This abyss is a song I really love hearing and makes me feel better when I falling into the abyss...

Lyrics:
<sub>This abyss, this lightless void
This abyss of world destroyed
This abyss, all deep, all wide
This abyss of being denied

Even in the darkest forest
Fireflies are flickering
But not in this abyss of black increase
This abyss, without surcease

Even in the deepest ocean
There's a little moonlight
But not in this abyss of night unbound
This abyss, without a sound

Even in your bedroom shadows
There is something moving
But not in this abyss, this all-below
This abyss, this death, this "no"</sub>

Is funny how apparently whatever I do or say can be used againist me, how any decision I made seems to make my situation worse, how any plan I do gets wrecked by things I am out of control. But no is not just once..is over...and over...and over...and over....and over and who knows how many more times it will happend again.
Myself thinks is a nausance to my friends and everyone because noone tells me what I did wrong,so I think everyhting is wrong.
Seems like a joke when I get angry, pissed or frustraded becomes into sadness.
I just realized that obscurus (Harry potter) analogy to depression, anxiety, etc. Which is funny if you get to think how many people will have obscurus in their lifes and these lashing out and causing chaos. I think..maybe....my obscurus would be as big as Credence barebone's or even bigger...I have so much resentment, anger, sadness, fruistration inside my heart that I feel empty, there are times where I want to wreck everything, times when I just want to lie in bed and hope death comes during my sleep and other times when I just want end myself with the fastest method posible.
And if you are still reading this, congratulations...
In all honestly, I love and I am used to keep things myself, then why I wrote this? Well, cause I gotta take out the thrash of my mind with hopes someone cares about me and viceversa reads it.


Have a good night
I am working on coms and stuff if some of my commissioners are reading this, after all, coloring stuff for some money (aka work) is one of the things that keeps me alive.