someone who can bring so much light into the world of creativity must also be able to bring the same to the light of everyone around. I still do believe this to be true and the battle and trials of life may be hard now, but with every down there will always be an up.
You are well on your way to becoming stronger and repelling the evil in your life. Never think you are not worthy enough and never believe that you are anything less than your best. As the saying goes : "Make the best of your todays the worst of your tomorrows." By following that logic, you can always and only go up from where you are standing.
There are many people who will be rooting for you even if it does not seem that way and I really hope that you do your best on your road to recovery! Always remember there are many out there offering their silent prayers for you and with that keep on moving forward and remember that the past and the future never matter its only about here and now!
Good luck Falvie/Summer never stop smiling!
You are well on your way to becoming stronger and repelling the evil in your life. Never think you are not worthy enough and never believe that you are anything less than your best. As the saying goes : "Make the best of your todays the worst of your tomorrows." By following that logic, you can always and only go up from where you are standing.
There are many people who will be rooting for you even if it does not seem that way and I really hope that you do your best on your road to recovery! Always remember there are many out there offering their silent prayers for you and with that keep on moving forward and remember that the past and the future never matter its only about here and now!
Good luck Falvie/Summer never stop smiling!
I have followed your art for a long time and It is interesting to hear the story behind the hints and changes i've noticed in your art over the years. I'm very glad you've established a positive emotional IQ and understand yourself better. I too have an attention disorder that makes me a bit emotionally explosive, but learning to control myself from the inside, and be truthful to myself, has given me the tools to beat those urges. The more you exercise those positive resources of the mind, the stronger they become and the easier it gets. It can be hard to maintain discipline sometimes, and these negative aspects of your psyche can launch surprise attacks if you get too comfortable. It's important to incorporate them into yourself and work with them so your always in control, and you always understand what you can become, rather than try to bury them and ultimately fail when they re-emerge. Remember that it is difficult, human beings are fallible. You'll make mistakes, and that's okay, don't let the mistakes define you.
All the best fighting your daemons and I hope you have a wonderful and prosperous future. I do look forward to any art you decide to share along the way.
All the best fighting your daemons and I hope you have a wonderful and prosperous future. I do look forward to any art you decide to share along the way.
I love you and your work ever since the day I first found your art art featured in a YouTube video, you are one of the reasons i joined the fandom. i had no idea of what happened in that time of silence, though i did believe you had something come up. once i read this i just wish i could've done something, even though we aren't close but still. I do wish you the best in everything! *hugs
I only know you from your beautiful artwork. I'm so happy to see it in my notifications again. Congratulations for being 2 years free of hard drugs, I know that can be such an uphill battle. You don't know me, but i believe in you! You've made the choices to better yourself, and I wish you the best!!!!
Hey Falvie, I have to say that you’ve been a very great inspiration to me. I had noticed all of the happenings even so much as your haiatus. I’m very glad you are back to posting your art and using it to spread life’s important lessons. Especially because it seems you have experience to actually know those feelings.
Congrats on everything and may 2019 year of the Pig be your celestial calling. :D
<3
Congrats on everything and may 2019 year of the Pig be your celestial calling. :D
<3
I myself quitted the fur community for around a some years, deleted my old account and moved in from many many drama.. Man i remmeber how back then id start at your art and say to myself "this man.. his talents" and one day you dissapeared, It wasnt a good time but i had faith knowing youd be back.. and here i am, returning 2 years late for your return!
I know im 2 years late, but welcome back!!!!
I know im 2 years late, but welcome back!!!!
This spoke volumes to me, you are one of my biggest inspirations of why i started digital arting in the furry world next to imvu's finest...i've too had some dark rough patches in life that i swore would bring me down,furry life however has lifted me up and down at points but somehow my happy place is art and other artists i can relate with to extents...I am glad you are doing better and i am sorry for the shizz you been through, keep lookin up buttercup! ~Heth
I know I dont know you personally or anything like that, but I am extremely happy that you were able to pull yourself out of such a mess and are on your way of getting better. It also makes me glad to see so many people caring and supporting you on.
I remember finding your art around June of 2017 when I joined the fandom, which is fairly recent especially compared to some other people in these comments haha. I actually made a comment on an old post that I now VERY much regret, and I think its hidden too (which is good)
...Anyway, I was and still am really blown away by your art! Its truly amazing, and you still inspire me like how you did in 2017. Best of luck to ya, Falvie!~
I remember finding your art around June of 2017 when I joined the fandom, which is fairly recent especially compared to some other people in these comments haha. I actually made a comment on an old post that I now VERY much regret, and I think its hidden too (which is good)
...Anyway, I was and still am really blown away by your art! Its truly amazing, and you still inspire me like how you did in 2017. Best of luck to ya, Falvie!~
I am glad I found you again after I had lost your art for some years. To be honest, you were the person who got me into drawing. I just looked at your art and thought:"I wanna be as good as him sometime". I didn't know what you were going through and I'm so sorry for what happened.
It would have felt a little hole in my heart, if I would have found out that you had killed yourself. We have lost too many good people. You shouldn't be one of them.
Remember: life is hard, but somewhere, sometime. You. Will. Know. Who. You. Are.
Stay positive and keep up the outstanding work.
It would have felt a little hole in my heart, if I would have found out that you had killed yourself. We have lost too many good people. You shouldn't be one of them.
Remember: life is hard, but somewhere, sometime. You. Will. Know. Who. You. Are.
Stay positive and keep up the outstanding work.
I read all of it, and just as I decided to pay attention to what you write, I hope you will pay attention to my response.
Now, it seems that I and you believe in slightly different "truths" about the universe, but I think you will agree with this rather condensed wisdom regarding the human nature: guilt and shame are to be discarded the moment they hurt more than help. As a matter of fact, you almost never need those things.
Now, it seems that I and you believe in slightly different "truths" about the universe, but I think you will agree with this rather condensed wisdom regarding the human nature: guilt and shame are to be discarded the moment they hurt more than help. As a matter of fact, you almost never need those things.
Not sure if you will see this. I will sometimes come back to your art pages cuz you are a true inspiration for small artists like myself. I just took the time to read all this. I have also read the beware posts about you. All I have to say is keep going forward. We were all young and dumb and made mistakes whether were in the wrong or right. But were all adults now, and the things we have done wrong need to be kept in the past. Growth is the most adult thing anyone can do. Keep on moving forward. <3
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