where have i been all this time?
lost enslaved fatal decline

ive been waiting for this to unfold
the pieces are only as good as the whole

severed myself from my whole life
cut off the only thing that was right

what if i never saw you again?
id die right next to you in the end

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i'm beginning to think that trying to keep and maintain relationships and friendships isn't worth the pain. it always ends with people getting hurt, and i never seem to be good enough. i tried hard. i tried real hard. i opened myself up more and loved more and comforted more but it wasn't enough.

maybe if i withdraw from the world, close my blinds, and lock the doors i'll finally stop hurting.

i'm working myself out from this slump and i'll try to upload more soon.